I spent most of my thirties single and getting laid as often as possible. A good handful of one night stands and several 'repeaters' were sprinkled around a number of regular 'friends with benefits' types long before that term had been popularized. As a result, I was able to enjoy a decade of almost nonstop sex with as much variety as I could find.
It wasn't that I couldn't imagine marriage and children, I just hadn't found the right one. I don't mean to suggest that none of the women I met would not have been suitable long-term partners. Indeed, I might have enjoyed a lifelong union with two or three of the incredible women that were part of my history in those days but the simple truth was, I was just too picky or didn't really know what I was after.
I was always self-aware of my own indecisiveness about settling down. I always thought I would get married and start a family but I didn't want that at the expense of maintaining a healthy and evolving sexual lifestyle. I didn't want to find myself in a sexless marriage or with a partner who didn't share my passion of exploring new sexual experiences.
As a result, I arrived at the conclusion that if I was ever to find the woman of my dreams I would need to do as much research as I could find. I set out to sleep with women of different backgrounds and varied sexual histories. As much as I wanted to explore the variety of the physical female form, I craved the knowledge of their turn-ons and their desires. In short, I wanted to be taught what a woman wants and needs. I wanted to understand what they really craved and how far their sexual boundaries might be expanded.
The way I saw it, my experiment would be a success if I achieved one of two goals. The prime objective was to find a partner who shared my life interests and had a healthy appetite for sex. Barring that, I would also have considered it a success if I was able to satisfy each and every one of my sexual curiosities before settling down with someone who at least liked sex even if they were less adventurous than myself.
The firmest conclusion derived from my personal sexual investigation is without question, that a woman who freely communicates her needs and desires without censor, is the partner one must choose if they aspire to a truly fulfilling sexual relationship. Finding these types of women allowed me to cross many items off my list. My interests had little to do with less sexually inexperienced partners back then but that would come to be a powerful interest of mine much later in life. Sure, it is fun to teach and share new firsts with a relative newbie but I was seeking learning for my own needs. I actively sought out women whose experiences were much more vast than my own. I worked hard to find sexually confident women who would actively test my boundaries and force me to question assumptions of what I had defined as normal or appropriate.
Ultimately, I feel that I've achieved both objectives but were it not for the breadth of my experimentation I do not believe I would have evolved into the sexual partner I now am. By the time I finally bit the bullet and married at the relatively late age of 41 I truly felt that I had scratched every itch and was in a position to commit to another without ever regretting that I hadn't explored as much as I had needed to be sexually fulfilled.
Those years allowed me to watch and later participate in sex with multiple women at the same time. Lesbian sex and threesomes have always been two areas of extreme interest to me. I learned the excitement of consensual sex with power imbalances both as a dominant and as a submissive. Masturbation went to a whole new level when done with another and the introduction to the wide world of sex toys led to many situations I hadn't really considered. In short, I was able to live out almost every fantasy I had ever relied on while jerking off multiple times daily since that first time I learned the wonderous secret of making myself cum. But alas, this story is not actually about me so for the telling of this tale it is only necessary that I share my experience with Fiona.
As I climbed into the octopus costume I thought back to our sparsely shared history. At 5'5, Fiona still has the hard body of a woman who had raced up and down a soccer pitch for most of her life. Her smallish breasts perfectly suit her personality and that hard ass never failed to grab the attention of every customer that had the pleasure of her service. The freckles and blonde ponytail were just icing on the cake.
Our relationship had only developed because of my love for tuna and Scott's Diner had the best in town. I was 27 and probably averaged 4 lunches a week at Scott's. As I came to be a regular, Fiona came to be my regular waitress. I've always been a generous tipper which probably had something to do with the extra attention she came to provide my table but I'd like to think there was a certain spark between us despite her tender age of 19 and the reality that we moved in much different worlds. In fact, were it not for a chance meeting one night I very much doubt our relationship would have ever ventured beyond friendly customer service.
The 8 year difference in age wasn't necessarily disqualifying on its own though I'd normally always connected with women closer to my own age. The issue at that time was my quest for experience. Though criminally attractive Fiona just wasn't what I was looking for in my life back when we first met.
I was done with the bar scene in those days but being single meant frequent nights of eating out. It was one of those nights when I had shared dinner with friends and later found myself staying behind to finish the night alone with two or more fingers of scotch. There was an acoustic guitarist playing some great music which prompted me to stay longer than I normally might all by myself. I'd just considered calling it a night when I noticed a familiar ponytail coming out of the restroom. Instantly, my cock began to ache as it stiffened to full length. My heart had begun to race and I needed another shot to quench the sudden dryness in my mouth.
Probably because I was staring for far too long Fiona happened to notice me sitting alone at the bar and came straight over. At this point I was quite drunk. To be truthful, despite my consumption I was keenly aware that Fiona had consumed her fair share as well. Sober, I would have shared a friendly exchange and made sure that she found her way back to her table, back to the group of friends her own age.
If I had acted on what I knew to be the proper move, this story would not be worth telling. But whether it was the booze or the throbbing erection clouding my conscience, I couldn't find a way to resist the temptation. And so, as my young perky waitress engaged in shameless flirtation I flirted right back with all of the loaded sexual innuendo of a common player looking for a cheap bar pick up.
When I announced that I was heading out for a quick smoke a part of me hoped she would follow despite knowing that she was not a smoker. Without hesitation, Fiona grabbed my hand and together we stumbled out the back door. Any pretense of resisting the temptation of this young beauty had been long ago abandoned and when she manoeuvered us between two cars at the back of the lot I was definitely all in.
To this day and despite the scotch, I can still imagine that feeling of pushing my hand into her jeans. I didn't bother to pop the button or undue the zipper. I just had to discover her. I had to explore that tight young body. She was wearing panties but that did nothing to slow my advance. I pushed further against the tightness of her jeans cupping my hand around the matted curve of her pubic bone. Her slippery clit was noticeably erect. I curled my middle finger which slid effortlessly between her soaking pussy lips.
The moment I entered Fiona I felt her hips lower forcing my digit as deeply as I could reach. I still remember the warmth and texture of her insides and the desperate clench of her vaginal walls. Another finger joined in my invasion as we gripped each other tightly and continued to makeout with the passion of youthful lovers. I savoured her wonderous flavour as I paused to smell and lick my fingers while she watched. The lust of her expression mirrored my own.
What I thought was to happen next (in my mind), would have made for an amazing sexual tale. Unfortunately, just as I had gone back down to resume my fingering of this 19 year old sex pot the back door swung open and the chorus of voices alerted Fiona to the presence of her friends on their way home for the night. With a gentle pull at my wrist and a kind kiss on the cheek Fiona was off and my chance to ravish this freckle faced beauty came to an abrupt end.
For the sake of getting to the real story I won't waste time describing my conflicting emotions or the conversation that followed several days later. Suffice it to say that we agreed that a fun drunken night should be left at just that -- no harm, no foul. I think we both believed that would be it. I certainly did and I meant it. Great girl with a great personality and I continued to look forward to the brief moments we shared at lunch. But humans are human and alcohol has its known effects and she had become the regular inspiration of my always frequent masturbation sessions. In fact, I'd even begun to fantasize about her while I had sex with others.
So yeah, I eventually fucked Fiona. It wasn't often and usually nothing more than a drunken roll in some place of convenience. It was never a regular thing and often years between meetings but those daliances as vanilla as they now seem, remain some of my goto jerkoff fantasies when I really need to cum hard.