You are a bundle of emotions. It's crazy, it's insane. I'm on my way over, It's quite late, and you are alone. You're nervous, frustrated, and more than a little excited. Nervous because you haven't seen me in years. Frustrated because I'm a little late. And excited? Well, excited because of what we have planned. You pace back and forth before sitting down in a feeble attempt to calm yourself. And forget about butterflies; there's an entire marching band stomping around in your stomach.
Your doorbell rings.
The shock of it drags the moment to a standstill. Your heart jumps out of your chest, only to slam right back in, and drop into your stomach to play timpani in the drum line. You stare at the door. Caught in the stillness of the moment, you stand up, and walk slowly to the door. You reach out and grab the handle, surprised at how cold it is. Why is it so cold? You realize you're distracting yourself. It's crazy. I'm right there, on the other side of that door. Just waiting. Insane. You open the door.
I look up at you, and our eyes catch. We exchange nervous smiles. It's scary, really. That pull is still there after all these years. After a moment, you break the silence.
"Hey." Your voice rings like bells in our private little emotionally charged silence.
"Hey." My voice is soft, it feels good to hear it. We smile sheepishly at one another for another few seconds.
"You wanna come in?"
"Of course I do." As I step in through the doorway we hug. No, that's not the right word. It is an embrace in the truest sense. There is an instant familiarity to it, an understanding, reassuring comfort that could only exist with a history like ours. After a little while we release one another, if reluctantly.
"Do you want some wine? I got us some wine." You ask quietly. It's a white wine you haven't tried it before, but we're no connoisseurs.
"Sounds lovely." I follow you back into your kitchen, smiling appraisingly at the home you've made. You fill two glasses generously. We each take a deep drink before drift to your living room. We settle on your couch, turned towards one another and leaning on the cushions. We kiss again gently before another drink. Finally, we look into one anothers eyes again... And that's it.
With such thin ice broken, we begin talking excitedly. Often both at once. About this and that, nothing of import, just a desire to hear and share our lives with one another. Interspersed amidst the minutia, we begin to reveal the moments that have shaped who we are now. As our glasses empty, we slowly grow quiet again. You make a quick, terrifying decision, and with no warning, lean in and kiss me.
It is a shock. Alien and strange one moment, perfect and familiar the next. Slowly, you pull away. We lock eyes, and I lean in and kiss you this time. There is an undeniable energy to it that drives us forward. Suddenly our hands are exploring one another's body. As you push on top of me, my hands slide from your thighs, to your ass, and up the small of your back, pulling you closer to me. You wrap your arms around my neck and head, pulling us tighter.