Sing for Me

WARNING: This chapter contains a mention of contemplating suicide

I woke up to the feeling of someone gently stroking the side of my head. My eyes fluttered open and I saw Bella sitting on my bed smiling at me. "Hey." She said.

"Hey." I responded. "What are you doing here?"

"Well you were in an accident last night, and you wouldn't respond to anyone. So I wanted to come see how you're doing. Your mom let me in."

I smiled at her. "Thank you Bella. I'm sorry I didn't respond, I just wasn't really in the mood to talk."

She nodded. "I know. And we don't have to talk now if you don't want to, I just wanted to check on you and see if I could cheer you up at all."

"Well I'm not sure I'll be good company right now. I'm not even sure why I'm feeling so depressed right now."

She thought for a moment. "Well I'll see if I can't help you out with that. You want me to give you a blowjob?" I shook my head. "You wanna have sex?" I shook it again. "You wanna suck on my boobs?" I had to really consider that one, but still shook my head.

"Can you just lay down with me for a while?" I asked her.

"Of course." I held my arm up and she crawled into bed with me, cuddling up into my chest as I wrapped my arm around her.

We laid there silently for a while before I finally spoke up. "I think I do know why I'm feeling so depressed actually." I told her.

"Why?"

"Because I won't be getting my car back. Mom and dad bought it for me for my 16th birthday, and I remember dad took me outside to show it off to me. I think he was more excited about it than I was. He got in with me for the first drive and we just rode all over town for hours. I loved that day so much. And no matter how much I would make fun of my car or call it a piece of junk, I still loved it because my parents got it for me.

"And I think now that I won't have it anymore, it's like another piece of dad is gone. And it was one of my favorite pieces because of that memory." I heard my voice breaking as I spoke.

"I'm sorry Rich. That makes a lot of sense though. I can't imagine how it feels. It's like you're losing him again." She shook her head against my chest. "It's not fair. You've lost so much and now you lose even more. You don't deserve any of it. You're the best person I know and life just keeps throwing everything at you." She sighed.

"That's just the way things go I guess. Some things are out of our control. As much as we try to be the authors of our own life stories, those things we can't control are put there by whoever's really writing them. I just wish my author wasn't such a cruel bastard sometimes."

Bella nodded. "Yeah, if I ever find out who's writing your story I'll break their fingers."

I snickered. "Thank you Bella. I'm really grateful to have you."

She squeezed her arms around me. "I'm grateful I have you too. Your author did a good job putting us together." We both chuckled at that.

"Hey Bella?"

"Yeah?" She turned her head up towards me.

"Can I suck on your boobs now?"

She smiled. "Absolutely." I slid down the bed and she pulled her shirt up over her chest. She undid her bra, which was another front clasper, and her beautiful pillowy breasts spilled out. I took one of her nipples into my mouth and suckled on it. She brushed the back of my head, and moaned softly deep in her throat. I eventually fell asleep like that, still gently sucking on her.

I awoke a few hours later, my mouth still wrapped around Bella's nipple. Bella had fallen asleep too. She had moved my pillow underneath my head, and I saw she had taken her shirt and bra off, probably to be more comfortable. This girl stayed with me and let me nurse on her while I slept. How did I ever get so lucky to be with her?

I released her from my mouth and she let out a soft coo in her sleep. Gently sliding up I wrapped my arms around her again, and pulled her in for a kiss. She kissed me back, and I thought she had woken up, but she was just instinctually responding in her sleep.

I held her to me for a time before she eventually stirred and opened her eyes. She smiled at me. I had a sudden urge to say something to her but stopped myself. I didn't know if I was ready for the big L word, even if it was with Bella. Instead I just leaned in and kissed her again. "Thank you." I said when I released the kiss.

"You don't need to thank me. I'm always happy to help you Rich." My heart fluttered. I took a deep breath and sighed contentedly. "I like waking up in your arms. You think I could stay the night so I can do it again?"

"Only if I can fall asleep sucking on your boobs again."

She smiled. "Deal."

Bella drove home to grab some things before returning to spend the day with me. I texted mom to let her know that Bella would be staying the night. She had gone back to work while I slept so it was just the two of us in the house. I wanted to make her lunch, but since the only thing I knew how to cook was eggs we ordered in instead. We sat on the couch, watching movies and talking with each other. Night fell and we watched one final movie before retreating to my bedroom. As per my request she let me suck on her boobs until I fell asleep. Though this time I chose the other one as I figured the first one had enough attention already.

I once again awoke to the beautiful sight of Bella sleeping in front of me. I had managed to keep my mouth attached to her all night, and I gave her another couple of sucks eliciting light moans from her sleeping form. I felt my morning wood pressing against her, and my brain, still hazy from sleep and now from horniness cooked up an idea. I gently slid Bella's panties off of her, doing my best not to disturb her sleep. I parted her legs, and felt she was already slightly aroused. Pulling off my pajamas I knelt over her and leaned down. I slid inside and began to pump into her, feeling her grow wetter from the stimulation.

Her breathing grew heavier and she moaned louder, still sleeping. I continued, gently sliding myself in and out of her, and watching as her boobs began to rock back and forth from the movement. After a minute, she finally stirred and her eyes opened. She gave me a smile and wordlessly adjusted herself, getting in a more comfortable position beneath me. Her hands grabbed hold of her tits and she squeezed them, her eyes closing from the added pleasure. I began thrusting harder now, and her moans increased in volume. I held a finger to my lips and she closed her mouth, biting down on her lip.

Having been constantly aroused since yesterday, as well as not having cum in a few days, I didn't last long. I held on as long as I could before I pulled out of her and used my hand to finish myself. I sprayed out over her naked body and she smiled, giggling quietly as I coated her. When I finished firing on her, she sighed contentedly. "Good morning."

"Good morning." I responded. "I'm sorry you didn't wake up in my arms, but you just looked so sexy I couldn't help myself."

She giggled again. "That's okay. I liked this better anyway. I think it's my new favorite way to wake up." I crawled over her and kissed her. "Just think. Soon we can spend the night together and you can wake me up just like that again, only you'll be able to fill me up with your hot cum. Or maybe if you're careful enough, you can do the whole thing without waking me, and I'll get to wake up with a warm belly and you kissing me." The thought was enough to make me begin to grow hard again. "I'd love to go again with you, but if you put that back inside me I'm gonna start getting loud." She kissed me now. "So how about I go take a shower instead."

I kissed her back. "How about we go take a shower." I said.

"But what about your mom?"

"She knows you're here. She won't mind."

In the shower Bella got on her knees and gave me a blowjob. She finished me off in only around 5 minutes, swallowing my load greedily. We washed each other and I had to stop myself from fucking her in there too, her magnificent body calling to me the whole time. Eventually we got out and dried off, getting dressed before walking out to the kitchen. Mom was seated on the couch in the living room watching one of her shows. She gave us a smile as she saw us. "Good morning. You kids sleep okay?" She asked.

We nodded. "Yeah, Rich's bed is really comfy."

"Are you hungry? I can make you some breakfast."

Bella nodded. "If it's not too much trouble that would be wonderful."

Mom smiled at her. "You're such a sweet girl Bella. Don't tell the others but you've always been my favorite." Bella giggled and blushed. Mom got up and walked to the kitchen to begin making us breakfast. Bella and I sat on the couch. "Don't you change that. I'm still listening." Mom called from the kitchen, referring to her show. I sighed but left it on. It was one of those campy cable romance shows. I don't mind romantic shows or movies, but this was just a bit too much for me.

Mom made us biscuits and eggs. Bella and I sat at the table together and enjoyed the food while mom watched her show on the couch. A little while after we finished eating Bella got dressed and went back home. I was just getting settled on the couch next to mom when she stood up, turned off the tv and told me to put my shoes on. "Where are we going?"

"Don't worry about it, just get ready to go." With a sigh, I got up and made my way to my room. I changed and put my shoes on, and met mom at the door. Without saying anything she walked out and I followed her to her car. When we got into the car she pulled out a sleep mask and told me to put it on. I tried asking her where we were going again but she just insisted I put it on.

I begrudgingly put it on, and could only listen as mom drove us. I spent the first few minutes of the ride trying to keep track of where we were to see if I could figure out where we were going, but mom eventually took a turn that I didn't know and I had no idea where we were after that. I could tell that we had gotten onto the highway at some point, and my mind was all over the place trying to figure out what was going on.

Eventually we pulled into somewhere and I felt the car stop. Mom put it in park, and got out. She opened my door and helped me get out. She turned me, and then told me to take off the mask. My eyes took a moment to adjust to the light, but when they did I saw we were standing in the lot of a car dealership. I looked at her shocked, but she just smiled at me.

I started to walk towards the used lot, but mom grabbed my shoulder and shook her head. Instead she pointed me to the new car lot. "Go look around over there, I'm gonna go talk to someone inside." I was in disbelief.

I walked around the lanes of cars, seeing what all there was. A few minutes later mom walked over with a salesman. "Have you found one you like yet Richie?" She called as they approached.

I shook my head. "No, not yet."

"Well why don't you keep looking, then we can talk to this nice man here about some." I walked through the next couple of lanes, mom and the salesman following behind, and eventually stopped behind a car. I looked it over, walked around it, and looked through the windows. It was a white Toyota Corolla SE. Almost the exact same car I had before, only newer. I looked at mom.

She smiled and said, "I had a feeling." She turned to the salesman and let him know that it was the car I wanted. He left and came back a few minutes later and handed me the keys. I unlocked the car and got in. It felt a little different, but still good. The seats were a bit of a nicer material than my previous car, and there were a lot more amenities available in this one. But as I turned the car on, there was only one thing I cared about checking. Connecting my phone to the bluetooth, I opened up my playlist, and scrolled until I found the song I wanted. Subdivisions, by Rush started playing. It sounded amazing, the natural bass of the speakers pulsing out the low synths cleanly. I knew it was my car.

The salesman led us inside and took us to a small office. After a few minutes of talking, mom managed to get him to knock $8,000 off of the total, for a cash in hand price, as well as a few other 'strings' the salesman would be able to pull. Obviously it was all just sales bs and mom saw right through it.

After filling out all of the paperwork, he handed us the keys and I took them. Mom walked me back to the car and had me take a picture in front of it. I got inside and sat there for a moment. I remembered dad taking me for a long drive when I got my first car. I stepped out and talked to mom. "I think I wanna take it for a drive for a while. I'll meet you back home when I'm finished."

Mom nodded. "That's fine. Don't take too long though because I wanna see you before I go to work." I nodded and she walked towards where we had parked. I sat back down and turned the car on. The clock inside read 11:02. Mom usually left for work right around 2, meaning I could drive for just under 3 hours if I wanted.

I pulled out of the lot, and headed out. I drove around the city, something I never really did. I spent time just thinking about my life, what I might expect in the future, and dad. A lot about dad. Eventually I made a turn and started heading in the direction of home.

I made it back just after 1. Mom asked me how my drive went as I walked in the door. "It was good." I responded. "I just spent some time thinking." She nodded, and I think she knew I had been thinking about dad. "I think I'm gonna go lay down." I told her, and walked to my room.

I checked my phone and saw I had a few messages waiting for me. The first had come from Bella.

BP: Thanks for letting me stay the night with you. Hopefully we can do it again soon

She also sent a picture that she had apparently taken yesterday. It was of me laying down in bed with her after she first arrived. I was asleep still having her nipple in my mouth. She sent it along with a text saying "You looked so cute I had to capture the moment." She also sent another picture a few minutes later. In this one she held her phone down by her stomach. She was using her arms to hold her breasts together, and I could see her eyes poking over the tops of them. That made me chuckle. I sent her a heart and thanked her for the pics.

I checked my other messages and saw a text from Donny.

DI: Hey Henry told me about your accident. Rest up and I hope you feel better. Hopefully we'll see you at the gym on Wednesday

I responded, telling him thanks and I let him know I would be good to show up on Wednesday. Going back, I saw I had a message from Henry asking if I wanted him to take me to school tomorrow. I told him I had it figured out, though I didn't let him know that I had gotten a new car yet. I decided to keep that from the group, letting it be a nice surprise for Monday. The last text I had was from Annie.

A: Hey mom just showed me your new car. It looks good. I'm still wanting to talk if you're up for it

I called her and she picked up after a couple of rings. "Hey Richie. How's the car?"

"It's good. I was pretty upset yesterday, that's why I never called, sorry. I probably wouldn't have been much fun to talk to anyway." I said.

"Yeah I get that. I don't blame you for being upset. I know you probably had a lot of sentimental value in the last car." I hadn't really ever opened up to anyone about those memories of driving with dad until I told Bella. But Annie always had a way of knowing things even if I kept them to myself.

"Yeah." I said somberly. "I didn't even feel like talking to anyone yesterday."

"Well that's not what Bella told me." She said

I let out a scoff, and shook my head. "Bella. Oh that girl and her mouth."

Annie laughed. "Yeah, she told me she spent the day with you yesterday. I'm glad you had her to keep you company. Even if you didn't want to talk to anyone else it's still better to spend time with someone than to just stew in your depression."

"Yeah. I'm glad she came over. She's too good for me." I sighed.

"I don't think so. I mean you won her affection somehow, so clearly you're good to her too. You guys are good together, you don't need to be so down on yourself." Annie paused, I think to let me respond, but I didn't say anything. After a moment she spoke up again. "She may have also shown me a picture she took of you while visiting."

I groaned in frustration. "Why are you all like this?" I said, and Annie let out a laugh.

"Oh come on Rich, it was a sweet picture. You were like a wittle baby sucking on a wittle booby." She said in a baby voice. "Or well, I guess not so little." She laughed again, and I laughed too this time.

"I mean can you blame me? I can't resist those things when she offers them to me."

"Yeah. Makes me kinda sad I didn't get a taste before I left."

"Hey there's always the holidays. You never know." With all the poking and prodding Annie did into my love life, I knew she also really liked Bella, and if she wanted to try and have some fun with her, I didn't see it as that big of a problem. As long as both of them agreed to it.

"Oh you better believe I'm gonna be there for it." She chuckled. "Well it seems like you're doing okay now, which is good." She took a breath. "And I'm really sorry about your car. I'm sure it must have really hurt losing it. But it may have been for the best. I almost didn't wanna say this, but part of me was a little worried you might have run that car into the ground trying to keep the memories you had in it. I think it may have been better that it was out of your control."

I thought about that for a while, then sighed. "Maybe you're right. As much as I loved that car, and the memories I had in it with..." I took a breath, "with dad, I probably wouldn't have been able to let go if it wasn't taken."

"Well that's the thing Rich, you still have those memories. Even if you don't have the physical reminder of them anymore, you'll still have them." Annie told me sympathetically. "You know I lost my pen, when I left the dorms for summer."

"You did?" I asked.

"Yeah. Normally I would carry it everywhere, especially after the accident. But when I got home, I went through my stuff and I couldn't find it anywhere. I was crying that whole night. It took me two weeks to finally accept that it was gone. But even still, I had the memory of when dad gave it to me. And every time I had thought of him when I used it. But when I got back, I found it sitting on my desk. And I'm sorry that you won't be able to walk out one day and find your old car sitting out there, but you can still have those memories with it, and him."

"Yeah, I know." I said, but she could tell I didn't fully mean it.

"Look I'm not telling you to let go of anything, but maybe it's just time for something new. A new car with new memories."

I smiled. "Yeah." I thought of saying something more, but at that moment, another thought occurred to me. Something I really felt like I needed to do. "Hey listen, thanks for talking to me Annie but I actually have something I need to take care of. I'll talk to you later okay?"

"Sounds good Rich. Feel free to call me whenever you need to talk. Bye." She said.

"Bye." I ended the call. I looked at the time, and it was a quarter to 2. Mom would be leaving soon, which worked out for what I wanted to do. I scrolled through my contacts and found the number I was looking for. It rang for a few seconds before it got picked up. "Hey, I need a favor. Can you come over?"

There was a knock on my door at around 2:30. Mom had left for work and wouldn't be back for almost 12 hours. I went to the door and opened it. Standing on the porch was my uncle Oliver, looking at me with a nervous smile. "Hi Rich." He said. I stepped back and invited him inside. I motioned to the couch as I shut the door, and he took a seat. "So can I ask what this is about?"