I like bad boys and I have always been the rebellious type. However, when my ex's friend asked me to meet up for a coffee, even I knew I was dancing with danger.
I admit I've always fancied Josh; there is something horny about him. I remember once sharing a look with him whilst my then husband Matthew was in the kitchen preparing his obligatory stir fry.
The look had been pretty fleeting but still, it was there. That night as Matthew fucked me, I admit I was thinking of his friend. I was curious as to how hard Josh would fuck me if he was ever given the chance.
That was three years ago but then their friendship turned sour. Ok, sour is an understatement. For Matthew, he developed a deep hatred for his former friend. It appeared that Josh had cleaned him out on some deal. Apparently, he had taken the money and ran, leaving Matthew high and dry.
'I fucking hate the bastard,' Matthew told me, as I watched him stir a pile of bean sprouts, adding a hefty measure of shredded carrot and mangetout for good measure. 'If I ever see him again I'm going to kill the bastard.'
I was sympathetic of course; I didn't like the fact that Matthew had lost a vast amount of money either. Yet, I couldn't stop thinking about Josh. Finally, my piss poor marriage came to an end but I still found myself wondering what had happened to Josh.
After a few months after my split from Matthew, I decided to join a dating site. I was bored and horny and to my surprise I matched with Josh. I wrestled with whether to message him for what felt like hours.
Eventually, I made my decision, fuck it, there was no harm was there in finding out what he was up to? Okay, I felt a tad disloyal to Matthew, but my curiosity got the better of me.
The upshot is, Josh has invited me to his for a drink tonight. Should I go? Can I really be so disloyal to the father of my children? Then I read a report online that said that the people who were terminally never regretted the things they had done, they felt rueful about the things they hadn't.
So I've decided to go. It is only a couple of wines after all isn't it? I mean I admit, I have shaved my pussy and applied a layer of false tan. Well, a girl has to be prepared, doesn't she?
Sitting on the end of my bed, I reach for my phone and message Josh.
'I'll be there around eight o clock if that is ok?'
He replies swiftly, 'I'll get the wine chilled.'
I look through my bedside drawer and pick out my underwear. My first choice is a pink and white lacy affair. It looks both sexy and slightly innocent. I don't want Josh thinking I'm a total slut. But now as I look at the underwear lay out on the bed, I think fuck it. Why should I be all innocent when really I am hoping that I'm going to get fucked?
I shove the underwear back in the drawer and pull out a black basque along with fishnet stockings and suspenders. If I'm going to go balls out and be a disloyal bitch to my ex-husband, I may as well do it in style.
In the cab on the ride over to Josh's house, I find myself wondering what he has in store for me. Is he really only after a quiet evening in and a few wines? Maybe he just wants a catch-up.
I feel my insides fold in disappointment. If that is all he is after then I am going to feel a bit of a fool. I've gone to all this effort wearing sexy underwear under my dress. The thought that it isn't even going to get an airing causes a tiny stone of disappointment to nestle in my stomach.
The cab finally arrives at Josh's. I pay him before quickly shoving my purse in my bag. Stepping out of the car, slam the door and totter up Josh's garden path in my stilettos before pressing the doorbell.
Within minutes the door opened and there stands Josh, filling the doorway with his large frame, looking even more gorgeous than I remembered. He smiles at me and stands aside to let me through.
'Glad you could make it,' he says as I follow him through to his lounge. 'I'll get us some wine. Sit down make yourself at home.'
He hands me the remote control, 'Have a scan through the television channels if you like whilst your waiting. If I remember rightly you hate sitting still with nothing to do.'
I take the remote from him and grin, 'You know me so well Josh.'
I settle myself on his sofa and flick through the channels. I find a suitable one that is playing a bit of R n B. I suddenly feel a flicker of panic. Am I really doing the right thing being here? Before I have time to succumb to my anxiety, Josh reappears with two glasses of wine.
When I say glasses, they look like fish bowls. I take it from him, his fingers briefly brush by mine and I feel a thrill inside as he briefly looks at me like he did all those years ago.
He sits on the chair opposite me and takes a slug of his wine before leaning back in his chair.
'So, how has life been treating you? I don't think I've seen you since Tilly's christening.'
'No, and that was about three years ago. I also haven't seen you since you decided to have Matthew over in that business deal.'
To my surprise, Josh bursts out laughing, a deep throaty laugh that causes the hairs on the back of my neck tingle.
'Is that what he said? That I had him over?'
I nod, 'It's true isn't it?'
Josh shakes his head, 'No it isn't true but if he wants to peddle that bullshit.' He shrugs, 'Let him, I couldn't give a fuck mate.'
Shit, he has just called me mate. What does that mean?
'Why would he lie?' I ask and notice that there is a slight hint of defensiveness in my voice. After all, I don't give a shit about Matthew anymore but still, no one wants to think their ex-husband could possibly be a liar.
Josh takes a huge slug of his wine and leans forward, 'Because he can't take the fact that he fucked up that's why. If I hadn't stepped in when I did we would have lost the lot to the Gregory brothers. Anyway, listen, this is our night tonight. I don't really want to get bogged down talking about your ex-husband and my ex-best friend and business partner.'
He raises his eyebrows at me and I feel a tingle inside as I watch the dimples in his cheeks appear as he smiles at me.
'When did you go grey?' I ask
Josh shrugs, 'I dunno it was a gradual thing I guess.'
'Did you never consider dying it?'
'Fuck no,' he snorts. 'Why would I do that? Anyway, what are you up to these days?'
I shrug, 'Nothing much. I'm still trying to adjust to being single if I'm honest. I was with Matthew for so long. I guess it's difficult to get my head around the fact that I'm a free woman again.'
Josh raises his eyebrows at me, 'So you haven't had a bit of a tamper with anyone else then?'
I laugh, 'Tamper? That is a tad brash, Josh.'
I do brash very well,' Josh grins. 'I've never pretended to be something I'm not.'