I looked up from my book, baffled that I was really on a plane beginning its decent. Am I really doing this? I must have lost my mind.
It had started as a flicker of attraction. Seeing someone's picture and thinking – now that is my definition of hot. Then I didn't really think much else of it ... he was halfway across the country and definitely out of my league.
At some point, we started talking. I honestly don't remember what our first conversations were about. They weren't regular – and still aren't. Sometimes I think that is part of what I like – he's busy with his life, and I'm busy with mine. I usually don't find people without a life of their own, without goals and hobbies, attractive.
But I never thought I'd be flying somewhere for the sole purpose of seeing him. Now that the plane was landing, it was starting to feel more real. The draw of being with him was simply too strong for me to resist. I just hope that if the electricity is as strong as we expect; that I'll be able to go back to how I was.
The shuttle driver tried to make small talk, to which I gave tactful but short answers. I had too much going through my mind to carry on a conversation. A mixture of excitement and worry swam through my veins. Excitement at finally being close enough to this person who electrifies me to see where the spark leads. Worry that the spark might not lead anywhere; or worse – that I've been fooled.
I checked into the hotel ... glancing at my watch. He should be here in about an hour – I only needed to call and let him know what room. But before I call, I had looked up a little place in town and made an appointment. He has a thing for feet – so I want mine to be perfect. I hope that the pedicure will help me relax a little as well.
It's hard not to imagine the hands on my feet are his. As they are soaking in warm water, I call to tell him the room number. He doesn't answer – so I leave a voicemail – and start to worry. What if this is all just a joke to him? To see if he can get a woman to come so far ... I push the thought from my head as the technician asks what color I want my nails painted. I smile wickedly before answering "French."
Back in my hotel room, I'm nervous. I turn on a couple of lamps, and open the curtains to let the calming colors of the sunset in. I slide my freshly pampered feet into a pair of strapy heels, and slide form-fitting black lace negligee over my body. It took me forever to decide if staying dressed or dressing up for him would be a better idea – but the thought of the impact of opening the door dressed as I was right now was worth any fun lost at his not really needing to undress me.
I try not to watch the clock, but I can't help but notice that it is a few minutes past the time we had agreed on. I check my cell phone, to see if I somehow missed a call. I turn on the television and flip through the channels – but there is nothing that even remotely piques my interest. Finally – I hear a knock at the door. My heart drums in my ears as I turn off the television and cross the room as if swimming underwater. My hand on the knob – I take a deep breath.
I give him a sultry look as I fling the door open wide, and tap my foot against the floor, "You're late." He doesn't immediately react to my state of dress, but I can see it in his eyes. The air is alive with months of tension sparking between us, but only for a moment. He moves forward, and spins me around the edge of the door – pushing me against it as it closes. There is no slow, shy discovery. Immediately we are devouring one another. The cool door against my back and his hot body pressed against my front. Already I can feel his excitement against my hip, and I lift my leg, hooking it around him and pulling him against me.