So this is a true story, but I have sort of glossed over a few details here and there, just to make it flow a bit better and of course to get to the good bits a bit a quicker.
Anyway a little bit about me. Mihral is not really my name it's an old joke that I thought I would use to keep myself anonymous. I'm married to Ben, well that is the name I'm using, and we are happy together. I'm past 40 now but I don't look it and sexually I am entering my prime. I have a good slim figure but curves in all the right places, I like to think I look good and I am pretty sure a lot of guys agree.
Now when I met Ben I was no shy innocent virgin, and nor was he. I'd had a few lovers, perhaps more than my fair share, and I know the same was true of Ben. However I've been faithful to him since we have been together and I know he has been faithful me.
Still that isn't to say I've gone blind. I have fantasised about other men, although normally ones who were unobtainable, movie stars, singers, underwear models. Although there was time I developed a thing for one of the trainers at the gym, and I would have been unfaithful with him in a heartbeat. However he was also unobtainable, at least to me, he was gay and the only way I'd have got him to bed is if I'd managed to morph into something from a Tom of Finland comic.
Also our sex life isn't boring. We have tried most things and found a lot that we both enjoy. Even the things that we only did the once were mostly fun if ultimately unsatisfying. I also know that like me Ben hasn't gone blind either and that he enjoys porn. I'm happy for him to enjoy it alone but watching porn together can be a good way to start some experimentation in bed.
Or indeed out of bed. Which after a bit of rambling gets me to the point of all this. One evening Ben and I decided on an early night and watched a video in bed. We have the TV set up so it can show stuff from websites after selecting it on the ipad. Pretty new technology for me, but probably old news to many readers, and who knows how far in the future you are reading this?
So anyway I picked a video to watch by random. I went to a website and literally clicked on one of the featured video thumbnails I thought looked good.
The video was a cuckolding scene. Pretty normal sort of thing couple chat about why they are doing the video then the guy watches his wife fuck another man. This one was perhaps a bit more interesting. For a start the wife stripped for the second guy and there seemed to be some real tension right up to the point that she was penetrated for the first time.
Now I know they are all actors, and I'm pretty sure I've seen the 'wife' in other videos. Plus after the build up to penetration it was just a normal porn star sex scene. Actually it was a quite disappointing porn star sex scene. The first part had been more than enough to get me pretty hot and moist, and Ben for his part was anything but disappointing.
Over the next week or so I did find myself thinking about that video. Putting myself in that position. I didn't actually think that it would be something Ben would be into. He had been okay with me being a little flirty while dancing with someone else, and deeply kissing a very young work colleague under the mistletoe once, but that would probably be his limit.
The stripping was something that interested me. Now in the past I did do a seductive strip for an ex boyfriend. Or at least I had tried too; he shot his load before I even got my skirt off. There is a reason he became an ex pretty soon after. I'd never really stripped for Ben, I'd undressed but that is different. Just not something we'd done.
Now it was stripping, for Ben, that was on my mind when I bought up the topic of that video one evening. There was no misunderstanding about that or anything like that. It's just that it seems he had thought about that video as well. His suggestion was that he would like to watch me strip for someone else, but just strip, nothing more.
I can't say I was keen, for a start I wasn't all that sure that I would be able to put on a show. Plus getting some guy over to watch me strip then asking him to leave. It didn't sound like it would be a good idea. Still we talked it through and reached a compromise. I would strip for a guy over video chat and Ben would watch the feed in another room.
This is where I gloss over a few details. Getting to the point that Ben and I agreed on what we would do with this wasn't simple. It wasn't an argument and neither of us, especially me, felt like the other was pressuring them into something, it just wasn't a quick discussion. However I don't think that many people would be interested in a blow-by-blow description of it, just take my word for it, it was a process.
My main concern was that I wanted to feel somewhat in control. Using the internet as a buffer gave me that. If I wasn't happy I could switch off. The other area I insisted on controlling was the guy. My argument was if I'm going to flirt with and strip for someone then it has to be someone I find attractive. However we both agreed that it would be a stranger, rather than someone we actually knew. In fact I decided that I would pick someone so far away that the likelihood of us ever meeting was remote.
Ben's main concern was the flirting. I think he thought it would just be a striptease. I wouldn't say anything and wouldn't interact with the viewer. I said that just wouldn't be any different than him videoing me to show someone else. No I had to flirt and interact and if it went that way I would talk dirty. We were both slightly uneasy about the whole thing, but it was good sort of uneasy. The sort of uneasiness before doing something exciting and the not knowing if it would be good or bad.
The next problem was finding the lucky man who would get to watch my strip. The answer seems obvious, place an ad on-line, but it actually took us more than a day to think of that.
Finding somewhere to place an ad and working out what to say wasn't that simple. After some searching I found an adult dating website I liked the look of and one that seemed to cater more for people looking for cybersex rather than meets. I wrote a little piece saying basically that I wanted someone to watch me strip, I didn't mention that my husband would be watching, and then decided it needed a photo.
My first thought was to use a selfie; I took one with my phone and asked Ben what he thought. He suggested that I should probably go for a sexy photo. I again had a little twinge of uneasiness, it wasn't that I uncomfortable with my body or what we were doing but I also kept feeling that what had started out small was getting bigger. My idea was to strip for my husband yet now I was actively searching for another man to watch me strip and trying to lure them in with a sexy snapshot.
I changed my mind a little when I went into the bedroom to change. I got out of my clothes, which were comfortable sitting around the house things, and put on what I thought would entice someone; a sheer black mini dress with lace in just the right places to preserve something of my modesty.
I topped it off with a pair of black stockings and some transparent plastic heels.
Once I was dressed it was Ben's turn to have some unease. He wasn't too happy that I was not wearing underwear; I did remind him that when I stripped I would be going all the way so I might as well start as I meant to go on. I also insisted that we take the photos in the kitchen, the only room that had enough light to really show off my body through the dress.
Part of me hoped that Ben's discomfort over the outfit and the amount I was willing to show in a photo might put an end to the whole thing, but I think we both got over that hurdle and agreed on which photo to use. I uploaded it with the advert and after asking Ben one last time if he was sure I clicked on 'publish'.
Once the advert was up, I had to wait about a day for it to be approved; I decided that nothing would stop me. I would pick a guy, set a time and then I would perform a sexy strip for him while Ben watched in the other room. When I had asked Ben if he was sure about me posting the ad it was his last chance to back out. I still felt strange about it, but I knew that I was going to go though with it.
That said I was a little frustrated by the response to my advert. I had a lot of people clicking 'favourite' but few actually sending me a message. Those that did were not really what I was hoping for. Now Ben had basically said that we put the ad up and I would pick someone from any of the responses. He didn't explicitly say I couldn't search the site and elicit a response.