I often dream of fucking you in utter abandon. To be filled so completely by you that pain and pleasure mesh and I don't know which is which. At night, I slip one hand between my legs and imagine your cock working its way into me. It's almost delicious to feel the warm throbbing at my clit spread when we are fucking and I move your hand toward my ass hoping you'll push into that forbidden hole.
But you fuck lovingly, softly, quietly whispering sweet words to prove that I please you. You kiss me gently and smooth my hair back so tenderly that I just want to spit in your face. To make you angry enough that you grab my arms and wrestle me into submission. And I submit.
Would I like it if you slammed your hand down hard against my ass cheek? Would I smile later at the stinging burn as I'm sitting at my desk? Or at the faint throbbing pain across my scalp from you pulling my hair to hold me still as you fucked me in the ass? Or as you crushed my nipples with your teeth until I cried out in pain, begging for you to start on the other?
This morning I dreamt that I wrapped my arms around your waist and carelessly dug my fingernails into the furry skin of your abdomen. I could feel you hesitate, as if you almost wanted me to continue my exploration. But you turned around and gave me a quick peck, muttering something about financial reports and the presentation to the board. I made sure that as you turned away, my nails marked your skin. More of a reminder to me than to you that I am yours. I belong to you.
Later, I walked into your office as you were feverishly typing away, obviously working on some project that needed your immediate attention. Like I did. I locked the door behind me and slowly unbuttoned my silk beige blouse. I dropped it to the floor as I tugged at the zipper of my smart blue skirt. I stood before you, white lace underwear and black patent leather pumps gleaming. You looked up from your work and I thought I could see the tremble of your lips as you asked whether I needed anything. Oh, I needed. But you turned back to your computer screen and continued banging away at the keyboard.
My pussy wept. I knew you could see me standing there but it was as if you wanted me to know that I was this inanimate object in the room that you barely noticed. Not worthy of your attention or love. You barked out "Please get me the Carlson report" and all I could do was imagine your mouth on my clit, sucking like all the water in the world was contained in that little bundle. In me.