A month had passed since I had come home to work things out with Jason, and so far, so good. We were spending more time together, going out on "dates" again, and the sex was great, although it was slowing down from what it had been during the last couple of weeks of his affair and right when I had come home. I guess I couldn't really expect it to be as intense as it was when our emotions were running so high. The jealousy and possibility of losing one another had really ramped up our sex life, and now that we were falling back into somewhat of a routine, I was sad to see that aspect slipping back into what it once was.
I sighed and flopped onto the couch with my phone. Jason was at the gym, the house was clean, and I really didn't have anything to do. I scrolled facebook for a few minutes and came across a post from Jen, the wife of one of Jason's coworkers. It was a collection of pictures from a party over the last weekend and Rachel's face jumped out at me. I clicked on the post, viewing each picture. Rachel must have a new guy in her life. There she was leaning over his shoulder, whispering in his ear. The next photo showed them in the background, his arms around her waist with her laughing, looking back over her shoulder. Most of the people in the photos worked at Jason's company. Surely we had been invited, but he hadn't even mentioned it. He probably knew Rachel would be there and didn't want to bring her up. Probably for the best anyway. I couldn't face her. At least not yet.
Ping! A notification popped up that I had received a text and I clicked the bubble with shaky fingers. It was from Corey. My heart raced.
Hey Sammy. Just wanted to check in and see how you were doing. I got that job by the way. Just moved into my new apartment, so I guess I'm here for now. I know you said we shouldn't talk, but I wanted to let you know I was in town in case we ran into each other or something.
He was here! I had texted him after Jason and I decided to work things out and let him know so he wouldn't think I was ghosting him. He said he understood, and hadn't contacted me since. That was the morning after I had come home. Now here he was, living in my city. Jason would not be thrilled. I had told Jason that Corey was in town visiting friends, but hadn't mentioned the job interview. I began typing my reply.
Hey, that's great, Corey. Glad you found a place. I hope your job works out. I love it here. Maybe we'll see each other around town, although I don't think my husband would be happy about that...
Yeah, I bet not. I wouldn't be either if I were in his shoes. That night, though. Wow, it's like a dream. I can't believe he watched us. I couldn't have stood there and watched if roles were reversed.
It was like a dream. I can't believe everything that happened that night...after 15 years of not seeing eachother. I really had a thing for you in high school. Lol
It felt like you really had a thing for me that night, too, Sammy.
I felt my face turning red just thinking about that night. My heart still raced and my breath quickened. I should stop talking to him now. I should end this and delete his number forever. But I didn't want to. At that thought, another ping, another text from Corey.
Sammy, I know you want to work things out with Jason, but if things don't work out, I'm here and available. I wish things could have ended a little differently that night at the bar. What I wouldn't give for one more kiss, or to have held you back behind those lilacs for just a few minutes longer...
Heat flamed through my body at the memory of his touch, of kissing him, of him throbbing inside me.
I think I would have liked that. The night ended a little too abruptly for me too.
After sending my reply I felt instantly guilty. I should not be doing this. My mind strayed back to Jason and Rachel's sexts, back to before they had slept together. Was sexting cheating? Would I have been as angry and betrayed if it had stopped there? But it's not even the same, I'd already slept with Corey. This was totally different...and yet...