[Author's Note: This story is written using the narrative technique termed 'stream of consciousness.' The stream of consciousness technique is one of the defining features of twentieth century literature, though it seems rarely used in online erotica. In this approach, the narrator describes not just the character's actions and speech, but broadcasts the varying mental images, thoughts, feelings, and fragments that the character experiences without regard to narrative sequence or logical order.]
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Nathan taps his wedding ring against the steering wheel in time to the music on the CD player. Bono crooning with Sinatra. I have got you . . under my skin . . .. Sign ahead. Washington D.C. . . . 66. Hour plus to go. Traffic's picking up. He reaches and picks up the Styrofoam coffee cup. Getting cold. It's always bitter at gas stations. Worse when it cools. Not much left. Would be nice to have more.
He stares ahead through the windshield. Sign passing by. Man on horse. Rugged. Marlboro. Dark asphalt. Glad I never smoked. Saved a bundle. Didn't they ban advertising? Cigarette smell. Hate it. Sitting on a sofa kissing. What was her name? Sharon. Smoked too much. Could taste it when kissing her. Big pink nipples. Moaning. Ohhhh, yesssssss. Oooo. Didn't do her enough. She was fun.
He takes his hand and rubs it over his face. His eyes look into the mirror. The tops of Janie's and Julie's heads. The front of a mini-van. Headphones over blonde hair. The girls always have the headphones. Dueling headphones. Probably one of those boy groups. Don't they know they just copy each other? I have said to myself this affair . . never gonna go so well . . .. The Monkees were a copy. Old T.V. First color set we had. Sitting at home on a Saturday morning. Davy Jones on the tube. Was about 8 then. Hardly a care. Now Joyce and the girls. Damn mortgage. College soon.. Always working. Got the title and the office now. Vice-president. Leather chair. Sitting back: looking at her: Rachel. What to say to her on Monday?
He sips his coffee. He sets it down into the cupholder inside the Lexus SUV. Sitting in office. Woman walks by. The new hire. Young. Guessing about 27. Heard she will report to Bob. Lingers outside. Get up. Go introduce yourself. Nice outfit. Sharp. The young ones always have a sense of style. Black hair to down shoulders. Dark blue suit. Blouse. Trying not to look down. Eyes locking. Pretty she is. Hand extended. "I'm Rachel Conners. We met at lunch during my interview." Had seen her bio. Wharton grad. Interned with IBM. Great tits.
He looks out ahead. Rachel sticking her head in the door. Questions about the offshore project. Comes in. Has papers I needed. Hard not to notice her body. The smile. The hair. Always so damn perfect. Turns to go. Looks back. "Is there anything else you need, Mr. Roberts?" The tone. Imagining? "Is there anything else you NEED, Mr. Roberts?" Thinking of her blouse off. Wanting to see some new tit. What's she like in bed? In bed. Joyce beneath, legs open. Undoing Rachel's blouse. Keeping it hard. Now her panties. Open her legs. Better. Almost ready to come. Now! Opening eyes and seeing Joyce. Funny feeling.
"Gail called this morning when you were out getting gas," Joyce says to him, momentarily putting her book aside. Gail's cackling laugh. Got drunk and kissed her on New Year's Eve. Never told. Good sport about it. Kissing Joyce in bed: thinking about Gail. Does she wonder what I think about?
"She wants to know if we'll come for steaks next weekend." At their house last summer. No: spring. How long since promotion? Was right after basketball tourney. Game on the T.V. Michigan State. Who'd they beat? Cleaves. Good point guard. Trying to watch after dinner. Joyce getting pissed. At the table: endless chatter. Gail and Joyce: landscaping. Need to order those stones. Like the darker color better; should talk to Joyce. Dinner. Gail's roast. Good wine. Lots of wine. Tom's a bit of a sap at times: OK couple.
That's fine," he says, after a slight pause. He picks up the cup. He peers into the near emptiness through the plastic pull-back opening. Tom and Gail. Happy couple. Good kids. Model family. Portrait in the bedroom of Joyce and the girls. Doting dad beside them. Shit. Cheating dad. Is there anything else you NEED, Mr. Roberts? He takes a deep breath and rubs his left palm across the top of his pants leg.
"I won't have as much work this week, so the weekend should be clear," he adds. Shitty week it was. Off-shore acquisition to close. Goddamn regulations. Murderous stress. Rachel in office. Jacket off. Leaning over desk. Pouring over the latest financial summaries. Good head for numbers. Wondering what her lips are like, wrapped around. No time: had to focus. Final approval would come the next day. High fives and whoops in the office. Relief. Stock went up. Talking the market over drinks during the party at Murphy's. Toasts. Rachel looking over her glass. Eyes. Need. Hunger. The prize catch. That feeling. Knew it before. Kimberly.
Standing in a bar in D.C. Looking at Kimberly. Kimberly. Na-Ayth'n. Always three syllables. Texas. Na-ayth'n. Monogrammed sweater. Kappa something. Blonde hair. Still wonder if her pubic hair was blonde too. Terrible years. Grad school. Going with Jason to the party. Always had women around him. Hey, guy, share the wealth. Saw her. The chance to talk. Having lunch. Excited: finally moving into the big leagues. Old boyfriend at home. Figured. Talking. It was so fun to talk. Those eyes. I guess the conversation is always good when you're dazzled. Summer internship. D.C. Wanted New York but an offer's an offer. Summer in D.C. Hot as hell there when walking around. Talking to Kimberly. Undergrad library. Hints the boyfirend is history. You can come visit if you'd like. Really, Nathan? Na-ayth'n. Yes. Finally the chance. Weekend wasn't right. Started good. Her wide eyes. Pizza and beer in Georgetown. Flirting? Seemed like it. Sunday. Shit. Pissy day. Laying it on the line. Pause. Dead. Knew it then. The damn pause. Sinking. Having you show me around D.C. is like having a big brother; I guess that's how I think of you. Fuck. Fuck. Fucking waste of time.
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