That wonderful Summer of discovery
I was 18 and a tomboy, if that term is still used. I climbed trees, ran races, played ball with the boys, rode a bicycle every day and loved my life, my family and my friends.
I knew far more boys than I knew girls, but it never seemed important to me. I went where I wanted to go and with the people I wanted to be with.
I was close to graduation from high school when my first boyfriend decided it was time for him to get laid.
He didn't care much what I wanted, all I heard from him for weeks was, "when are we going to do it?" I was getting bored with it, but I liked being with Tom, his name was Tom, and we went to nice places and he treated me pretty good.
So, during the Spring of my senior year in high school, I agreed to give it up. I knew enough to not get carried away with the passion of the moment and end up preggy.
I made Tom tell me what he wanted to do, I made him tell me what he expected before, not after we got naked, long before. It was kind of like foreplay to me, I wanted to be loved, I craved his touch, but I was careful what I let him touch.
It was a Saturday night and we were parked out by the coast in the back of his father's car, we were very passionate. I found myself very wet and wanting his attention.
I relaxed and let him do pretty much what he wanted. He seemed to realize that this was his big moment and all I said was don't make me pregnant.
The tender loving ended shortly thereafter as he pushed himself between my thighs and shoved his penis up into me. I offered little resistance because I really wanted to feel him inside me. I think he was inside me for about 20 seconds when he exploded, pulled back and sat panting next to me on the seat.
I guess he must have left most of his load on my vaginal lips because the mess was excessive. I cleaned myself up while he lit a cigarette and relaxed from his great accomplishment.
No condom, no holding me, just the epitome of wham bam thank you ma'am. He did offer me a drag on his cigarette, but I declined.
The next thing I knew we were sitting out front of my house and he was opening the door, biding me good night. Wow, what a wonderful experience. I was crushed. I felt nothing now.
Yea, he was my boyfriend and now all his friends would know I let him have his way with me, turns out to be a one of the biggest mistakes of my life.
The very next day, his best friend wanted to meet me after school. I was a little miffed that Tom felt he could pass me around, so I asked him why he did that. He got all defensive and told me it was ok for me to see other guys, he wanted to see other girls.
Wow, true love really knows no bounds. I met with his best friend and that's exactly what he wanted. I asked him why he thought I would go with him. He said Tom told him I would give it up because he was a good friend. I didn't even know this guy, I told him to fuck his fist.
This was to be a cross roads in my young adult life. I had to make a choice now, be a slut and go with any guy who wanted me, or back off and be my own girl. What did I want? I really had to figure this out and I had to do it quick. I really didn't know what it felt like to have good sex, but I knew my body wanted something.
I decided to try another guy out. Perry had been bugging me for a date the whole school year and I wanted to see if it was any better or at least different.
Perry came over to a place where I baby-sit some younger kids one night the following week and we proceeded to make out on the couch. I expected the push from him to do it and my body was telling me I wanted him to do it.
My mind was not so sure, but I listened to my body and let him get his hands inside my panties. He went right by the hot spot and spent all his effort trying to force a finger up into me. I was not being easy to enter, and he was beginning to hurt me a little.
I stopped him finally and told him it was painful. He looked at me and said his dick hurt too. Taking it out of his pants he showed it to me, it was my first actual look at one and it was kind of ugly to me.
Perry said, "take a hold of it", "put it in your mouth." I looked at him with some incredulity and then looked at his throbbing penis. One of the girls at school had told me about jerking guys off and I thought maybe I would try that. I didn't want him to be in pain, and I didn't want him to hurt me anymore.
So, I started to play with his penis and that lasted maybe 30 seconds before he spit all over me. Once again, the guy was satisfied in less than a minute and I sat there covered with his spuge and wanted something I had no clue how to get. He was gone before I got cleaned up. So much for guys, I was O for two. Was I a loser?
I decided to find out more about this sex thing. All I knew for sure was that it left me feeling worse than I did when I started.
Sherry, the girl that had told me about jerking guys off, had a good laugh when I told her what was going on and then felt for me enough to agree to teach me a few things. She lamented that guys just didn't get it about girls. They only got what to do with their peckers.
I asked her point blank about how she felt, and I got an answer that mimicked my experience. We decided to find some answers together. Neither of us had a steady guy at that point so we went out trolling one Saturday night. We decided to get out of the High School kids and maybe find something a little more mature.