Simon was warming up to his mission as a purveyor of oral satisfaction for the neglected women of his community. Melissa and Janine, his buddies from his favorite bar, The Rusty Scupper, had been very talented at helping their friends find the groove they were missing. Some, like Alice, the shy wife of the assistant pastor required a little convincing. Reluctance, too has it charms, but the rewards can be remarkable.
They brought Alice in the back door because she insisted on it; and there was a lot of giggling in the kitchen before she dared come out and meet Simon. For once, both Melissa and Janine were wearing dresses, with stockings and simple makeup. This time nothing too wild or sloppy with the hair, either. Simon himself had dressed a grey suit. With a tie!
Alice was wearing a shapeless yellow print dress that could have been purchased from Sears, covered modestly by a pink cardigan. Her dirty blonde hair rippled softly on either side of an oval face, but it looked like it had never seen the inside of a beauty salon. Hardly any makeup. Huge, soft, sad, brown eyes.
Janine had set up the end of the living room with a folding table covered by a pretty blue cloth. Tea! And sugar cookies!
They all politely sat down and sipped their tea and nibbled their cookies. Alice, the assistant pastor's wife, stared at the table. But from time to time a tiny smile curved her lips and she peeked up at the rest of them, especially Simon, with those big mournful eyes. She perched on her chair as though about to skitter away at any second, and she probably was mentally half-way out the door. They had to keep reassuring her.
She peeked up at Simon. "Does, does
he
have to be here?"
Melissa's voice was gentle. "Not if you really don't want, Alice, But you can also think of him as a very wise and caring counselor; who might help you understand men... your husband better. Okay?"
"I just... I just feel so...
bad
. I shouldn't even
be
here. Stephen would be so, so
shocked.
But... but I so have no one to talk to and I kind of feel I am disappearing. I used to be a
fun
girl. Oh, don't get me wrong, I was a
good
girl. I didn't fool around or anything. Well, I did kiss Jimmy Smith that one afternoon at the lake, but that was because Andrea and Alexa dared me to. And I was... I was...
curious.
So... not
bad."
Melissa pushed a little. "Alice, no one here is calling you
bad
. We kind of wanted to help you feel... just normal. Because we felt something was making you sad. And you hinted that Stephen thinks something is wrong with you. We don't yet know what that might be. You look like a nice, pretty young woman to us. Isn't that right Simon?"
Simon just nodded.
"So Alice, does this feeling you have come from a disappointing sex life? We know that many men can be pretty clumsy or inadequate in the bedroom. Is that the trouble?"
Alice shook her head.
"So Stephen is disappointed in
you."
"That's sort of it... but not."
"Does he need you to be more of a tigress in the bedroom? If that's the trouble we can help with that. Is that it? Does he think you're a cold fish? Sorry."
Alice bit her lip.
"
No and yes. Oh, I'm so confused.
He
wanted good girl, a virgin even. And I never even touched
myself
even though sometimes I sort of
needed to
. Only that one time when mother got so mad. I was good. I always helped out, I was doing the laundry. I kind of liked doing the laundry. I could go to that warm little room and take my book and lean on the washing machine as it churned, and churned, and churned. It was nice. Only that one time I put a big load of towels in the dryer, and it was kind of whumping around like it does when the load is uneven; and so I shifted the stuff, but nothing helped, so I kind of pushed my...
front
against the thing to hold it more still, and, and some
parts
of me were kind of pressed tight against it, and I started to get this
feeling
like I was kind of lifted up and coming out of myself. I think I was sort of singing or crying or something, it was so intense. Oh, why am I talking so much?"
Alice paused, pressing her arms tighter to herself and crossing her legs restlessly.
Janine patted her hand. "So, Alice, that was good, wasn't it? We all have done something like that."
"No, no that was
bad because, because
my mother must of heard me, cause she came in the laundry room, and...her face. And she called me a little Jezebel, and made me scrub every floor in the house, on my hands and knees... with a brush. She watched me after that. So I was good almost all the time until I met Stephen, and after. Because he said we should wait until after we got married. So we did. Though once he touched my...." She patted her chest. "So I knew he
wanted
me. And I wanted him."
Janine touched Alice's cheek. "So that was
good,
right? What happened?"
"Well... I, I got
married.
And I thought that would take care of it... because, because... sometimes I got... I get these
feelings,
and Stephen... I thought he got them too, because his eyes would get funny, and I could see his.... But starting that
first night
when I took my clothes off and he just looked at me a long time, his eyes wide. And he was looking at my... you know,
that.
And I asked him if anything was the matter. Because he wasn't looking like 'wow, this my own beautiful wife'. He was looking like, 'what the heck is
that?'
And he turned off the lights real quick and we did it in the dark.
"I thought it was going to hurt some. But it didn't at all. It was all nice and loose and slippery. Oh, TMI, sorry. But that's what we always do now. Quick. In the dark. And he asked me a mean question that first time. He asked me if I had been with a bunch of other guys. And I was so hurt, because he
knew
I was saving myself for
him;
and we had
talked
about it and waited.... So later I asked him why he said that and he said that a first time girl, woman like me should be like
tight
and I wasn't. And I didn't even ask him how
he
knew how a woman should be. And then another time he asked me if I had a
problem;
did doing it, like, make me pee, because I was always so
wet
.
"
Janine and Melissa were holding her hands, and Simon almost felt like he should go read the riot act to the stupid assistant pastor, because her stupid husband didn't have a clue and was making her feel terrible about her body. Simon was of the school that all women have a beauty of their own and a caring guy should do his best to honor it. But then Alice's story got worse.
"The r-reason I decided to c-come here is cause of the last thing he said. It was Friday night and we usually did our thing on Fridays after he wrote his sermonette and prepared the theme for Sunday School. He usually felt good about that, and so he would be a little 'fired up.' But this time it was still kind of light out and... Oh, why do I have to be such an ugly
freak?
But at first he seemed excited and so I lay down in my pretty satin thing; and I was sort of
open,
and he sees me and he stops, and his face goes all ugly. And he says, 'Alice, Alice, Alice, why does
that
have to be so
big
?
Why couldn't you be
normal,
like....' And he grabs me by the wrist and he drags me to his study, and he turns on the computer and quickly finds this site where there are all these naked women showing their, like, stuff. And I don't ask how he knows about this site because I am looking at these
women
and their
things
, and they are so different from me. They have these tidy little
button-holes
down there, with
no
hair, and everything is just pretty pink. And now I know what a
normal
woman looks like I want to sink through the floor to Hell where I belong."
Alice was sobbing full tilt now and Simon figured it was time for him to "get a drink of water" or something. What he wanted to do was drive to the assistant pastor's house and give Stephen a solid punch in the nose. But that wouldn't help Alice. This was why Melissa and Janine must have sussed out that she needed help. Otherwise she would never be here.
By the time he got back they weren't there. They had retired to the bedroom. They had left the door ajar, as they had with his first "client" Georgia. Janine held up a hand for him to wait.
"It's okay, Alice." Melissa was murmuring. "We do understand that this is a stretch for you. But you can do as much or as little as you like. Just think of us as caring sisters; maybe combined with counselors who understand your situation."
"Okay, I guess. It's just that I feel so... dirty. And, I'm sorry but I'm tired of feeling dirty" She was starting to cry and Melissa put a big warm arm around her, which seemed to help. "Why do I have to feel dirty? I am the same girl Stephen wanted to marry. But ever since our wedding night, for months and months now, he treats me like I'm... a slut. Why?"
She sobbed into Melissa's generous bosom.
"Tell, you what, Alice. You need to understand that you are not a freak. You have been protected, so you don't know that your
sisters
come in all shapes and sizes. Those women you saw on that website are
chosen
for their trim little pussies. I don't know why. Men like them in all shapes and sizes. But some of those gals even get