Disclaimer: All parties are over the age of 18. Written as if I was 19 again. Part fact, part fantasy.
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I'd been looking forward to the party for a couple of weeks, especially as you suggested holding it at your house and invited me to stay the whole weekend. But in the past couple of days I sensed you being a little distant on our telephone calls. Normally we would talk for ages until my parents kept shouting at me to get off the phone but this week or so the calls weren't as long and you seemed distracted. I put it down to being nervous about Saturday night, me staying with your parents not being there...all of that.
There was a few people I knew going who I'd met before but in the main I wasn't worried about them as we could be together before, during and after but there was this niggle at the back of mind that something was up.
Saturday came around and I had put any concerns I had away mainly due to my thoughts turning to being with you, alone and us being together, in bed...naked...and yes, fucking. I turned up early Saturday, partly because I couldn't wait to see you and partly to be a good lad and help with the preparations...and good boys always get rewarded yes.
Things were normal, we'd even managed some time to ourselves kissing and touching each other out of sight of what would be disapproving prying eyes. As I said it felt normal, nothing untoward so I put my thoughts down to stupidity and me overthinking everything.. so much so I sighed out loud.
"What's that for" you enquired playfully.
"Oh nothing, just me being silly I suppose. Just thought something was up that's all. You were a bit quiet all week and I just thought..you know...well, just thought something was wrong" I said
"Come here you silly man. Nothing's wrong, nothing's wrong at all" you replied pulling me to you and French kissing me deeply, your hand reaching down and rubbing my growing cock, my fears allayed.
We got dressed for the party. How I kept myself from sneaking into your room I'll never know. Well I do know, I'd have got caught thats why and I didn't think that was a good plan, especially as I had all night with you so reluctantly I kept my distance. I was ready first and waited, and then you knocked on the door.
"You decent?" You shouted through the door. "Yes" I replied. "Shame" you said laughing as you appeared. My jaw dropped as I saw you, looking beautifully made up, white patterned dress, white tights, white shoes. Stunning.
"You look gorgeous" I whispered "so do you handsome" you replied smiling "Shall we" and you held your hand out
We, well you mainly, had done a brilliant job and the living room was awash with food and the lights dimmed made it look so stunning and spectacular..stereo system already playing and it wasn't long before guests started arriving and the chatter increased and the music played louder..and before long the party was in full swing.
It wasn't long before I was chatting to one of your friends, Maxine. She seemed a nice girl, kinda pretty but not a patch on you and she seemed concerned about me, a bit overly concerned which once again set my mind racing in different directions.
I'm used to not listening to idle gossip but there were things she was saying that rang true...that you had talked to her about telling me something, that you'd had a lot on your mind all week and that she'd be here for me.
My first thought was you were pregnant but Maxine said that wasn't it but that I needed to go and speak to you. With that she leaned in and kissed me softly on the cheek. "Come see me after, if you want" she whispered softly, her hand linking with mine.
Normally I'd have told her to go away, that I'm with someone and what the hell was she doing..but I was like a rabbit caught in the headlights not knowing what to do so I just nodded and smiled and kissed her cheek back.
However I quickly came to my senses and had to find you, to put my mind at rest and to then tell Maxine to go and do one. I couldn't see you so asked a couple of people where you were and they said you'd gone upstairs. So off I went and as I approached your room I heard your voice "what happened last week, that's never happening again, ok. I'm with Neil so get over it" and then to my even more horror a male voice responded "only if you're sure? He seems pretty cosy with Maxine".
"I'm sure, she's only stirring things as you are. So leave" came your definite response. "Now go"
I darted into my room where I was 'staying' as the male disappeared and then silence. I slowly left my room and went to your door.
"Hey babes" I hesitantly asked, pushing the door ajar. You looked up sheepishly, your eyes reddened and looking nervous. "You gonna tell me what's up then?"
And it all came out, that last Sunday you'd got off with Chris and it got a bit heavy but didn't sleep with him and instantly regretted it and that it was stupid and would never happen again. To be honest I'd stopped listening. I was angry, shocked, heartbroken...all in one go. All I could say was "why?"