This real life experience happened to me three years ago. At that time I had just started working in a shoe-making factory in Tamilnadu, as an accountant. I was twenty-four, unmarried, and had no experience in matters of sex, whatsoever. I mean, I used to think about having sex and I used to masturbate. But I had never had any real experience with a woman. For one thing, I was shy. Another, I abhorred the very thought of having sex with a prostitute. But sexual desire in me was there in plenty. I was masturbating almost every night, and I was also wondering if that was affecting my health adversely.
I was a friendly guy at my workplace. Everyone liked me because I had a good sense of humor. I was from Kerala and I was not able to speak Tamil well. But I was picking up fast. There was one other malayalee in our company, a boy of nineteen named Shiju. He ran errands and did odd jobs. He was of a poor background. He was not a talkative person. And, even though we belonged to the same state, we were not friends in the real sense. We knew each other, that's all. From my side, I had never let him feel that I was keeping a distance from him because of our positions, me an accountant and him a mere labourer in the factory. The fact was that he was not friendly with anyone. He was an aloof sort of creature.
When Onam came I asked permission from my boss to go to Kerala. He was reluctant at first, since it was a new factory and work was going on in full swing, but seeing that I was already home-sick from being away from my hometown for a long time, he granted me a leave of five days.
So I got ready to go to Palakkad, the district to which I belonged. I was to leave by the six o'clock bus in the evening and catch the Trivandrum mail at Katpadi railway station in the middle of the night.
While I was hurriedly doing the packing, Shiju came to my room. He too had asked for leave, but the boss had declined straight away.
"What is the matter, Shiju?" I asked. "Want me to bring you something?"
"No," he replied. But by the expression on his face I understood that he wanted something from me. It was usually money. He used to borrow small amounts from me when he had to urgently send money to his home.
He said now, "Will you do me a favor, sar?"
"Name it, Shiju," I said benevolently.
"Sar, if I had got this leave for Onam I was planning to bring my mother here."
"Your mother? Here? Why"
"Family problems, sar. Ever since my sister has got married my poor mother is not getting any peace of mind at home. She is not at all treated nicely. Her daughter and son-in-law want to drive her out of the house."
"Oh. But, Shiju, where will you keep her here? In your room? It is so small and you are sharing it with someone?"
"That person is about to move. And I am sure that we will manage, sar." He waited a few seconds. Then he said, "If sar don't mind, can my mother accompany you when you are coming back here? She is a village woman, sar, and has not seen much of the outside world."
I thought about it. I had no problem with that. "Where will she board the train?" I asked.
"At Palakkad Junction itself. I will convey the message to her through telephone that she is to meet you at the station."
"All right, Shiju."
So I went home for Onam and spent the festive occasion with my parents at their house. My elder sister and her family also came there. It was a nice experience. I forgot all about Shiju and his mother and remembered about them only when my leave was over and I was getting ready to go to Palakkad railway station.
I wondered then how I was going to recognize Shiju's amma. She should be about forty or forty-five, I thought. But how would I recognize her. Palakkad railway station is crowded most of the time.
But still, I was able to locate Shiju's amma without difficulty. Or, to be more exact, she spotted me.
Her daughter and son-in-law had come with her to see her off. They had together reached the railway station early in the evening, after a long bus-ride of three hours from their village. She had seen me standing on the platform and had pointed me out to the son-in-law, who had then come up to me and asked me whether I was Anandan Menon of the Duro Shoe Factory.
I asked Shiju's mother (her name was Padma) how she was able to recognize me.
"Shiju gave me a good description of you, sar?" She replied.
I looked at her and my very first thought was that she did not at all look like Shiju. Shiju was dark and lean. She was a fair-complexioned woman and looked healthy. She seemed to be around thirty-five, but she could have been older. Her skin had a healthy shine to it and perhaps that was making her look younger. I gently asked her not to call me 'sar'.
"Call me Nandu, Amma," I told her. "Everyone at my home calls me Nandu." At which she smiled, a good-natured smile. But she did not stop calling me 'sar', which I found somewhat embarrassing.
I noticed that all three of them were wearing sandalwood-paste marks on their forehead. "Oh, I see that you have been to the temple," I said. There was a small but famous temple close to the railway station. They all nodded with a smile.
A moment later, the daughter and son-in-law left the place without even saying a proper goodbye. I guessed that they were too eager to get rid of Padma. I noticed that she was hurt by their conduct, and she did her best to hide it from me.
We sat down on a bench and did not talk much. It started raining and the platform became a crowded place.
Our train came at nine. We boarded it in the general compartment and, though it was packed, we were lucky to find a place to sit. She was reluctant to sit next to me at first and I had to ask her a couple of times to take her seat before it was occupied by someone else. She sat down and fell asleep very quickly, unknowingly resting her head on my shoulder. Maybe the bus journey in the evening had been very tiring.
I was afraid of sleeping because we would reach Katpadi somewhere in the middle of the night or in the early morning. And I did not want to miss that. I had to positively reach my workplace the next day. So I tried my best to keep awake. But I dozed off after a while and woke up only when someone cried out that the train had reached Katpadi.
I hurriedly woke up Shiju's amma and we got down just in time.
I looked at my watch. It was five o'clock in the morning. The train was a bit late. We started to go out of the station. I was hoping to find a taxi outside. Buses would not start running until it was eight.
Imagine my dismay when I learnt from the station-master that there would be no taxi or buses plying that day because of a twenty-four hours Tamil Nadu bandh called by a political party in the wake of some communal riots in certain parts!
"Tell me, is there no way we can find a taxi?" I asked him.
"Not even if the gods ask," he replied with a smile. I thought about it. It was a four-hour bus journey from Katpadi to my place of work. So walking that long distance was simply out of question.
"What shall we do, sar?" Shiju's mother asked me gently in a concerned voice.
"Don't worry, amma. We will find a way."
I asked the station-master if we could stay in the waiting-room of the station until the bandh was over. He told me that we could, but that it was not at all safe so he would not recommend it. Then I asked him if there was a lodge nearby. He aid that there was one. But he was afraid that it would not contain any vacant rooms. The bandh had been a surprise for many people who had got down at that station.
Anyway, I and Shiju's mother went to this lodge, a dilapidated two-storey building and met the person who worked as the receptionist. And he said that there was just one room vacant, but it was too small for two people to stay.
"There is no bigger room?" I asked. He shook his head.
He said, "But you both will be able to adjust, since you are only mother and son. It is better for you to take it, sar, since it is the last. Today everything will be shutdown and no vehicles will run. It is better to stay indoors today."
I and Padma exchanged smiles when the receptionist called us mother and son.
I took the room. The was no other option but to take it. The receptionist gave me the key and directed us to go up a narrow flight of stairs, to the very end of a dark corridor having a row of tiny rooms. Room No.69.
Before we went to our room I used the telephone at the reception desk to call my boss and tell him about the situation. He was sympathetic and told me that he was aware of the bandh and since it was an unforeseen event he could extend my leave for one more day.
The room was no bigger than a bathroom. Infact, it was so small that it could have been easily istaken for a cupboard. Somehow a tiny bed had been squeezed into it. It had a small mirror on the wall and a tiny window with a single shutter. There was a dirty-looking wash-basin fitted under the mirror.
I looked at the room and wondered how we were going to adjust there. Shiju's mother read my thoughts and she suddenly suggested that she could stay out in the corridor since it would be difficult for both of us to adjust in that tiny room.
In the corridor? I quickly smiled and said that there was no need of doing that, that it was alright, that somehow we should be able to manage.
We put our things under the bed.
The room did not obviously have an attached toilet or bathroom. We would have to use the combined toilets and bathrooms at the other end of the corridor.