Episode One - https://literotica.com/s/sweat-16
Episode Two - https://literotica.com/s/scrubs-2
Episode Three - https://literotica.com/s/the-party-starter
Episode Four - https://literotica.com/s/oral-4-you-oral-4-me
Episode Five - https://literotica.com/s/talk-dirty-to-me-13
Episode Six - https://literotica.com/s/kates-on-top
Episode Seven - https://literotica.com/s/lets-sixty-nine
Episode Eight - Tie Me Up, Tie Me Down
I don't want to call this a routine... god, no! But the process *is* becoming routine.
I'm able to get through the week with wonderful memories of the previous Monday -- and all the other Mondays -- without stressing too much about seeing the signal on Sunday.
Sunday night, last night, it's there. This morning, Monday, I'm stepping into Kate's kitchen, promptly at 9:30.
The card is face-down on the table. I turn it over and read what Kate has written:
"Tie Me
Up, Tie
Me Down"
And I feel like the floor has opened up and wants to swallow me. This is what I've been afraid of.
This is not my jam. This is something I don't know about... kind of at all. Sure, I've read about it. Sure, I've thought about it. Sure, I've even fantasized about it. I've just never... done it.
In college, a girlfriend and I played around with bondage, mainly using her scarves or neckties from my closet. It didn't do that much for either one of us and we never moved onto the other things, straps and cuffs and all.
I've also never seen any demonstration of it, like in porn, that didn't look like bad actors -- really bad actors -- trying to create some insane gothic horror scene. The person bound up never seems to be really enjoying it. The person playing the dominant one always seems angry... mean.
And this... if we do this... is with Kate. My dear, gorgeous, beautiful, incredible, vulnerable... Kate!
Goddamit, Kate!! My Kathryn!!!
Who's already lived with, and in, and through, an abusive relationship. And she now hates the guy. I can feel it through her eyes. I can taste it in her words.
The hole that wants to swallow me is very deep, indeed.
Head Voice comes to the rescue.
(Dude... Randy... RANDY!) he says, mainly to get my attention. (Look, man... I know what you're thinking.
(You don't want to hurt her. And you're afraid that there's no way this COULDn't hurt her... that it WON't hurt her.)
Head voices pauses, then: (Am I right??)
And he is. He knows he is.
He continues: (Remember: This whole experiment... this month-and-a-half of incredible sex... is WITH you. But it's not ABOUT you. It's about Kate. It's about what Kate wants. That's been the rule from the jump. And today... she's told you she wants to experience this.)
He reads my next objection before I can even think it.
(She's also told you that she's willing to allow the two of you to learn things... together. She doesn't know the "right way" to do something any better than you do. You've shown her some really new shit... for her... since this thing started.
(She knows you'll be careful. Shit, *I* know you'll be careful. Stop thinking about you... and go have some fun in the process.
(Now get your ass upstairs... be careful... and make that girl happy.)
I climb the stairs and open the door to Kate's Fuck Buddy room.
The room is darker than last week. The walls appear black, even. The LED lights at the ceiling glow a vivid red.
The bed is red, with a soft black throw tossed across it.
Kate turns out of the alcove as I enter. It's like she was arranging things for our session. She smiles at me and steps toward me.
She's wearing a gorgeous red lace bra and red lace panties. She's also wearing bright red lipstick and has red fingernails and toenails. The colored lips and nails are a first, that I can recall.
The bra is sort of a scoop-neck affair with a keyhole bodice. Two straps make sort of a "V" through the keyhole and rest on the inside of each glorious boob. The lace goes from the keyhole outward and features a floral-and-leaf pattern. Her remarkable tits are straining against the cups that can barely contain them. And then I notice the panties.
They're crotchless.
She wraps her arms around my neck and whispers "Good morning."
Then: "It's going to ruin my lipstick but kiss me, Goddamit!"
I have to admit, a kiss like this from Kate is an incredible way to start the week.
The kiss breaks. I keep Kate within my arms. Time to set some ground-rules. Because I'm careful like that.
"Good morning," I say through a sigh. "Have I told you what an amazing way it is to start my week with a kiss... like that... from you?"
"Flattery like that," Kate whispers, "will probably get you... somewhere."
"Mmmm," I reply. " I hope so."
But I need to cover something first.
"Kate," I begin. "Are you familiar with what a 'safe word' is?"
Her expression changes and her eyes squint a little.
"Is that like 'safe language' that you can use at work... or at church?" she asks.
Head Voice: (Spoken like a true Nebraska farm girl!)
"Not really," I reply. "It's a word that people can use in the middle of being passionate with each other.
"It's a word that signals that things aren't going well... they're going too far... that they're not working... that they're painful."
"What's wrong with 'don't' or 'stop'?" Kate asked, sincerely.
"Say those again... more quickly," I suggest.
Kate complies. "Don't. Stop," she says quietly. Then, more quietly: "Oh. I see..."
I continue. "It's usually a word that probably would never come up when people are... fucking.
"Something like 'tangerine'...or 'asparagus'."
Kate replies, "Okay... I get it. Why are we talking about this now... this morning?"
Kate is still in my arms. She's trying to understand... not disengage.
"Because sweetheart," I begin. The tiniest smile curled onto one of Kate's lips when I said "sweetheart."
"Because some of what we might do with this activity this morning might trigger some unpleasant memories... from your past.
"I've told you before that I want to be very careful to not remind you of something that was so unpleasant for you back then.
"You've told me how rough he was with you. From what you've said, I think he was a monster.
"Some of this activity has the capacity to be rough... rougher than some people like... or are ready for.
"And I don't want to cross over the line and become another monster to you.
"That would be the most horrible thing I could ever imagine.
"A safe word will be my signal. A signal I need... I really need... to hear."
Kate's stare into my eyes has never wavered through this whole little speech of mine.
Now she has a look in her eyes that I last saw in my family room when I told her I wanted to be very careful in this crazy endeavor of hers. Because I didn't want to hurt her.
Then, in my family room, she softly gripped my hand and thanked me, warmly. Sincerely.
This morning, in her Fuck Buddy Room, she's in my arms... in her lingerie... and her response is, accordingly, very different.
Kate pulls herself more fully into me. She very softly, then very deeply, kisses me... directly. Determinedly. Passionately.
The kiss ends, and it softly, very softly, breaks.
Now it's Kate's turn.
"Randy," she begins, "I need to admit something to you.
"I didn't know much about you when I started thinking up this little idea of mine." She smiles into a soft laugh. "I didn't even really know your name."
"I seem to remember that..." I reply. And then, with a grin, "...twice."
"That was so mean of me," Kate whispered. Then she continued.
"What I've come to realize as these weeks have gone on," she continued, "is how lucky I was... how lucky I am... that I chose you.
"You have shown me things I've never known before. You have taken me places I could have never gone without you... safely, anyway.
"I have never felt anything but security... safety... even... love... when I've been with you."
Kate suddenly seems a bit flustered.
"Shit!" she exclaims. "I didn't want to say 'love.'
But sometimes it feels just like love.
"Growing up, when I was starting to understand boy and girl things, I was taught it was always called 'making love.'
"If you said 'screwing' or 'fucking' or any of those words, you were nasty. You were gross.
"You were taking something beautiful... something sent from God, my parents would always say... and making it... tawdry.
"If you used those other words, you must be actually doing it yourself. When you know you're not supposed to.
"I thought... when I decided to give myself to Craig... that he would make love to me. That's what people are supposed to do, right?
"He never did. Not once.
"The sex he had on me was nasty. Raunchy. Painful... physically and emotionally.
"The idea of "making love" wasn't the same... for a very long time."
Kate is quiet for a few moments. Then she continues: "But now, there is you. And you're giving me a whole different way to think about having sex with a man.
"With Craig, it was all about him.
"But this isn't about him any more. This is about... about... us."