"Now, to warn you, I'd have to describe this playlist as 'generally horny'. And since I'm driving, it's my playlist."
I had just picked Joshua up from his house with plans to go grab drinks with our friends. Normally, we drive separately, but his car was in the shop and we live close enough that it made sense.
"'Generally horny'..." he mused aloud. "Yet, you still play it for me."
"I told you: I'm driving today so my music. My normal music. You just don't like it. You drive next time."
We rode in silence for a few minutes, songs playing though and on to the next. I knew the lyrics and I sensed he was listening to them intently.
"Ok now this song is just about... being freaky." He complained. And he wasn't wrong.
"So, you're telling me you have never done anything 'freaky' with your wife?"
"No!" Joshua protested righteously. We had never had a conversation that broached the topic of sex. It always seemed far too taboo. When we first met, we quickly became close friends and many of our fully platonic interactions could be described as 'intimate'. We worked together - it's how we met - and more than one coworker thought our relationship was more than friends. Both of us are happily married, but neither of us minded being mistaken for each other's partner. We just loved being friends.
"Cayla has never given you some firm scratches on the back during sex?"
"No!" he said again.
"I almost cannot believe I am about to say these words to you: Next time you and your wife are... getting at it, ask her to scratch you up a bit at... an opportune time." I paused, steeling myself to explain with detail. "Ask her to scratch you or bite you when you're about to orgasm. See if it does anything for you. Add some BDSM, well mostly the S&M part, to the mix." I was gripping the steering wheel hard trying to keep my concentration on driving.
"Biting?" he asked sounding perplexed. Joshua was a decade older than me but apparently less adventurous.
"Yes." I said through nearly gritted teeth. This level of specificity was not what I had expected. "Biting. Right on your collarbone or the fleshy part of your shoulder. She could go for your neck too. It's more sensitive but those marks would show even if you had a shirt on."
We sat in silence for a moment. I felt obligated to continue explaining, as if that would ease the palpable tension in the car.
"It adds a new sensation to the mix. Ask her to bite you and see if it does anything for you."
Silence again. I was certain I had gone too far in the conversation but still had to keep my focus on driving. I'm sure my split focus is what led to me running my mouth.
After what felt like minutes but was truly only a long pause, I heard him open his mouth to speak. "Will you try it on me?" he asked. My jaw dropped open. I blinked just trying to keep my head clear.
"Josh... I'm not saying this as a 'no', but is your question whether I'll bite you?"
"Yes. I want to see how it feels."
"My answer has two parts: I would. But, I have never ever heard of platonically biting a friend to see if it gets him off." I was equal parts flabbergasted that he asked and interested. I had always thought he was hot but left him alone out of respect for both of our spouses.
"Will you?" he pressed timidly. I had never heard this tone from him before.
Through again gritted teeth I responded, "Yes". I heard him breathe out as if he was relieved. Why did I say 'yes'?
Apparently, I felt committed. I needed to fill him in more: give and get as much information as possible. "You realize I'll leave a mark? Are you going to avoid Cayla for a week while it heals?"
"I'll figure something out. I tend to heal quick." I could hear him smirking as he came to terms with his request.
"And you realize that this is tantamount to cheating on our spouses?"
"It's just biting between friends." he said. I could still hear him smirking. I didn't even need to look. But I knew I had more preliminaries to get through before we arrived. I presumed it would happen either when we arrived at the bar or when we were leaving for the night. I was angry at him for putting me into this position, despite the fact that I started it and could cut it off at any time. Even still, I persisted. It was a friendly duty, right?
"Okay. Do you want to be equals, or you're in charge, or I'm in charge?" I asked. He paused longer than I expected so I elaborated, "Do you want to make all the decisions? Or should I be making the decisions? Or are we equally making decisions?" I was more accustomed to Dom/Sub situations clearly, but wanted to give him the opportunity to control this as much as possible. Even though I was normally submissive, something about this felt different.
"You make the decisions." He declared. Although it was a role reversal for me, I agreed it felt like the right choice. For the first time in a while, I looked over at him. We locked eyes. I can only describe it as intimate understanding. There were boundaries in our friendship; some we would keep and some were to be broken.
The remainder of our drive wasn't long. We sat in content silence.
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I parked at the far end of the lot. I didn't want anyone to walk by, especially any of our friends. Before either of us moved to leave the car, I turned towards him.
"Are you still sure?" I asked gently. I knew that he had asked in the first place, but I felt some responsibility for the entire situation.
"Yes.", he replied with enough surety in his voice that I didn't doubt continuing.
"Then get out of the car and come over here." I gestured with my head to my side of the car. It was a soft demand. We both got out and I watched him walk around the car to me.
Without actually touching him, I pinned him against the driver's side back door. The energy between us was so strong that we both knew where to be. I looked him in the eyes. "You can stop this at any time." I whispered to him.
"I know." He whispered back.
"Even if I'm 'making the decisions'." I added.