The Appointment

Cade looked at the clock on the wall. 5:02 pm. It was the third time in the last 10 minutes he had glanced at it. Another two hours until his appointment. He went back to his homework assignment scrolling through the research paper on the iPad. His eyes were reading the words but none of it was going into his brain. He was distracted. Again looking at the clock, 5:03.

'Ugh, what's the point!' he thought to himself. He placed the mouth stick back in its cradle, grasped the straw of his sip and puff wheelchair gave a puff. The chair moved backwards about three feet from the desk. Cade hit the mode switch mounted just above his left shoulder. He put the straw back in his mouth and with a sip the chair leaned backwards. Cade was now staring at the ceiling hoping that relieving the pressure off his lower body would take 117 minutes. It didn't. Four minutes later, he puffed the straw and the chair came back to its original position. 5:07.

Cade had been looking forward to this meeting for the last two weeks. It was a random way to get the appointment. Cade was watching porn on his iPad when he noticed an ad on the side bar of the site he was on. It was an ad for a sex therapist for the disabled. The ad intrigued Cade, not only because he hadn't had sex in 5 years and was interested, but also because he was disabled.

It wasn't always so. Cade had experienced sex before. He got his first blowjob at 15, by Jenny Langstrom, a girl in his biology class. He then lost his virginity at a post- wrestling party when Cade was 16 with a cheerleader who was at the wrestling meet he had competed in. Cade wasn't bad looking, he kept his weight in check for wrestling. He was slim but muscular and girls liked guys in wrestling tights which accentuated their 'package'. After 16 though, Cade's life got complicated.

In the spring of his junior year of high school Cade was competing in a wrestling meet. His well matched opponent was just slightly quicker than Cade. He got behind Cade and threw him down on the mat. The move was completely legal, but when Cade hit the mat, he heard the crack, saw a flash in his eyes and then went limp. The kid who put him in the hold must have heard it too, because he stopped and released Cade instantly. He looked at Cade's lifeless body and signaled to Cade's coach that something was wrong. It was a freak accident.

As Cade laid on the mat he felt tingles all over his body which eventually faded to nothing. The coach kept him still until the paramedics arrived. He was carefully placed in a C-collar and transported to the hospital where the x-ray revealed an injury to his spinal cord at the C-4 level. At barely 17 years old, Cade was now diagnosed as a C-4 Asia A complete quadriplegic with no movement or sensation in any limbs, just the ability to shrug his shoulders and turn his head.

This was the complication with sex he now faced. Although he grew more handsome the older he got, the last five years in the wheelchair and atrophied limbs were big roadblocks to hooking up with girls.

After returning home to Dallas from Craig rehabilitation hospital in Colorado Cade felt smothered by his parents. If he had a sniffle his mom wanted him back in the ER fearing he may have pneumonia. His dad tried to do everything for him. At an age when you strive for independence, Cade was miserable and felt like a prisoner. He decided he was going to attend college out of state to get away from his parents. He liked Colorado while he was in rehab. He was now a senior at the University of Colorado at Boulder about to graduate with a degree in business. Cade had managed to make it through almost four years of college managing all his caretakers including his longest to date Miguel. Cade and Miguel worked well together which is why Miguel was not thrilled about Cade telling him he had hired a sex therapist.

Cade looked at the clock again. 5:30. He wanted to review the details of his meeting for the sixth time this week. He grabbed the mouth stick from the cradle, tapped his iPhone in the phone holder and scrolled through his text messages. He found that one from Sasha, the sex therapist and tapped it.

Sasha: Hi! Are you interested in a therapy appointment?

Cade: Yes.

Sasha: What's your name?

Cade: Cade.

Sasha: My name is Sasha, nice to meet you. Are you disabled?

Cade: Yes. Quadriplegic.

Sasha: What level?

Cade: C4.

Sasha: How long have you been a quadriplegic?

Cade: 5 years.

Sasha: Are you complete or incomplete?

Cade: Complete.

Sasha: Are you on a vent?

Cade: No.

Sasha: How old are you?

Cade: 22.

Sasha: Well Cade, I charge $250/hour, you Venmo me $125 up front and the rest after we are done. How is two weeks from Friday? Here is my venmo name.

Cade: Ok.

Sasha: I got your money, what is your address?

Cade: 128 Boulder Creek Road. Apartment 1D.

Cade then looked at today's text from Sasha.

Sasha: Hello Cade, I hope you are ready for your appointment tonight. A couple things will help maximize our time together. If it is possible, it is best to have empty bowels, so if you can do your bowel program early if you tend to do it at night. You only booked an hour so if you can get your aide to already have you into bed completely undressed before I arrive we can get started right away.

Cade: I am looking forward to it also. Bowel program complete and I will be in bed when you arrive.

Cade closed the text and looked at the clock again. 5:48. He put the straw in his mouth and maneuvered the wheelchair down the hallway looking for Miguel. He told Miguel he was ready to eat dinner. Miguel was just finishing up making his food and told him to head to the table. The sip and puff chair had become so easy for Cade as he expertly drove it to the kitchen table. Salad with chicken was on the menu. Miguel placed the fork up near Cade's mouth. As Cade took the bite, Miguel spent the time Cade was chewing to advise him that hiring Sasha was a mistake.

'She could just rob you blind, amigo' Miguel said. 'She's a hooker, and she already took $125 of your money, she probably won't show up. Are you sure you want to do this?'

Cade finished chewing a bite and took a sip of water through the straw.

'I have to try something Miguel. I am going crazy' said Cade.

Miguel put another bite of food into Cade's mouth.

'She could have all kinds of diseases man. You just don't know where she's been.' Cade swallowed again.

Cade responded, "I am sure she has a condom, I'll be fine and you will be just down the hall in your room, right?

Miguel nodded. Miguel finished feeding Cade, wiped his mouth and suggested that Cade start the bed routine. Miguel moved the sip and puff straw back near Cade's mouth. Cade blew into the straw navigating to his bedroom.

Cade moved the wheelchair parallel to the bed and awaited Miguel. Cade stared straight ahead and wondered what his night would be like. He was nervous, he hadn't seen any action in five years and he was worried he wouldn't be able to perform. He had never attempted sex since his injury and he would never think of asking Miguel to help him masturbate to see if he could. Porn had been his only escape and it really wasn't an escape at all. Just a reminder of what he could no longer do on his own.

Miguel arrived and began by moving Cade's straw out of the way and powering down his wheelchair. Next he moved Cade's arms from the arm troughs into his lap. Then he grabbed the sling.

Miguel unstrapped Cade's chest strap and leaned him forward working the sling down his back and around his butt. He then pushed Cade back up from his chest and held him there while he moved the sling under his legs. Next came the hoist and soon Cade was suspended in the air in the sling as Miguel pushed his wheelchair back towards the wall.

With the wheelchair out of the way, Miguel swung the sling over the single mattress hospital bed that had been Cade's bed for the last 5 years. After lowering him on the mattress Miguel released the hoist and Cade's limbs fell lifeless on the bed. Miguel straightened out Cade's legs and slipped off Cade's sneakers, pulled down and removed his sweatpants revealing legs that now looked like toothpicks. He placed both of Cade's arms above his head to more easily remove his t-shirt.

Miguel asked Cade, if he wanted to stretch now or after she left. Cade thought now might help loosen his body up since he was nervous. Cade never suffered from spasms so his limbs were pretty much always loose. Sadly though they were very atrophied. Miguel began to stretch his fingers, wrists, arms and then legs, knees, feet and ending with his toes.

After he was done he asked Cade if Sasha wanted him totally naked. Cade nodded yes. Miguel slid down Cade's boxer briefs and made sure his suprapubic catheter was still in and the hose wasn't kinked. He removed the leg bag from Cade's right calf and emptied it into the toilet. He then attached the tube to a night bag and strapped it to the side of the bed. He put the comforter over Cade's body.

The door bell rang. It startled Cade as he looked at the clock on the wall. 6:57. Miguel left Cade's bedroom to let Sasha in.

Cade could hear the introduction and the voices getting closer. His found his mouth getting drier as the voices got louder. He was nervous about what was about to happen and relieved that she didn't steal his money and not show up.

Sasha entered the room. She was about 5'6", medium length brown hair with blonde highlights. She was wearing a skirt that accentuated her curves. Cade noticed her perfectly shaped breasts and cute lips. He smiled at her. She smiled back.

"Nice to finally you meet you Cade', said Sasha.

'Same', Cade replied with a smile.

Miguel observed them both looking at each other and said, "Well I will leave you two alone. I will be in my room if you need anything.'

Sasha said, 'Wait a second Miguel. I know many caretakers are a little suspicious when I show up so I wanted to talk to you both to tell you why I am here. My main goal is to show Cade where his body can still experience pleasure and how he can still pleasure someone else. This isn't just about sex, and you may think I am just a prostitute. But in fact, there will be no intercourse tonight. I just want to help Cade explore how his body has rewired itself. Cade I know you are a high quad and that autonomic dysraflexia is a possibility, so we will come up with the code word Apple. Use that code word and we stop and I will go get Miguel. Are we all in agreement?'

Miguel and Cade were silent, both surprised at her knowledge of spinal cord injuries and professionalism. They both nodded in agreement.

"Good' said Sasha as Miguel left the room.

Sasha lifted a large briefcase up and placed it on Cade's dresser and opened it up. Cade arched his neck trying to see what she was doing and see what was in her suitcase.

Sasha turned to Cade and said, 'So, Cade, any areas you know to be sensitive, or that cause you pain that I should avoid?' Cade said, 'Not really, I don't know exactly what to expect, so I don't really know how to answer.'

Sasha smiled. 'Well then I want you to relax and let me discover what makes you tick. Let's start with your head.'

Sasha came to the head of the bed and began to massage Cade's temples and then ran her fingers through Cade's short cut blond hair. Cade was instantly in heaven. Yes, his head and neck had become more sensitive since his injury, but now he was being touched not just to complete a task like combing his hair or shaving, but with the purpose of pleasure, which made it feel so much better. Something that had not been done to him in 5 years.

Sasha continued scratching his head and she pushed the comforter down to Cade's belly button. She noticed the flat chest and bony shoulders. She thought to herself that Cade was a pretty good specimen of a male before his head and body stopped talking.

She stopped for a second and retrieved a feather from her briefcase. She began to tickle the tops of Cade's shoulders. Then touched the former tracheostomy scar. This sent chills throughout Cade's upper body and he shrugged his shoulders with a shiver motion.

'How does that feel?' Sasha inquired.

Cade with his eyes still closed, grunted out' AMAZING' It tickled but felt so good. Cade's body was waking up to things it hadn't felt in years. Sasha continued to tickle and then moved to scratching the bottom of Cade's jaw. That was the sweet spot. Cade threw his head back and let out a guttural moan as he felt pleasure from his head to his shoulders. Sasha continued to work her magic rubbing and massaging. She went back to her suitcase and retrieved a vibrator and began to massage the back of Cade's neck. Cade had never felt more relaxed. This went on for about 10 minutes.

Then Sasha stopped and said, 'So we know where to tell someone to scratch and tickle to make you feel good. Now let's see how you can return the favor.'

Sasha leaned over and kissed Cade and stuck her tongue into Cade's mouth. Cade, using the strongest muscle left in his body began move his tongue around, intertwining with hers. It felt amazing and then Sasha let out a moan. This only encouraged Cade to continue with other moves. He took what he learned from all the porn he watched and tried different things. It was beginning to turn Sasha on.

She pulled back. 'Are you sure you haven't been with anyone in five years?' Cade turned his head side to side nodding no, he hadn't been with anyone.

The kissing resumed. She pulled back and stood up, composing herself. The kissing was clearly having an affect on her. But she was a professional as she moved back to where Cade had a better view of her.

She took a deep breath and took her top off revealing a lace bra. She reached behind and took the bra revealing perfectly shaped firm breasts. Cade's mouth opened and his eyes widened. She looked at him and said, 'You want to make a girl really happy?' Cade nodded in agreement.

Sasha reached down and started sliding her skirt down and took off her black lace panties. Cade thought she was gorgeous. He wished he could jump out of bed and fuck her against the wall.

She walked over to the bed, jumped on. She moved Cade's lifeless arms up and out of the way. She leaned down and kissed him. She said, 'Now I want you to be creative with that tongue of yours and come up with ways to please me.' She thrust her pussy in his face. Cade began moving his tongue up and down and then a twist and some twirls. Sasha began to moan, slowly at first but has Cade thrust his tongue deeper in, she got louder and quicker. Cade could not believe what he was hearing. The sounds, the smells, it was turning him on. He couldn't believe that he was pleasuring a woman without using his dick. She began moving wildly as he kept moving his tongue in various ways Cade face was so deep inside her he was having trouble getting air, but he didn't care. The lack of oxygen only served as a turn on for him. Sasha let out a big wail and orgasmed.

She moved backwards and said to Cale, 'You do that to ANY girl, and they will love you forever.'

She leaned over and placed Cade's mouth in between her breasts and Cade licked up the beads of sweat.It tasted glorious. She then moved sideways so Cade could tickle and lick her nipples with his tongue.

She then got off Cade and moved to the side of the bed and grabbed Cade's left arm. She placed two of his fingers in her mouth and began moving them in and out. Cade said' I can't feel that.' Sasha responded, 'I know I want you to imagine I am doing this to your dick, be creative.' As she moved his fingers in and out of her mouth Cade looked intently at her lips, her eyes and her expression. He couldn't believe he was getting turned on by watching someone suck his fingers that he couldn't move or feel. How can this be? She then climbed back on the bed and placed the two fingers inside her and moved them in and out as she moaned. Cade stared at his skinny arm moving up and down and knowing it wasn't him really pleasuring her but he loved it nonetheless.

Sasha composed herself and said, 'Now let's see what still works downstairs.' Cade was afraid this is where the night would get awkward. Cade could not feel his genitals and was embarrassed that his penis had a mind of its own. Often it became erect at the most inopportune time, always in front of both male and female caretakers. Sasha pulled the comforter all the way off. She fetched some lotion out of her bag, placed some in her hand and began to stroke Cade's dick. She looked at Cade's worried look and said, 'Cade, don't worry, I am not expecting anything, its no dig at your manhood, what you just did with your mouth is way better than a erection or vaginal intercourse. Trust me and just relax.'

As she began to rub, Cade's dick began to grow in size. He hadn't seen in that erect since he had sex at 16.

'Impressive' said Sasha. She reached down and unwrapped a condom and placed it on Cade's penis. Cade was confused, he remembered her saying no intercourse.

Sasha seeing the look on his face said,' Not to worry, I am just going to see if there is any connection to your body.

Sasha took Cade's engorged penis in her mouth and began to move up and down, while maintaining eye contact with him and sucking. Cade was amazed that even though she was getting paid, she looked like she was enjoying it, which made Cade feel like a man that was pleasing his woman all while laying completely still.

She continued rubbing with one hand and then began scratching underneath his chin with the other. The sharpness of her nails were magic to Cade's body. It felt like stroking his chin had replaced stroking his dick.

Sasha continued but moving faster and faster. After about two minutes, Cade felt a build up in his neck, his cheeks began to feel flushed. He must be getting AD he thought, but there was no headache so he didn't say the code word. He didn't care if there was AD. Sasha scratched deeper and stroked faster. The build up continued and it felt wonderful. Then a flash of ecstasy hit Cade and he screamed with pleasure. Cade was out of breath. He hadn't felt that sensation in his lungs since trying to wean off the vent. Immediate pleasure took over his neck and shoulders and all stress he carried instantly left him.

Cade had just experienced an orgasm. Something medical professionals told him was impossible.

Cade opened his eyes and looked up at Sasha. She had a look of satisfaction on her face. With her eyes, she pointed towards Cade's lower body. Cade followed her down there and she pulled off the condom, a stream of white silky fluid dripped out of it. It wasn't much but Cade had ejaculated. He was ecstatic. He didn't think it was possible ever again.

Sasha got dressed, got a baby wipe, cleaned off Cade's penis, which had now gone back to its usual dormant self. She threw the condom away and put the comforter back over Cade's body.

Cade was in a state of complete relaxation as Sasha bent over his face. She kissed him on the lips and said, ' Our hour is up. I hope you enjoyed it, I sure did.' Cade nodded. 'If you want to do this again, let me know, next time we can try something more advanced. But if you don't call, I won't cry. I am happy you know what you are capable of.'

Cade mustered the words, 'Thank you. I never thought I could do this again. Thanks for showing me.'

'No trouble sweetie, I love it when people wake up their bodies. Don't forget to send the rest of the money', as she walked out the door of his bedroom.

Cade nodded and noted that the clock said 7:58.

Cade never saw Sasha again. His confidence in himself however improved greatly. He began to engage in more social events with other students. He often went to parties and occasionally hooked up with girls. Sometimes he brought them back to his apartment. Miguel often heard moaning and screaming coming from Cade's room as he was working his tongue magic.