I'm like most, perhaps all, single females in this country. I'm looking for a man. I want a man. Actually, "want" is the wrong word. Need. I need a man. All my adult life I've been in ongoing relationships. I'm used to doing, and having done to me, everything lovers with healthy sexual appetites do to each other. My vagina and his penis, definitely. But a lot more. Hands and mouth and tongue, also definitely. Just looking at each other, smiling, and having sexy thoughts. Knowing that a little later you're going to be satisfied for sure. Making sure you satisfy him, that he enjoys everything, because then you know he'll reciprocate and you'll experience the greatest highs of your life. Just trusting one another, feeling free to try anything, depending on one another. It's more than just sex, it's a whole life style. And I don't want to live without it. I don't mean it's a matter of life and death. It almost is but it's really a matter of having the full life that you want. Of being happy and contented instead of bitchy.
I'll find a guy. In fact, a guy will probably find me. It's happened in the past. I guess I'm attractive enough that guys notice me. I mean, I'm not Miss America but I'm doing the most I can with what I have. I'm a little tall, 5'8". Slim, although I prefer trim, at 116 pounds. 31 years old. I've always been athletic. I'm on a mixed-sex softball team in a league and also on a mixed-sex soccer team. The last five or six years I've also been going to a gym. I began to feel that I wasn't staying fit naturally as I used to and needed some good workouts. My last boy friend claimed I was like the actress Jennifer Garner that's in the TV show Alias and that he wouldn't want to fight me because I'd probably beat him. I don't think I'm as attractive as her, although my body probably is similar to hers since I'm in great shape. And I have dark hair sort of like her and my facial features are at least symmetrical and normal. My boy friends have always told me how good looking I was.
I've been in four long term relationships over the years with a half-dozen one nighters in between as I tried to find the right guy for the next long term. It all started back in high school. I don't know about you but I suspect that in the sophomore and junior years of high school most kids experience what I did. We know nothing much about sex but it's our number one topic. And the number one part of sex for the moment was oral sex. We heard how you wouldn't get pregnant that way but would still experience sex. We even heard second hand what some girls who claimed to have done it had to say about it. So, I was intrigued.
I was dating this guy, George. We were both athletes, both on varsity teams at school. I had been a string bean but great at basketball. And the string bean had started to get some shape to it by then. My breast's weren't huge, B cups (as they still are), but they were there. And I had hips and a butt. And plenty of hair around my genitals.I used to look at myself naked in the mirror and think about sex. A lot. George and I necked pretty heavy, feeling around, but had never really done anything more. I wanted to and I'm sure George wanted to but he was much too nice to push me much and I began to think it would never happen. When it finally did, it was because I dared him.
We were in the driveway at my house, shooting baskets. We were both good at it. Sometimes I could beat him and sometimes he could beat me. I don't know how I got the nerve but all the talk with other girls at school had got me aroused, I guess. So, I said, "George, let's have a contest from the foul line."
"O.k.," he says, "for what? What does the winner get?"
That's when I came up with new rules. I looked him right in the face. "If you win, I suck you. If I win, you lick me, tongue fuck me."
He just looks at me. He's a good looking guy, tall, lots of other girls would like to date him. Then he gets this lopsided grin. "You're on," he said.
I had the ball so I stepped to the line and shot. I missed the whole basket. I was too good for this to be an accident. As the ball bounced back, I turned and tossed it to him. He looked at me with a questioning face, then grinned and stepped up to the line and threw the ball hard against the back board. As it bounced back, he took it, turned to me and said, "I guess we both lose." I've thought since that it was a terrific thing for him to do.
Up in my bedroom I led by getting naked so he did, too. The first time we saw each other naked. Since I had invented this, after we kissed, I had him sit on the side of the bed. I kneeled between his knees and got hold of his very erect, very big, cock. Big enough it scared me a little that maybe I had gone too far. I had felt it through his clothes before but in person was something else. I kissed it and looked at it and finally got my mouth around that big lump at the end and starting sucking and licking. I didn't have the faintest idea of what to do but the more I did, I discovered that I sort of liked it. It was very sexy. I tried to get more of it in my mouth. I kept one hand wrapped around the bottom part of it and sucked on the top half. I almost accidentally got hold of his balls with my other hand.
I don't know what the connection is but as I sucked on him, I could feel my genitals getting wet, acting sexy some how. I moved my hand from his balls down to myself and slid a finger into me. And then it was like he exploded in my mouth. To say I was surprised is an under statement. It had never entered my mind before. I lifted my head up and away from him and he shot stuff on my face. My mouth was sort of drooling what he had shot in me first. It's one of those times when your mind works awfully fast or something. All sorts of things ran though my mind in a split second and I realized what was happening and what girls had mentioned before. So I put my head back down and got him back into my mouth and took the rest of it. I had a huge mouthful. I had no idea what to do. I think it was instinct or something that had me swallow. Meanwhile, George has his hand in my hair and is saying, "Nancy, that's unbelievable. You're so great."
It took a while for us to sort it all out. I licked my lips and tasted everything and we both were standing and he was holding me close and we kissed and kissed some more. And then I'm on the edge of the bed and he's down between my knees and as he gets to me I spread really wide to give him room. I've never experienced anything better in my life. I mean, since then I've had terrific sex but that first time that a guy's mouth and tongue and fingers got me to an orgasm was something else entirely. His face ended up all wet and sticky from me and we were holding each other and kissing and laying on the bed and he was hard again and soon was pushing in to me and I realized it's exactly what I wanted. It didn't hurt at all, I must have lost that barrier somewhere before. It felt weird, having something inside me but it also felt great. We both had another orgasm as he fucked me.
George and I had regular sex for about five years, through high school and through the first couple years of college. We both went to college in our home town. We never lived together. We both lived with our parents, in college just as in high school. But lots and lots of sex. Lots of condoms after that first time until I got on the pill. Getting the pill wasn't easy since I had to get my mother involved but she seemed to understand. She even told me once that if the pill existed when she was my age, I might never have been born and she might never have married my Dad. Anyway, we had lots of sex and tried everything we could think of.
In college, George didn't make any varsity teams like he had in high school and I did, basketball. I was no star but I was on the team. He took different courses than I did. We gradually found some new friends. We both began to realize that all we really had was sex. We weren't buddies any more as we used to be. It took a while. As I've learned since, break ups are always difficult. And we never really had a fight and broke up. We just saw each other less and less until it all disappeared. Today, he's long since married and a father and when we see each other, which is seldom, we're still friendly. But it's long over. I did learn from him, though. For instance, he took varying times to cum. And the first time was always the quickest. So, accidentally, we had done it right that first time. If we were going to do more than just a quick fuck, things went best if I sucked him off first. To begin with, I liked to. But it also got him to then eat me. And he would recover while he was getting me to an orgasm so that after, when we fucked, he lasted a long time and I would orgasm again. Maybe more than once. I think I also learned that I'm naturally horny. I mean, sex and penises aren't always at the top of my mind but they aren't very far below the surface. Almost anything brings them up. I guess, b asically, I'm always ready for sex. I don't think that's true of all girls.
So, I missed the sex a lot. I had my first one night stand. I was just so horny that when a guy made a move, I cooperated. It really wasn't all that good and I felt like a slut. I'm not sure I learned anything but for the moment I realized that maybe I shouldn't immediately fuck every guy I met.