The suspense was gnawing at me and I was in an agony of indecision.
I spun around to see if anyone was watching me but everywhere I looked I saw flowers and foliage. Huge ostentatious bunches of roses, baskets stuffed with peonies and poppies, chrysanthemums, orchids, pansies, tiger-lilies and hundreds of different plants and shrubs all blending to create a kaleidoscope of color and a variety of floral displays at Garden World's Garden Design Exhibition.
Everyone appeared to be immersed in the breathtaking beauty of the gardens, strolling through the walkways, admiring the settings, journeying from the tranquility of the Zen gardens to the geometric elegance of formal patio gardens to the well-planned disorder of the quaint country gardens. My creation; a lock-up and go townhouse-style garden, was getting its fair share of admiration but no-one was paying me any undue attention.
I took a deep shaky breath. The wash of different fragrances that hung in the air seemed to overpower me as I glanced over at Meredith trying desperately to decide whether or not I should share my dilemma with her.
Meredith was my boss and one of those earth-mother types with her feet firmly planted on the ground, but we were as different as night and day. While I liked to think of myself as a landscape artist who painted with plants and made gardens sexy by creating evocative spaces that provided a retreat from the stresses of daily life, she was a qualified horticulturalist and environmental activist who was immersed in an organic revolution. Her aim was to stamp out all chemicals, hormones and gene-splitting which she said were more dangerous than actual warfare.
But for now she was flushed and happy, totally in her element promoting the benefits of natural organic planting to anyone who cared to stop at her garden which she'd christened 'Hot Food.' It was a bright contemporary Mexican-themed kitchen garden with cilantro, lemon trees, tomatoes, chili peppers, purple sage and a variety of greens and herbs. Her latest campaign was to get schools to teach compulsory classes in agriculture because, "Kids need to know that food does not grow in supermarkets," she reiterated whenever she got the opportunity.
I had jokingly suggested that she incorporate some of the huge carrots and zucchinis in her garden display that she'd harvested from her organic farm and call them 'Naturally Orgasmic' instead of' 'Naturally Organic' because some of those babies could definitely serve a dual purpose as well as revive great interest in veggie growing. She hadn't been amused but I'd noticed a faint blush creep up her throat which made me laugh. I wondered whether I'd touched a stimulated nerve or at the very least, given her some ideas that didn't involve salads.
No! I decided emphatically as I watched Meredith push back a mousy strand of hair which had escaped from beneath her straw hat. There was no way I could tell her about the letters, even though she may've seen who'd dropped them off.
To be honest, I hadn't given any real thought to the silly sing-song lilt in the green envelope that I'd discovered yesterday on the small display table beside our brochures and business cards.
'Jasmine, Jasmine with eyes so green. You're the prettiest flower that I've ever seen.'
Oh sure, I'd been mildly flattered when I'd read it but I'd laughed it off. Hundreds of people had visited the exhibition because it was Sunday and my guess was that some joker was having a little fun. But when I got back from a coffee break to discover a second green envelope in the same place I got a strange feeling in the pit of my stomach. Two days in a row was more than a little fun. It was deliberate.
I inched the white embossed page out of the envelope. The writing was the same but the words were very different.
'Dear Jasmine,
Do you know how you look when you think no-one is watching? I wonder if you have ever studied the dark depths of your own eyes, the wild grace of your tawny hair in the breeze, the stubborn line of your chin and the perfect curve of your breasts.
If only I could watch you slowly peel off your clothes to reveal the silky smoothness of your skin, every hill and valley of your body's landscape and the petals of your secret garden.'
The hills and valleys of my body? The petals of my secret garden! Fuck, what was this? Some hopeless gardening stalker writing a delicate dirty letter?
A shiver raced along my spine as I again scrutinized the faces of the people wandering about. All I saw were avid gardeners hunting down new ideas, grannies carrying pots of violets and a mother trying to do damage control with a toddler's melting ice-cream cone. Nobody was remotely interested in me, let alone watching me. It was just another lazy afternoon at Garden World.
Except it wasn't.
Someone was fantasizing about me and sending me notes.