* So after much deliberation, here is the next installment. This is the first piece that I have written with the help of an Editor and I found his help incredibly inspiring. I hope you do too! Thanks E - this one's for you *
So the proverbial ball was in my court.
Jake was waiting for me to make the first move in our little game of whatever it was we were doing and, if you can excuse the tennis analogy I felt like a novice stepping out onto Centre Court at Wimbledon.
The idea of seducing him made me terrified and euphoric in equal measure, finally I had an opportunity to become the seductress I'd always fantasised I could be yet I was essentially clueless on how to actually do it. I knew that Jake would come up with amazing ways to turn me on but the reality was almost paralyzing. I had no idea how turn a man on, my ex-fiancΓ© was a wham bam kind of guy so other than taking my bra off I hadn't really needed to do anything.
Flopping onto my bed, I thought of all the erotica I had read, mostly after my ex had fallen asleep and was snoring away beside me. Believe me, I read a lot! I ran through the stories in my head and systematically checked them off my list as being either unsuitable for my purposes or just not my cup of tea.
I wanted to make Jake feel amazing but had no clue where to start. Normally I'd talk to Rosie, but asking for sex tips to seduce her brother seemed like a bad idea, even considering how desperate I was, literally and figuratively. Glancing at my watch and realising I was going to be late for work, I reluctantly got up and grabbed my Kindle for a little research.
Turns out reading erotica on a packed Piccadilly line train when you are already horny is a bad idea. Never had I felt this level of intense need. Sure, I'd read about it and listened as my friends waxed lyrical about their amazing sex lives but I honestly thought it was either fiction or bragging.
Now I understood what honest to god sexual desire felt like. All I wanted to do was get Jake naked and feel his cock deep inside of me, relieving the tension coiling through my body. Hell, right now I'd settle for 5 minutes in a toilet stall, with my hands in my knickers. Neither option was viable however, at least not at 8.45 on a Tuesday morning so I tried to clear the fog of lust from my brain and went to work.
Thankfully, my day was busy enough that I didn't have time to dwell on my lack of seduction. Working in a department store, Handbags and Accessories if you must know, means that there is always something to do. As Assistant Department Manager I have to manage my time between paperwork and being the happy face of customer service. My team is mostly made up of older ladies so whilst we chat about mundane subjects like the weather and their grandchildren, hot tips to spice up your sex life are off the menu.
As the clock struck 11, I dashed to the Ladies and phoned my university roommate friend Sophia. She managed an extremely high end lingerie store in Soho and knew exactly how to get a man's attention.
Dialling her number, I said a silent prayer, took a deep breath and asked her how things were going.
"I do love new stock day Sammie! Absolutely the best part of my working week! You have to see it, it's all so gorgeous. Silks, satins. Lots of corsetry, all with proper boning. Makes a woman feel like a vixen even if it hurts! This is underwear made for seduction. Takes about an hour to put on and longer to take off with all of the hooks and eyes but man, he'll be as hard as a rock when he sees you in it!"
I felt myself blush as Sophia described the pieces, each one seemingly more sumptuous than the last. It probably cost a fortune but I was going to go and have a look anyway, imagining Jake as hard as granite as I showed him.
Oh boy, I'd make him sit on the bed as I dropped my robe, unveiling my body wrapped in a raspberry satin corset with lace edging and the matching thong. His eyes would widen and he'd groan and even in the dim light from the bedside lamp I'd be able to see his cock harden through his trousers. As his breathing deepened I'd run my fingers up the bodice and peel back the lace edged cups to bare my hard nipples to his gaze. He'd reach for me but I'd tease him as I teased myself, sliding my hand down to my satin covered pussy, now slick with my arousal as I stroked my nipple. Then I'd...
"Of course, as sexy as really good lingerie is, all a man really wants is for a woman to get naked for him. He doesn't care how much it costs or how good we look in it, he just wants to see it on the floor. It's sad really but men are idiots. Women buy lingerie for themselves, it makes them feel sexy but honestly does nothing for him at all!"
Right there, my erotic fantasy dashed. I couldn't help myself I had to ask. Other than Rosie, Sophia was the closest friend I had and having seen her in action, I knew she'd be able to give me a pointer or three.
"Nothing!? Men get nothing out of the sexy lingerie look at all?"
"Oh they get a stiffy just from looking but all they really want to do is get the damn stuff off you and see you naked. It's all just one big tease to him!"
Taking a deep breath I threw myself into unchartered waters,
"What if I wanted to tease a man? Draw it out? What would you suggest I do to get a guy really excited? Hypothetically of course!"
Radio silence greeted me and I held my breath.
"Hypothetically? Shit girl, you're getting back on the horse! About fucking time! Here I am bleating on about crotchless panties and you want to know how to get a man to strip you of yours! Hell, Sammie, you are too cute for your own good! Any man would walk over hot coals to get a shot with you and you don't see it. I could fucking kill that dick you were engaged to!"
I laughed, this wasn't the first time she'd said this and I suspected one word from me and Richard would be in the Emergency Room but right now my focus was on Jake and what I could do to blow his mind.
"There is a guy Soph, but you know me, I get scared and shy and... I don't want to ruin this. I need you to teach me how to be more like you!"
"Honey! You are perfect as you are! You be you and I'll be me. That's the first rule. If you try to be someone you're not, it'll just end up getting super weird. Maybe down the line you can try being me but that'll involve spanking and butt plugs and love eggs!"
I snorted and she laughed at me,
"Okay girlie, you came to the right place. Later you and I are going to check out super sexy lingerie but first I'm going to give you a master class in seduction! Use what you want to, but it's all satisfaction guaranteed. I hope you're paying attention..."
The tube ride home was torture. Sophia's advice was worthy of an AVN award but she'd given me confidence. Maybe too much but if I didn't try I would never know.
Entering the flat I was grateful to find myself alone. Rosie always came back at about 8 and we ate dinner before doing our own thing. As usual, she and I chatted about our days and I had to bite my cheek to avoid blurting out anything about Jake. She casually mentioned he was going out for drinks after work and I nodded, aiming for nonchalance but secretly praying he'd come home alone. Pleading a headache, I avoided a TOWIE marathon and was safely in bed when I heard the front door close and the sounds of Jake settling in for the night.
I checked the clock and watched as the hands clicked by, straining my ears to hear his movements. Rosie was fast asleep, her soft snores audible over the pounding of my heartbeat and I heard the creak of Jake's bed as he settled in for the night. Had he wanted to check in on me? Would he want me to do what I was about to attempt?
Before I could lose my nerve, I leapt into action and picked up my little bag of tricks before I exhaled deeply and snuck into his room.
"Sammie?"
Grinning I moved closer to the bed,
"Who else were you expecting Jake?"
"No-one! I just wanted to make sure I wasn't dreaming this."
"Definitely not a dream Jake, more like a fantasy."
I saw the gleam of his teeth as he reached for the lamp,
"No lights Jake. Not this time."
"But I want to see you Sammie, I want to see all of you."
"This is my fantasy Jake and you don't get to see anything."
"Oh really!"
I smiled into the darkness as I opened the small bag and pulled the sleep mask over his eyes, running my fingers over his face. He moaned as I traced the fullness of his lips and I bent to give him the briefest whisper of a kiss. He surged forward, his tongue ready to dance with mine but I pushed him back down into the pillows.
"Really! If we are going to do this Jake, and I really hope we do, you have to let me do it my way."
He grinned, his teeth a stark contrast in the darkness and I exhaled, grateful that this gorgeous man was willing to let me take control.
"Whatever you want to do Sammie, I'm just elated you want to do it with me."
I bent and licked his bottom lip,
"With you. To you. For you."
He huffed and I could already see the sheet stirring over his cock. Maybe I could do this after all. Sophia's words flooded my brain but as I looked down at Jake, I suddenly felt the fear leave me, my nerves gone I felt nothing but heat.
"You can't try to touch me Jake."
He groaned and I saw his head move from side to side,