In some strange way, it was his profound ugliness that attracted me to him. There was something very raw about this person, who took absolutely no interest in his appearance or social conduct. When I first met him, I couldn't stand him; he was rude and blunt to everyone he spoke to, including, most upsettingly, me. I might not be perfect, but I'd become used to people generally liking me. You don't often need much more that a nice smile and a pair of big titties before men at least warm to you, and I had both of these, so I suppose I was just disgruntled by his rough manner. It wasn't until later that he started to grow on me, as I realised you just have to get used to him and not take him personally.
I never stopped wondering how he got his job at such a nice bar, however. No-one who drank there liked him, I mean, as you can imagine, customer service was not his forte. I guess it's just one of life's little mysteries.
Anyway, we're closing up one night, everyone else has already gone, and something's different. I meant, it had felt different all evening. He had actually made efforts to speak nicely to me at least three or four times, which far exceeded his previous all time record of once. So there I am, all flattered that he's spoken to me, and I'm starting to notice that if he'd just tidy himself up a bit, and smile once in a while, he'd actually be quite good looking. I think I described him once as having cult appeal.
But of course none of this mattered. He was still just some ugly, miserable guy I hardly knew, who had funny looking teeth, and a jagged scar above his left eyebrow, who often forgot to shave for a few too many days, and sometimes came into work smelling less-than-perfect. And even if he did have a really nice jawline jutting out from under that mop of hair, he was still that odd guy I didn't really like , and I still had a boyfriend I loved.
So there I am, just looking for some wines we needed in the cellar, while he finished sorting out the books upstairs. When I heard him slam the cash register shut and start to come downstairs I just assumed he was coming to tell me he'd finished upstairs and that I needed to hurry up so we could finish and lock up for the night. When he came in, though, he didn't really say anything, he just stood there. I turned to face him and started trying to think of something to say or ask him to kill the silence. It was then that I noticed the bulge at his crotch. He looked awkward, like he had too much to say and didn't know where to start. He shifted his weight from one foot to the other, and back again. We were both sweating.