Sunday found the two, walking side by side down a narrow country lane. It took an effort to try to avoid the puddles as they made their way to church. Sean at times even carried Moya across, their touches lingering, their eyes holding promises of what would come tonight.
Sitting through the homily dutifully, they tried to avoid the obvious sideways glances that young love thought was done so subtly. Their hands occasionally brushed, their knees pushed against each other. Neither one really heard much of the repetitious words.
As they turned to leave the church, Sean finally saw his brother. His red cheeks and glassy eyes told him he was still drunk from last night, or that he had already started this morning. Guilt struck him. The fact that he was before God at the time only made it worse.
"I need money." Ian said as they stood outside the church. His breath sliding across the breeze to land in Sean's nose.
Sean tried to avoid his brother's eyes and the foulness of his breath. He imagined that Ian would be able to tell what he and Moya had done. "I have no money. You took the last coins, months ago."
Ian glared at his brother. "What about the money you got for cutting the peat last fall? I know you kept some of it."
"It bought the seed I just planted. It took all of it. We have nothing left." Sean explained.
"What am I going to do for money? I have bills to pay." Ian began to fume. His fingertips pulling at the ragged cuff of his shirt. The tab at the pub had been stopped. Way too late in fact, it was almost larger than the worth of his land.
"What about your lovely keepsakes?" Ian turned to Moya as she stood watching the two. "What's left?"
"Nothing." Moya lied. She still had a tiny pendant from her mother. The last thing she had been given before she died. "You sold the last of them over a year ago." Her voice carried a little less hurt than normal from the offense. Ian had ripped most of her past away from her over the years. Now, the tiny items seemed unimportant.
Ian's eyes narrowed as he examined his wife for the hint of a lie. She had to be lying. Women always kept something. They always lied. After a long stare, he sighed and turned away, heading towards the village.
The walk home was quiet. Their touches didn't linger. Sean avoided looking at her. He carried her over the puddles, but his eyes avoided hers, his hands a bit rough.
"What's wrong?" Moya asked, her eyes trying to find his but failing.
Sean shrugged and shook his head. "Nothing."
"Is it Ian, or me?" She persisted.
"I don't want to talk about it." Came his brusque answer. His belly turned over from the guilt of what he had done.
Sean sat on his bed, his head in his hands, staring at the floor. He had avoided Moya all day. Dinner passed without a single syllable between them. Green eyes had stared at him between bites. His never left his plate.
Pretty little toes appeared on the floor in front of him and then ankles. Sean saw the ragged hem of a dress. It made him angry to see Moya dressed so poorly. Threadbare and poor wasn't what she deserved.
"Would you please talk to me." Moya said softly. She held her hands in front of her, desperately wanting to run her fingers through his hair.
"We can't do this. I can't keep doing this to you." He said in a whisper, his eyes closed to stop from staring at her cute little toes.
"Doing what to me?" She could hear the guilt in his voice. The realization that he wasn't angry with her made her less anxious.
"We're committing adultery." He pulled at his hair. "We're sinning."
Moya knelt at his feet, her hands slid over his. "We aren't doing anything wrong. I need you to keep doing this to me. I need you, Sean." Her voice caught just barely in her throat. She rested her head against his forehead. "We both need this."
Sean's heart raced. His body was already betraying what his mind had decided. His body tensed, as he fought the urge to pull her into his bed. He jumped as her warm lips brushed across his brow, her hands gently caressing his.
"Moya...we can't." His eyes finally met hers, showing the torture of fighting the cascading emotions within him.