[*Dear Reader! If you find this story interesting or exciting, please feel free to email or send your own recording. I'm always interested in hearing from readers. ]
I am a professor at a public university in California. I've had some adventures with students in the past, and I want to share one of them with you.
One evening, after a day of classes and lecturing, I got home, cracked open a beer, turned on some music, and sat at my desk. I fired up my laptop and scrolled through dozens of dull work emails. But I paused when I saw an unusual one.
This was an anonymous email from a random Gmail address--just a combination of numbers and letters. The subject line stated simply, "For Professor. I'm hoping you'll be interested."
She had attached an audio file to the email. The file was entitled simply, "Recording 1."
The sender wrote that she was a female student in one of my classes. She would not say what her name was, or which of my courses she was taking that semester.
I opened up the email. The first line was, "Dear Professor: I am very nervous to send the attaching recording to you, but I've gotten up the courage to email it with the help of a couple of glasses of wine. I hope that you'll listen to it whenever you want to. It was incredibly fun to make. Please let me know if you've listened to it, Sir, and what you think of it. That would be so exciting."
She confessed that she was "turned on" by me, by my style in class, by my "strong shoulders and arms," my sense of humor, my "presence" and my knowledge. Taken together, she found these exciting in a man and especially in a professor."I am very shy around attractive men, especially authority figures like you."
The email signed off with, "I hope you enjoy this recording. I think you will. I loved making it for you. Let me know if you'd like more. I'd like that. And yes, I take requests! LOL "
"Well," I thought, "this is new and different."
It's interesting how students develop crushes on their professors. And not just crushes, but sometimes passionate attachments. Their authority feeds into fantasies, which can build over the course of the semester. This was one of those incredible students.
I was used to getting the occasional flirty, hand written note from a female student, suggesting that we meet for a drink to talk about the class, or even an invitation to drop by her apartment for dinner and a conversation about her paper. Sometimes these are innocent enough; sometimes--not so innocent. But I had never received a recording like this.
I still didn't know if this was a joke, or some kind of prank.
So I clicked on the attachment. Sure enough, I heard a woman's voice. A woman who sounded kind of shy, and a bit turned on.
The student said, "Hello Professor. I'm sorry if I sound nervous, but I am! It's Tuesday night and I'm alone in my dorm room. If you are actually listening to this, that would be so amazing. Wow, I hope you are... Please listen to me share some things with you on this little recording. I think you'll enjoy it."
She said that she was a little buzzed from the wine she'd been drinking to get up some courage. She said that for a couple of weeks she'd wanted to speak directly to me and to record her voice as she lay in her bed. Tonight, she said, she'd finally follow up on the idea.
She said that she would never tell me who she was and that I would never guess, because in class she was pretty quiet and seemed quite normal. She was a regular student who did her work, answered a question in class every now and again, but was unassuming. She wrote that she wasn't even sure if she would hit "Send" on the email once she'd finished.
But she did hit Send. And now I'm telling you about this amazing recording.
I was getting excited myself. It was such an attractive voice, already breathing just a little bit heavy. She sounded tentative at first, but her nerves were gradually calmed by the wine, and salved by the erotic thoughts running through her mind.
She didn't quite know what to say at first. She stammered, laughing at her own inarticulateness. After some hesitation, some hemming and hawing, the student went on to confide that she sometimes thought of me at night, when she was lying in bed. She gradually confessed that, when she was in bed stripped down to her panties and a t-shirt, she let her mind--and her hands--roam.
She said that she would close her eyes and imagine that she was talking to me, in her room. She said that she would turn herself on, in this unusual way, by talking to me out loud, pretending I was there with her, in the privacy of her room. She would tell me, out loud, things--fantasies, desires-- that she found exciting.
It was this act of actually verbalizing her erotic thoughts, telling me what exactly it was that she wanted from me, to do with and to me, that made her most aroused.
She had come to love this taboo act of speaking openly and out loud to her Professor about her feelings. She would talk to me in ways that she could never say to anyone else.
She said that if I ever asked her if she was the author of this email that she would play dumb and deny it, "So don't ask." She said that she would never, ever get together with me for real, she would never meet me, or talk in person about this with me. She insisted that she was not hoping to sleep with me. She was purely trying to maximize her excitement as she masturbated. She was living out a fantasy by expressing it aloud to the object of her affections.
I could hear in her voice that was getting excited, and the words began to come more freely. "Good girls don't have these feelings, do they, Professor? Good girls don't touch themselves in bed imagining their Professor was there watching them, do they, Sir? Good girls don't speak aloud to their teachers as they run their hands over their bodies, do they?"
"So maybe I'm a bad girl," she laughed. "Wow, I can't believe I'm sharing this with you, touching my boobs under my tee shirt while I talk to you..." She moaned a little. "It must be the wine..."
This form of communication, of sharing her erotic fantasies, was her way of playing when she had no boyfriend and was too busy with work and school to date. "In my fantasy, you are my strong and dominant lover, the one I'll do anything for."
For her, this was the most exciting way that she could get turned on. She said that she had an incredibly vivid imagination and that method of engaging with her naughty thoughts--with a professor she was attracted to--was mind bending for her.
She told me, "It's so simple, Professor. Imagine you could tell women who you find sexy exactly what you want to do with them, everything you want to experience with them. You can say it to them, but anonymously. You know that they will listen, they will hear you, and you think and hope that they will be excited. Imagine that you can tell them your all your dirty daydreams, all the sexiest, naughtiest things that come to your mind, your deepest, darkest fantasies. You can tell them what you want to do to them, and what you want them to do to you."
"Just imagine that co-worker or neighbor or friend that you think is hot--go ahead, think of her right now. Think of her face, her body, what you want to do with her. I mean really want to do. Imagine that you can tell her how badly you want her, and every dirty thing you'd like to do. And you know she'll listen. And maybe she'll even respond to you, just like I hope you will respond to me, Professor."
I really liked this idea, I had to admit to myself. No, I loved this idea. Her voice was getting strained as she became more aroused. Her breath came a little faster.
This was a very different type of student, with a very different type of mind. She obviously loved to please. She also understood me well, just from observing me in class. She knew that I would love this.
She said that she suspected that a strong and handsome teacher like myself probably had a lot of girls who came on to him, and that I was the kind of guy that girls got crushes on. A lot of my students, she said, thought about me when they were trying to fall asleep at night. "Actually, I'm in bed right now," she said, "and I'm thinking of you, and I'm a little buzzed, and I'm a little horny." She giggled. "But I get to talk to you tonight, and those other girls don't."
Man was I really getting turned on by this.