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Tony sat on her balcony and cried. It wasn't a hysterical type of cry with screaming and hollering. It was a quiet sob she finally allowed herself to release. For two days she'd held in all of her emotion in the hopes of keeping some type of structure for her son. However, today proved too difficult for the strong willed woman and while her son slept in his crib, Tony allowed the tears to flow down her face.
Just as her emotional levies were about to crumble Tony heard the alarm beep as her front door opened. She knew it could only be him. Only he had timing like this. It was typical of Kenny to rob her of any relief she sought. Despite having slightly swollen eyes and a runny nose from her tears, Tony tried her best to clean up her face not wanting Kenny to know he had upset her. She didn't want to give him the satisfaction of knowing how much he hurt her; how much power he had over her emotions.
"Babe?" Kenny called out as he walked into the entryway.
The hairs on the back of Tony's neck stood tall when he called her that. She couldn't believe he had the nerve to call her something affectionate as "Babe" after all he had put her through. She went from sad and crying to mad in a flash.
"Hey? Didn't you hear me calling you?" Kenny asked approaching the balcony just as Tony wiped her last tear.
"No," Tony replied not looking at him. Instead she stared off the balcony wishing she was anywhere but there.
"Is this how it's going to be?"
Tony ignored him relying on her anger to get through this moment without caving in. Tony always swore her biggest mistake ever was having sex with Kenny. Their first night together and subsequent love making thereafter had Tony hooked. Kenny had always been able to make up for whatever bad thing he'd done by seducing her into bed. She gathered her courage and attempted to be as strong as she could be. She had to fight the urge to fall into his arms despite how tempting it was to do otherwise.
"I don't want it to be like this between us," Kenny stated, putting his hand on her shoulder.
"It's not up to you how things are between us anymore," Tony said, shrugging his hand off her shoulder.
"What is wrong with you?" Kenny grabbed Tony by her shoulders as she tried to walk past him back into the house.
"What is right with you!" she shot back staring into his eyes. "Take your hands off me!" She broke eye contact and pulled away from him.
"Tony!" Kenny shouted.
"Do not wake up KJ!" Tony half whispered, walking back towards Kenny but not close enough for him to grab her again, even though he tried. "Why don't you just pack your things and leave? Just leave us alone! Don't you think you've done enough damage?"
"You're going to let something little like this destroy our marriage?"
"Little? Something little? Did you really mean to say that?" Tony asked dumbfounded.
"It's not mine so yes Tony it is something little. Why are you going to let that come between us?" Kenny asked.
Tony started to raise her voice then remembered KJ sleeping in the next room. "I didn't let anything happen, you did! You did the fucking! You did the cheating! Now you have another kid! I was not present for any of those things so none of this is on me Kenny."
She tried her best to choke back the tears, determined not to let Kenny see her cry. It made her so angry to see Kenny think so little of her and their marriage as to call this catastrophe 'something little'. Just looking at Kenny made Tony's heart break into a million pieces. The mere sound of his voice, the scent of his cologne, and the way he kept reaching out for her, all made her sick to her stomach. She wanted all the hurt to just stop. Having him around was only a reminder of the pain.
"Please Kenny, I'm begging you. Just leave. I don't have it in me to fight with you today," Tony tried to brush her bangs out her eyes. She was so frustrated with everything around her.
"You don't even want my side of the story? What I want doesn't even matter?"
"I can't believe your selfish, egotistical ass has the nerve to lecture me on your wants and needs," Tony said, walking into their master bedroom and to the closet.
"What are you doing?"
"I'm packing your things. You have until I'm done to state your case if that's what you want. We can do this in complete silence too, I know that's my preference," Tony stated flatly, pulling out a suitcase from the closet.
"OK, I fucked up. But I know the kid isn't mine! I only did it that one time!" Kenny exclaimed.
Kenny's comment caused Tony to stop cold. "Only did it the one time?" Tony threw a pair of socks at Kenny who dodged it, which only infuriated Tony more. She lifted the suitcase as if she were going to throw that at him next but changed her mind. Resorting to his juvenile behavior wouldn't the right thing to do, but it would definitely make her feel better.
"Well gold star for Kenny! You were able to restrain yourself and only sleep with her one time! You only fucked her once so you deserve the husband of the year award right? Fuck this and fuck you Kenny! You're out of here!"
Kenny tried cleaning up his statement a little. "What did you want to hear? I told you, I'd take care of all of this. Making me move out isn't even necessary."
"You slept with another woman Kenny. Not only did you cheat on me, you did it when I was carrying your son! Oh, but I keep forgetting – it's something little," she said as sarcastically as she possibly could.
"I said I fucked up. I admit that I was wrong. What else do you want from me?"
"Is that some sort of apology? If that's the best you can do you can keep it because I don't want a fake ass apology like that. You didn't just fuck up! You fucked me and your son. You ruined our marriage and our family all for a piece of ass. You can have that piece of ass and that girl and that baby because I don't want you. I can't trust you. I have no idea how many other times you've stepped out on me. You put our whole family in danger. You could have brought any type of disease home to me since you want to dip your dick into anything willing. So saying you fucked up doesn't begin to touch what you've done nor does it serve as an apology." Tony was stuffing boxers, socks and t-shirts into the suitcase in any way they would fit.
Kenny walked over to Tony and in his best sweet talking voice said, "Please don't act like this baby. You know I love you and our son."
"Get back Kenny! Stay away from me. You're trying to trick me into forgiving you and it won't work. You didn't just forget to pick me up or leave dirty dishes in the sink. You cheated on me. You broke my heart don't you see that?"
"Yes, I see how much I've hurt you. Please don't cry."
Tony was so upset she never even felt the tears fall from her eyes down her cheeks. She didn't realize she was crying until she put her hand to her face and felt the wetness.
"Dammit!" Tony cried out and fell to the floor.
Kenny bent down and knelt beside her. He tried his best to hold her but Tony fought him. Again, her pain turned to anger and she fought hard to keep her anger, to stand her ground. Tony punched wildly at Kenny, not necessarily trying to hurt him or push him off her, but as an automatic defense mechanism. Of course in her heart she wanted to snuggle in his arms and forget all that had happened. But the pain from all he'd done to her rose above her wants and instead she fought him. Wrestling on the ground Kenny grabbed both of her arms and wrapped his legs around hers to keep her wild punches and kicks from actually landing on him.
"Stop girl!" Kenny tried to restrain Tony without hurting her.
"Why?" Tony cried out. "Why?"
"I love you T," Kenny professed.
"You love me so much you cheated on me? You think you know what love is but you don't have a clue. You take love for granted. You use love as a pawn in your game to get what you want. You don't know what love truly is. Love is me giving my life to you. It is me giving my mind and my body to you. Instead, you threw all that away. And for what? How could you hurt me like this? I would have died for you Kenny."
It was her last statement that caused Kenny to release the wrestling hold he had on Tony. He couldn't respond because he didn't have a valid explanation for his actions. Holding her, trying to force her to see that he meant no harm, wasn't going to help the situation.
"I'm not leaving Tony. You think I don't love you but I do, love my son too and I don't think I could survive without the two of you."
Tony doubled over in pain. Her stomach ached from the disappointment she had in Kenny and herself. When she told Kenny that she would have died for him that was just the surface. There was no limit to the things she'd do for Kenny. To provide for her man she had done things she was not proud of but she did them regardless in the name of love. She'd gone to hell and back for him and had long since proved her allegiance to him. It literally ate at her to believe that he had such little regard for her loyalty for him.
"Are you ok?" Kenny asked as he walked into their bathroom.
"Just leave me alone," Tony managed to get out as she tried to breath through the pain.
She winced in pain, shutting her eyes tight. A few deep breaths and moments of massaging her stomach and she regained her composure. Tony opened her eyes and leaned back against the bed ready to confront Kenny but he had left the room. She walked into the living room where she found him sitting on the couch waiting for her.
Instead of walking to him, she headed for the kitchen and pretended to straighten up the room. She came across the papers. The court papers which had started spiraling her life out of control. Tony found it amazing how a six page document could turn a person's world upside down and inside out. It had been addressed to Kenny but since he wasn't at home when the document server knocked on the door, Tony just opened it never imagining for an instant what the contents held. The child support order called for Kenny to pay back child support on a female child born two months after KJ. To Tony it seemed as though the papers kept calling her to look at them. To relive the pain by seeing in print what he had done to her family and her life.
"What are you reading?" Kenny asked, snapping Tony back to reality.
