The story Iām about to tell you is a true one and took place not so long ago. Before that time I had never had much luck with men, they all seemed to think they owned me and I never truly felt that they cared for me, they just wanted me in their bed and rarely took the time to talk to me except to tell me what they wanted, never caring or listening to what I had to say, and on top of that most of them werenāt even any good in bed so there rarely was anything good in those relationships.
Then it was about 3 weeks before the weekend Iām going to tell you about that Sara, one of my dearest friends, came to visit me and the first thing I noticed was how joyful and happy she seemed, far removed from the Sara I had seen only four weeks before. After she had heard of my latest misadventures with a prick called David she told me about this club she had joined. After seeing how happy she was and hearing what she had to say about it I felt I should give it a try. Sara then called her group leader and asked if he would take me into his group or if he could recommend a good group leader for me. After a short time Sara hung up the phone and gave me an e-mail address she had written down and told me I should write a letter about myself including what I had done and learned during my life and also sending 3-12 pictures of myself along with the e-mail.
Being only 19 years old I felt I couldnāt know all that much but Sara told me that didnāt matter as far as my acceptance into the club would go, they just needed to know as much about me as I was willing to tell them. When I asked her what kind of pictures they wanted of me she told me just to send any pictures I wanted, they were only needed so that the group leader would recognise me when I came to see him. She then told me that she was moving to another country because thatās where her group was located and when I asked her about it she told me that most groups were small and since a group leader decides how large his group will be there might not be any openings here, but since the club operates in many countries there should be a seat for me somewhere in the world, but if I didnāt want to travel all over the world I could join as a long distance member, I would be missing out on much but I'd still be a member.
After Sara left I just sat there thinking about what she had said and how I should join. What little she told me about the interview with the group leader I must admit made me a little scared, but thinking about it the reasons for it all made a certain kind of sense to me and I felt I could do it. Before I went to bed I finished writing a rather long letter about myself, picked out 7 pictures and e-mailed it all.
Two days later I had a reply. I was surprised because Sara had told me it might take a few months to find me a group, the reason for this quick response I found out later, Sara had talked to her group leader again and he had wasted no time to interview me.
Now here I was, shaking like a leaf in front of his hotel room getting up the courage to knock on the door. After a few moments I took a deep breath and knocked on the door. The man who opened the door had on a robe and apparently was just out of the shower. When I saw him I was sure I had made a mistake and gone to the wrong room, he was about 5ā 10ā, slightly overweight and with a kind face but he looked like he was only 20 years old, I had expected a man between 30 and 40 (I found out later that he is 32 years old and he often has this problem of being asked to show his I.D.)
I was about to excuse myself when he asked if I was Linda, Saraās friend, shakily I said I was. He then told me his name and that he thought I had decided not to come, I tried to apologise for being late but he understood my fear of coming to see him and told me I had nothing to fear. He then led me to the bed, where I sat down, and handed me two printed pages and told me these were the club rules and if I didnāt want to join after reading them weād need talk no more about it and I could go home, he then sat down by his laptop and started to work on something there.
I looked at the first page where I found the club rules and after reading them I looked at the second page which listed recommendations by other club members about what a new member should do the first two months after joining. Sara had told me that if I intended to join I should follow the first part of the recommendations but the second part, which was printed on the other side of the page, were untested recommendations and if I wanted I could try some of those as well and then later write to āThe Officeā telling them if I had found any of those untested recommendations useful.
When I put the pages down he turned around and looked at me asking me what I thought. After a slight hesitation I told him that I wanted to join but wasnāt sure about all those recommendations. He smiled then and told me that if I felt I could not follow those recommendations I could and should say no. I thought about that for a while but decided that I should at least follow the tested recommendations because, as Sara had told me, it would greatly improve my chances of being accepted into the group. The combination of my ability to follow those recommendations and the talk I would have with the group leader was what he needed to find out if I could function within his group. I told him my decision. He looked at me for a few moments as if to decide whether I was sure about it and then he asked me if I had followed the instructions in the e-mail and been tested. I said I had been and was free of all diseases and showed him the results. He nodded and said that we should then get started.
I started to undress while he kept writing something down in his computer. I felt rather uncomfortable being there naked with a man I had only just met and my hands kept wanting to cover my breasts and my triangle. He finally got up and looked at me. Understanding how uncomfortable I was he told me that it was always like that the first day but I would get used to it soon and even forget that I wasnāt wearing any clothes. He then took of his robe and I saw that he wasnāt wearing anything underneath. We then got comfortable side by side on the bed, where he put his arm around me and we started talking. He asked me about what I wanted out of life, what my dreams were and how my life had been up to this moment. I found myself telling him all about myself and for the first time in my life I had a man who listened to me and seemed to understand what I had gone through and what I wanted. Later we ate and watched a movie on TV, some time later I heard him snoring. I looked at him where he lay by my side, still with his arm around me, and was surprised that we had been naked together for almost 11 hours and he had not tried to have sex with me. I have to admit I found that strange, since I had never before met a man who didnāt want to jump me the moment I had my clothes off, or even before I had them off. I smiled, kissed his cheek and put my head on his shoulder and some time later I too fell asleep.
I woke up when he kissed my cheek and bid me good morning, I replied the same way then he went to brush his teeth. I thought about what was to come, I knew from the recommendations sheet, and what Sara had told me, that we would be spending at least 48 hours together, naked except for the times when we went out to eat and I knew that now we would bathe together and wash each other. The reason for being naked together for two days and nights was to get rid of all shyness that might be between us and to learn to be comfortable with each other, if we could be comfortable with each other naked we would be so fully clothed as well, and the bathing was a part of this as well. I had my doubts at first but after last night they were mostly gone and I no longer felt the need to cover myself up. Later I realised just how important these 48 hours were for my future with the group, for during this time I got to know my leader very well and he got to know me even better. Like he said, a good leader must know and understand the feelings of each individual in his group and they must be able to talk to each other about anything and everything. This at least became true between me and him and I know that it turned out the same way with Sara and most of the others, so I no longer doubt this 48 hour system.