"Can I talk to you honestly and privately? I'm down and I need to talk it over."
"Of course, Megan. Anything." Megan had called and invited me for a walk around a local park.
"This should probably be a girl chat, but you're going to have to stand in."
"I'll see if I can at least
act
more intelligent."
Megan smiled, but then got serious. "Justin, what's wrong with me? I don't have a boyfriend, and I am so sexually frustrated. No one is asking me out. I'm worried that I'm a bit overweight for guys, and I won't get any dates."
"Wow, Megan, I don't see that at all. I think it's more that you've recently moved here and need to get into some social circles."
She looked over at me. "Are you just saying that to make me feel better?"
"No, Megan. We all go through dry spells. I think plenty of guys would find you very attractive."
"Oh, really? And how do you know? What attracts you, Justin? I want the truth."
"You know, Megan, I am attracted to a number of different types of women. I'm always surprised at who attracts me. There's no formula."
"Nice slippery answer. OK, I'm going to put you on the spot. Describe your ideal woman. And you better be totally honest with me."
"Find a tennis league. The girls are tanned, athletic, and healthy. I don't care about hair color. As for looks, I have a reasonable threshold. Once they're over that, I'm more interested in what's between their ears. Do they have a sense of humor and enjoy life? Are they good in bed? Can they keep me interested out of bed?"
"And what's this threshold you're talking about?"
"I think it's about balance. I can go for a tight body look. That means a tight chest and butt. If an otherwise tight girl has huge breasts, it seems off-balance to me. I'm not saying that she's ugly--a lot of guys would jump at that. It's just not what attracts me. I can also go for a more voluptuous look. Now we're talking a curvy chest and butt. To me, it's more about how these things go together. If a woman has a healthy glow about her, I'm attracted. And truthfully, I've been attracted to women that violate these rules. I don't know why, I just get turned on. Sometimes, it's who they are on the inside, and that just lights up the outside."
"Give me an example."
"I don't think you'd know anyone where that's happened. And it's too hard to describe with words. Like I said, I can't really say why I'm attracted sometimes."
"And you think this happens with men in general?"
"I've talked with a few about attraction, and they all say something similar. How does attraction work with you?"
"Exactly the same. I just thought men went for the usual cheerleader look."
"Some do, but the guys you want to meet don't go for the ditzy bombshell. And I know that not every cheerleader is a ditz. It's just that a lot of guys go for the smart, accomplished girl vibe."
"Yeah, I know about the hot librarian fantasy. But she's also a model inside a pencil skirt. I don't know if I buy your story for bigger women."
An idea formed in my head, but I wasn't sure I wanted to open the subject.
"What is it, Justin? I can tell you're thinking of something."
"Busted. I am thinking of something, but it's pretty personal. You'll probably get too much information."
"I confessed that I'm sexually frustrated. Go ahead, you can spill."
"Okay, I can show you a picture of a curvy woman that totally turns me on. In fact, it's more than a picture, it's a video."
"That's not too much information."
"It's one of
those
videos."
"You mean porn?"
"Kind of. She's alone, and she gets herself off."
"It's called masturbation, Justin."
"I know. The point is, she's on the heavier side, but she totally turns me on. I can't explain it. But, to put it plainly, I would do her in a second. And to be totally honest, I've cum many times to that video. It's who she is. Passionate, fun, and a little naughty. Her personality shines through and makes her hotter than hell. I know she would be fantastic in bed. And she definitely knows how to get herself off. I would do her in a second, but I could easily see doing her for a lifetime."
"Okay, I've got to see this mystery woman of yours."
"Let's find a bench and sit down. It's on my phone."
"On your phone?"
"Megan, I'm a guy. I'm sexually frustrated twenty four hours a day, every day. Believe it or not, I jack off to relieve the pressure. So I keep some videos on the phone. I'd be shocked to find a guy that doesn't have a secret stash."
Megan laughed. "Let's see this video that gets you off. And thanks for being honest with me. It may not feel like it now, but I really appreciate it."
We found a picnic table and sat down. I pulled up my private video folder.
"Whoa! That's a lot of stuff. What else..."
I whipped my phone away. "Megan, this is personal enough as it is. Let's review the score. You've 'put yourself out there' and admitted that you're sexually frustrated. I've told you the same, admitted that I masturbate, and agreed to show you a video that gets me off. Don't push it."
She got contrite. "Sorry, Justin. You're right; you're sharing some very personal stuff here. But can I say again that I really appreciate it? It really helps to understand guys a little better, and I need that right now. So I might want to know more about what gets you off sometime in the future? And yes, I might tease you a little bit, but it's to hide that I'm a little turned on too?"
"Thanks, Megan. How about this, to keep the score even? I'll tell you what turns me on about this video, or
maybe
some other video in the future, but you have to do the same? Full disclosure?"
"That's fair. But I might not get turned on by a girl jilling herself off."
"As long as you're completely honest, I'm good."