A tear rolled down her cheek. She stared for a long moment. Another tear fell, then another. Then it was like rain. She remained silent.
I was at a loss, unable to discern her emotions. I began to think I had, once again, said the wrong thing at the wrong time. All through my life I seemed to have had a knack for it. An inappropriate joke when I should have been serious, or serious when I should have just laughed and let it go. I began to feel that familiar pain, that pain that accompanies the heart being torn apart.
*****
It was our first real vacation together. We had been seeing each other for nearly a year and while we had spent many nights together and a weekend here and there this was the first time we had a chance to be together for an extended period of time. I was nervous at first. Could we spend that much time in constant contact without hating each other? Would I get on her nerves? For weeks before I wracked my brain searching for bad habits. Studying everything I did, trying to find the slightest thing that would turn her away. Finally I realized if she loved me those things would mean nothing, and if she had flaws they were already lost to me.
Our week together had been perfect. We flew to St. Thomas, where I had booked a condo on the backside of the island overlooking Magen's Bay. Between the beach, snorkeling, tours and all the resorts amenities we stayed pretty busy, never leaving each other's side. And making love anywhere and anytime we could get away with it..
Now on our last night here, I knew it was time to make that final commitment. We went to dinner at The Petite Pump Room in Charlotte Amalie, where I requested a quiet booth in the corner. During dinner she snuck her hand into the pocket of my slacks, caressing and squeezing my excited manhood through the cloth of my pocket. I looked her in the eyes and whispered, "What you are looking for is not in there."
She looked confused, "Oh, I'm pretty sure I want this."
"I'm sure you do but there is something else for you in my shirt pocket."
She continued her ministrations while looking even more confused. I repeated, "What you are looking for is not in there."
She tugged her hand out of my pocket. And sat there for a moment, simply staring at me. Her hand went to my left breast pocket and slipped inside, her curious stare transformed into an expression of genuine shock. Her jaw dropped, mouth agape she slowly retrieved the ring from my pocket and sat staring at it. That's when the tears began to fall.
She raised her head, looking me straight in the eyes and whispered a single word.
My heart seemed to register it before my brain could process her answer. The self-induced damage immediately fused and I felt absolutely blissful. There was applause from all around me, other patrons signaling their approval. Patricia threw herself at me, wrapping her arms around my neck and kissing me deeply. Her cheek slid over mine and I felt another tear fall where our cheeks pressed together. I am unsure if it was hers or mine, perhaps both. I know my own tears began to fall when she repeated her answer in my ear.
"Yes."
There was no sense attempting to finish our meal, we were both too overwhelmed to eat. I paid the bill, left a generous tip and we left to another round of applause.
Taking my hand in hers she led me through the lot, past the rental car and onto the beach. The late fall sunset here is always spectacular. Tonight the overcast sky amplified the color ten fold. We kicked off our shoes and began walking along the cool wet sand at he edge of the surfs reach. She put her arm around my back and held me tight as we walked. I returned in kind and she laid her head on my shoulder as we strolled.