I was fucked up in my life around this time. Well, I was MORE fucked up around this time.
A lot of it had to do with a beautiful stripper named Leslie. I loved her. She loved me too, but she loved someone more. The point is, I had her and I lost her. I lost my best friend and I lost my fantasy, and I felt dead.
Leslie was the girl who made me cold. I was convinced I would never find a woman who could stimulate me emotionally or mentally again.
She also stimulated me sexually. But unlike the other two things, this is something I thought could be replaced. There are a lot of girls who are hot as fuck, and sexually liberated.
So one night I was watching the Phoenix news. I started to think about Leslie, and the thousands of other strippers down there in the valley, and even the porn stars that lived in Phoenix, like Jenna Jameson, and it depressed me because I realized I was in Flagstaff, where the sexual energy was minimal, unless you're into body odor and body hair, everywhere.
So I decided I'd go find some weed. I got in my car and the fucking tire was flat. Either I ran over broken glass at a party the night before, or some jealous guy must have slashed my tires. I really didn't give a fuck.
I went back into my house and logged on to the internet. At first I was going to download some pictures of Briana Banks, but I thought that would probably depress me. See, when I see great porn, I get aroused, but I wonder, "Why am I just LOOKING at this? Why can't my dick be in Briana's ass?"
With this in mind, I remembered Literotica.com, a cool fucking website where you can read and write erotic stories. I had submitted stories in the past. I knew I was gifted with words, but I didn't think anyone would read my stuff, but they did, and I got feedback. People really liked a story I wrote about an old guy with 2 young sisters. A lot of the feedback was horny guys telling me to write another story they could jack off too, or girls saying, "Your story got me hot, I'm gonna go fuck my boyfriend now" Well, I was very flattered I had gotten vaginas wet and penises hard, but I kind of wished someone would read the story and want me.
So I logged on, got a new account under my porn name, "Zack Crash" and wrote a viciously hot story about me meeting a girl on Literotica.com and having thundering, fiery, volcanic sex with her. I felt evil during the writing, evil and satisfied, knowing how much I was teasing my readers, giving them an image, but no reality. It was fucking great.
So a few days later I decided to look at my feedback. People had liked the story, but most of the feedback was the same as last time, even more unpleasant. One sick fuck told me he ruined his keyboard because of my story.
I was about to give up on my fans, and dismiss them all as old, ugly women, perverted guys like me, and young girls who had to read my stories so that they could be aroused enough to have sex with their lame boyfriends.
But then I read a letter that said, "You really know how to get a girl hot. Do you know how to get a hot girl to be as satisfied with your body as she is with your mind? I hope so."
Reading that gave made me immediately hard. I responded, "Reading my stories is liking kissing my lips, meeting me in person is like my tongue in your clit"
She wrote back, and we started talking about how and where we could meet. I was in Arizona, and she was from out of state, but she wouldn't tell me where, so that made things complicated, but soon she wrote back and informed me that she would be flying into Phoenix on Friday.
I was excited, but worried. Even though I had repeatedly told her that she would be wasting her time if she was ugly, or a man, or something I didn't want to make love to, I was still nervous that she'd be one of those disgusting fat girls who thinks she's hotter than Britney Spears. I fucking hate that.
I drove down to Phoenix, and after flipping off about a dozen golf-playing businessmen, 4 Mexican immigrants and 6 meth addicts, I arrived at the airport.
I had a sign for her that said, "Maureen". This was not her name. (She wouldn't tell me her real name)Maureen was the girl in my story, so we thought it would be a good name for her.
I was standing just outside the metal detectors with my sign, and out of nowhere she appeared. Maureen. She was breathtaking. Her hair was light blond, and it flowed to her shoulders, accenting her face. Her lips were covered in sexy gloss and she was very tan, which I always like. Her red dress was defined by her set of big, perky breasts, and her perfect ass.
"You are pretty fucking hot" She announced.