I never expected you to take me up on my offer to meet me at the Bunny hole so, when I arrived, I set about getting the place ready for a bit of autoeroticism. I laid out the comforter in front of the television. Put a choice video in the machine. I poured myself a glass of your drink of choice, when we are at the apartment, over ice and mixed it with Pepsi (I am such a punk when it comes to alcohol). Next, I went into the computer room and removed all of my clothes. I selected a nice red lace nightie to wear. I feel so sexy in it. The way it showcases my legs, and encases my breasts. I love the way my areolas are just visible beneath the fabric and how my hard, erect nipples threaten to pierce right through. The back is just long enough to cover my ass to just where it meets my thighs.
All that was left to do was to pull out my toys. I brought a few of my favorites. My friend âChocolateâ the vibrating, penis shaped, dildo that is well endowed (but pales in comparison to TheEnterprise for so many reasons); the butterfly; and, the vibrating double silver bullets. (I swear that when that handheld control to the bullets is at full tilt, it sounds like a Harley Big Twin Evolution 80 engine. It almost feels like one, too. Put that between your legs and keep a straight face.) Those items, with a bit of lubrication, and I was set for an hour or more of self-appreciation.
With everything in place, I sat down to begin watching the porn flick in the VCR for inspiration. Just then, my cell phone rang. I checked the caller ID. It read, âThrillâ. Calling to beg off, no doubt. I answered, with a forced voice that intentionally reflected, as best I could, indifference.
âHelloâ
âHeyâ, was your reply.
âHey.â I responded, waiting for you to go into your explanation of why you would not be there.
âAre you going to let me in?â
My heart jumped. You could not be here!
âWhere are you?â
âAt the door. Where else would I be if I am asking you to let me in?â
I could think of a place I would like you to be waiting to gain entrance.
âI will be down in a minute.â I hoped that my voice still contained the indifference I tried to exude previously, but something about the way my words wavered said I failed.
My God, this was a surprise. What do I do? Get dressed for one. I cannot go down to the vestibule of the building to let you in dressed like this. I rushed into the computer room and slipped back into my silk sheath dress and slipped on my high-heeled mules. A quick check of myself in the mirror: respectable. I grabbed my keys and my cell phone and rushed from the apartment. No time for the elevator. I ran down the stairs to the first floor. I bolted through the door into the first floor hallway and stopped dead. âAdjust yourselfâ, I said to myself. âGain some semblance of composure for Godâs sake.â
I took in a deep breath, slowly let it out, and started my steady walk down the hallway to the vestibule. I turned the corner and there you stood at the door to the building...lit cigarette in hand; a look of unconcern on your face as you assessed the goings on outside in the parking lot. You turned to me as if you sensed my presence. Our eyes met and locked. You smiled a faint smile at me that indicated you knew what I was thinking. I was thinking what I always do at the sight of you: âDAMN!â
I walked to the door as casually as I could manage, trying to pace my steps so as not to seem rushed or anxious...fighting back the desire to rush the door, open it, place my hands on your shoulders and jump into your arms while wrapping my thighs around your waist and giving you the longest, wettest, most throat probing kiss in the history of the world.
But I remembered the words we spoke and what we agreed upon. We will keep this in perspective. It will not be what it was. We will take care of each otherâs physical needs. That is what we are now.
Calmly, I pushed the door open to let you in.
âHeyâ, you said again.
âHeyâ, was my ânonchalantâ reply. I dared not look at you too long, meet your eyes with mine, or linger there. I would lose all control, I feared.
I turned to head for the elevators. You followed me as you did in the old days when this was a familiar happenstance. We boarded the elevator. I pushed for the designated floor. You stood on one side, I on the other as the doors closed. The air was thick, the ride longer than usual. We used to use this time to kiss and touch as we rode to our floor. Now we stood there across from each other.
I felt self-conscious and nervous. A feeling I had not experienced since I was a teen, or, more recently, since we first took the same ride in this elevator many months before. You stood tall, distant, and confidentâŠa façade, perhaps, but better than I could muster or see through. You exuded one of the things I find so attractive about you: A sense of self. A confidence and self-assuredness that always promised me that everything would be fineâŠyou would see to it. You were in control, as alwaysâŠin control of yourself, the situation, and of me. I felt you looking at me. Assessing the physical and emotional metamorphosis I had undergone since our last encounter months previously. Did you wonder if I felt the same; if the magic was still there? Did you care?
Finally, the door opened and we left the elevator and proceeded down the hall to the apartment. The journey that used to be too long was now too short. What would happen on the other side of the door of the apartment? Would we find that the magic is gone? That the physical attraction has waned? Or, the sexual tension is now non-existent? Just the glance at you that I allowed myself a few moments ago hinted that I still felt that heatâŠbut did you?
I opened the door to the apartment and we entered. You saw the set up I had prepared but said nothing. I made a beeline to the kitchen to prepare your drink.
I bent over into the cabinet under the sink to retrieve the bottle. I heard you from behind me say, âI always liked that view.â I felt the blood rush to my face.
âI donât have much timeâ, you said.
âWell, make yourself comfortable. I will be right thereâ, was my reply.