I will start my story by saying that I have a partner in my life for many, many years. He is a good, kind, decent and caring man, so why can't I stop there and be satisfied? But you see, I have this longing, this desire deep inside like a craving, a hunger which I can't satisfy, can't get out of my mind, can't rid myself of this wanting. OH, this wanting!
Now I was off on one of my photo shoots, which I do as soon as the weather starts to break and the world seems to breathe life again. I had rented a bungalow that was only a short distance back in the woods from one of the Finger Lakes of New York. I just couldn't believe the majestic beauty that spread out before my eyes! New York State like many other states has it's fair amount of people, so it was very surprising to see this beautiful area to be so void of the crowd we are used to seeing. But there I was, in the middle of this seeming infinite beauty, just my camera and me. Oh, and I was off to photograph some of the most exquisite shots anyone could imagine. Just hours of shooting in peaceful solitude, when I realized the sun was setting and I was in the middle of...where?
There I was walking but since I am a no stranger to being in deep woods, I did have a sense of the direction I needed to go. I just wished I was already there and being alone didn't help the slight feeling of alarm, where I might be caught out in the woods as darkness overtook the light. On and on I walked with apprehension beginning to overtake my self-confidence. When I thought I might finally have to admit, I had gotten myself totally lost, I heard rustling in the brush behind me. Of course first thought was, "Oh God! A bear!" Which that too, I am no stranger to! Just as I was about to hit the deck as is said in so many movies, this form emerges from the trees and I could breathe again.
He was in a ranger's uniform carrying a flashlight. My thoughts were saying over and over,
thank-you, thank-you, thank-you...
Walking toward me, I saw he was of slightly taller than average height and being a ranger, you could see he kept himself in very good shape. Finally close enough to me that he could talk in normal range of voice, he asked,
"Are you all right?"
Well at that point all I could say was, "Yes, Now I am!"
Asking where I wanted to be, I told him I had rented a bungalow on the north side of the lake.
"Well, at least you are headed in the right direction, but you still have a way to go. Why don't you come with me? My rover is just in a small clearing not far from here and I could drive you back to your cottage."
About ready to jump and down like a kid with relief, I happily said, "YES!!"
He saw I had a very elaborate camera with me, so he just asked, "You didn't realize how you traveled from your lounging, did you?"
Of course me when I go out with my camera, I do just keep going on and on to the next fantastic sight I see and I told him that very thing.
"Well, relax now, I'll get you back to where you are staying safely that you'll have another day to take your pictures." "But will I have to go looking for you again tomorrow?" He had said with a devilish grin on his face.
With me feeling safer now, I replied, "WELL GEE, I may want you to!"
A half an hour went by and we arrived at my bungalow. God, I couldn't believe I had walked so far, that it still took another half hour of driving to get back! I would have been out there all night! I felt relieved and exhausted both at the same time. He walked with me to the door and was getting ready to leave when I asked if he would come inside and just stay with me for only a short while. He was hesitate but he saw I was a bit unnerved by it all and said he could stay for a bit.
Getting inside and turning on the lights, I finally got a good look at my saving knight. He was very nice looking with a muscular build that could be seen through his uniform but not muscle bound. His face had almost that chiseled looked without the extreme features, making him look very desirable but not untouchable. The feeling you get when you see some of those men with those handsome, definite facial features. Just a good looking man, BUT his eyes!! Oh those eyes!! They were the bluest I had ever seen!! I felt like I could swim in them. I was swooning...melting and trying so hard to maintain a casual composure. But try as I might not to look into those eyes of his the more I was drawn to them.
All I could think was...Oh God, I hope I'm not drooling.
Finally, I think I babbled out, "Would you like to sit down and talk with me, please?"
He knew...oh yes he knew, he had an affect on me. He said, "Sure, you seem like you need someone to be with you and talk for a while." Then he said something that really made my heart jump as well as surprise me.
