Copyright 1998 Del Edwards (a nom de plume)
Robyn was a bit of a hardware freak, as it turned out. That's unusual for a woman. Most people are fascinated with a cop's gun and are sort of ho-hum about the handcuffs. She had asked why I was only carrying one. I pulled the cuffs out of the waistband of my trousers at my left hip to show her the other cuff was on the inside. And her keen interest in the little executive knife that I sometimes used to touch up my nails while I was standing at the bus stop with her didn't register as anything special. She said it was 'cute' when I used the tiny scissors to trim a dangling thread on a button of her sweater. I never put all those glances together until after our single rendezvous just before she left for some African state with her husband who just graduated from an international management school in the city. She had a job at the capitol and was putting him through school.
I liked the way she looked in her clothes but I mentally undressed her several times each day, standing, sitting and walking ahead of me on the bus. Some guys would call her skinny and flat chested. I saw her as elegantly slim and small breasted.
There was probably fifteen years difference in our ages. At first I thought the casual questions were just conversation starters. Stuff about police work... the excitement, the danger, was it like the cop shows on television? Then the questions got more personal... was I happy in my marriage after sixteen years? So bold a question on her part seemed to deserve an honest answer. No, I wasn't getting the respect, the affection or the sex I wanted from my wife, I told her. Seven seconds later she began to breathe again. My answer had shocked her. We weren't just bus stop acquaintances any more. She volunteered that in her short marriage things had gone flat between she and her husband. He spent long hours studying into the night. She yearned to be touched and held and be sexually exciting to a man. Her openness took me aback. The bus arrived and took away our privacy.
She took an empty seat and I settled into an empty seat directly across the aisle from her. My mind was racing and my heart was trying to get out of my chest through my throat. I saw her smile and then glance at me. Then she looked away and the smile was gone. It happened again... the smile and then her eyes were on me. Her hand moved to her throat and she slowly stroked her neck and let her hand move slowly down her body between her breasts and come to rest in her lap. I saw her shudder slightly and then watched the blush rise up her neck and spread across her face. She made an 'oh' shape with her mouth as she exhaled. Our eyes met again.
There would be no opportunity for us to speak again privately until the next morning. The afternoon bus stop downtown was always crowded and the bus even more crowded, sometimes standing room only by the time it got to our stop. More than a few times we stood in the aisle next to each other, my gaze on her proud little unbridled breasts under her dress or blouse. Sometimes she would watch me look at her and I was afraid she knew I lusted for her
Our intimate exchange that morning kept flying into my mind all day long. Suddenly it occurred to me that since we both got off the bus at the same stop in the evening there would be an opportunity to speak to her alone again that day. The ride home that evening was the longest and slowest I had ever experienced. Robyn stepped off the bus just ahead of me, took a couple of steps and turned to face me. "I'll be leaving the country with my husband in a couple of weeks," she announced. "Think about it. Think about how we could be together just once and then never see each other again," she added.
"I've thought about it a couple hundred times since this morning," I told her.
"Good. We'll talk more in the morning," she replied.
She was already at the bus stop when I crossed the street to join her the next morning. "I like the way you look at me," she said. "You appreciate me and you've already got me down to wearing nothing but heels and hose, don't you?" she said as she rocked forward and back slightly, a curious smile touching her lips.
"Yes. You set me on fire woman," I breathed. I took a half step backwards to help me resist the urge to take her in my arms and kiss her right then and there.
"I want to exchange oral sex with you," she croaked. "Once and then we never speak to each other again."
"When?" I asked.
"Tomorrow morning. My place," she responded. "We'll take a later bus afterward and sit apart and never speak to each other again," she insisted. "Do you promise that it will be that way?"
"I promise," I said.