Regaining My Life

Chapter 1 -- The Party Invitation

A note to the reader, this is my first submission on Literotica. Thank you to SissyKaty, s0rethr0at, and DyannBridges for their comments and editing work. These editors greatly improved this story. This was originally a one off story, but I have extended the story for several chapters. All characters and situations are complete fiction, a product of my fertile imagination. Any similarity to actual people and situations is purely a coincidence. All constructive criticism is welcome.

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Two years ago, my wife passed away. Processing the grief has been difficult because it has forced me to reconcile with my new identity as a widower. Supportive friends, neighbors, and colleagues have tried to help get me out of the house and away from the memories. Asking me to join their social events like fundraisers, parties, and cookouts have been great gestures but, I have yet to accept. I don't feel that I am quite ready for that much socializing, so I stay home and curl up with a good book.

It was a little past six on a warm Friday evening in mid-August. Dinner and the cleanup were complete. I settled down in one of the rocking chairs on my porch with my well-worn copy of

The Fellowship of the Ring

. The sun was just beginning to set behind one of the large maples on the west side of my property. About an hour and a half of filtered sunlight remained to enjoy the evening breezes and read about Frodo's adventures in Middle Earth. There was a horn toot on the road, and I looked up to see Christina Ashby's blue hybrid turning into the drive.

I need to brief the reader on my relationship with Chris. First, we are both professors at the local college. Although she is 20 years my junior, she is one of my closest and dearest friends. Our friendship goes back eight years to when she first arrived at the college. Since neither her family, nor mine is close by, we have tended to look out for one another. For example, when Chris and her husband Jack came down with the flu, my wife Rosalind and I took them food, went to the pharmacy, and helped nurse them back to health. When Roz was sick, Chris brought me meals and tidied up around my house. She spent hours with me at Hospice House and was at my side when Rosalind passed away. Chris and Jack have continued to look out for me since. I have been a frequent dinner guest, they brought me into their home for the holidays, and Chris has come by regularly to check up on me. I was pretty sure that that's what this was -- a wellness check.

My relationship with Chris has also been flirtatious, but completely platonic. Whenever I am having a conversation with her, we lock into some serious eye contact, not a couple of seconds, but rather several minutes at a time. I get lost in her brown eyes. It's as if we undergo a mind meld and I can't look away.

Chris is also into exercise, 5Ks are her preferred poison, but she is also an avid hiker. While motherhood added a pound or two to her short, muscular frame, she is in excellent shape. Her breasts are a B-cup or so and she has a firm, toned butt. Her curvy hips complete the look of her attractive figure. She is a stylish dresser and exceptionally modest. I have never seen more than a bare shoulder or calf.

I heard her car door slam, and she soon came into view, rounding the front of the house.

"Hey, old man. Aren't you going to Tina's party?"

"I wasn't planning on it."

"Well, I'm here to change your mind."

Chris was wearing a knee length, light blue sundress with yellow flats. There was a touch of grey in her brown hair, and it didn't appear that she wore any makeup. She didn't need any. She walked around and climbed the porch steps. I stood and she gave me a nice hug. She's at least a foot shorter than I am, and I could feel her breasts press into my abdomen as she squeezed me tight. I returned the pressure. I gave her a fatherly kiss on the top of her head, smelling some type of herbal shampoo.

I said, "Wow, human contact."

"Have you lost some weight? You look great."

"A couple of pounds." I held her out at arm's length, "You are simply gorgeous."

She gave me another tight hug. We just stood there for a few moments holding each other. I was savoring her friendship. Finally, we eased off. I motioned to the other rocker and we both sat down.

Chris reached over, took my hand, and squeezed it, "How have you been? I've hardly seen you this summer."

She didn't take her hand away and I felt like a teenager again, holding hands with the girl next door. This simple human contact had my heart racing. I looked into her brown eyes and was lost. I was tempted to catch a glimpse of her breasts, but her eyes were bewitching.

I said, "Been staying busy with the garden and repairing a spot on the back of the outbuilding. I'll send you home with some veggies. Mostly just relaxing and doing a lot of reading. How about you?"

She pointed at my book, "I love

Lord of the Rings

. Well, we went out west right after school let out and saw my folks. Been doing a lot of writing. Getting ready to send Jackie off to kindergarten next month."

"Wow! Kindergarten already. Time flies huh?"

"He's growing like a weed. So, are you going to come to Tina's party with me?"

"Look at me Chris. I'm all sweaty and dirty."

"Nothing a little soap and water won't take care of. When was the last time you went out? Socially, I mean."

"Your house for Christmas dinner, I think."

"Are you kidding me? Quinn, you must come with me. I need a date besides."

"How about Jack?"

Chris looked away. Something was wrong. Her jaw clenched and started quivering. When her eyes returned to mine, they were brimming with tears. "Jack is a shit."

"What's the matter?"

Tears started rolling down her cheeks. I reached into my pocket and handed her my handkerchief. "It's clean."

"My dad always has a handkerchief too. Can we walk?"

"Sure."

We both stood. Chris led me down the steps and waited at the bottom. She held out her hand and I took it. We started slowly strolling down towards my garden and my small meadow. It took her a moment to start.

"He is an absolute fucker."

She didn't look at me, her gaze fixed firmly on the ground ahead. Tears were flowing steadily now. She wiped her face every thirty seconds or so. I also need to tell the reader that Chris rarely uses profanity. The only time she's dropped an f-bomb was when she was really pissed off.

Marriage counseling is not something I would ever attempt, but I remember Roz used to ask me to just listen and not try and fix things. I said, "You can tell me as little or as much as you want. You are one of my dearest friends and have seen me through some rough times. The roughest times." I squeezed her hand this time. "The least I can do is be here for you."

Chris took a deep breath. "Jack and I have been fighting a lot. Two months ago he tried to hit me. He missed and I ran out of the house. I stayed with Zoë for a couple of days."

Zoë is our faculty colleague at the college. Chris and Zoë are thick as thieves and do everything together.

"We sort of came to a truce for Jackie's sake, but I haven't slept in our bed since. I use the guest room and lock the door. Jack is being a complete asshole. He acts like he's the only one with a full time job." I could see the anger rising. "I'm a fucking full-time college professor and he doesn't lift a goddamn finger around the house. I have to do everything for Jackie. And then."

She stopped walking. Sobs started to wrack her body and she put her hands to her face. I pulled her to me and she buried her face in my dirty work shirt. I just held her as the tears flowed, shoulders heaving. I gave her another kiss on the top of her head. I petted her hair, trying to sooth her somehow. It took a while, but the sobbing eased.

Then her face turned from sadness to madness, "The son of a bitch didn't come home on Wednesday. I didn't see him until he came home from work yesterday. He said he was out with his buddies all night. Horseshit he was out with his buddies. He was out fucking someone. When he went to work I checked his laundry. There were cum stains on his briefs and they smelled like someone's cunt. Sorry, I hate that word, but that what she is -- a cunt. He's a cunt too. I don't know who she is, but she's a cunt. The two of them have fucking destroyed my fucking marriage."

She wiped her face one more time and handed back my handkerchief. "Sorry, it's all wet." She turned away from me and stood with her hands on her hips, her head thrown back, looking up at the sky. She was taking deep breaths trying to calm herself. I wasn't sure what to do, so I didn't do anything for a minute or two. Finally, I went over and I put my hands on her shoulders. She brought her hand up to mine. She turned, took my hand and lightly kissed it. We were standing on the far side of my property at the edge of a maple grove. The sun was angling across the meadow. The sun turned her hair to a golden brown. Her sad eyes gazed into mine. Still holding my hand, we started moving back toward the house.

When we got to the porch stairs, I let her precede me. On the first step she turned around and hugged me again. Of course, I reciprocated and held her tight. With the added height, her face was much closer to mine. She leaned back, but kept her arms around my neck.

"Sorry for venting on you. It was really good to get all that off my chest. I've told Zoë a little, but it was good to tell you." Her right hand came up and cupped my cheek. "You really are a dear friend."

Then she kissed me ever so lightly with those beautiful lips. It was unexpected and took my breath away. Electricity coursed through my body. I felt my cock stir slightly.

I must have had a shocked look on my face because Chris suddenly looked concerned, "I'm sorry I was so forward. That was completely inappropriate, but you're so good to me."

I shook my head, "No. That was fine. I always dreamed what it would be like to kiss you. Now I know."

She put her hand to the side of my face again and lightly kissed me again. "So, now you know why I need a date to go to Tina's party. Will you go with me?"

She put her arms around my neck again. My hands were on her hips. Looking into her eyes I said, "Chris, I don't think I'm ready."

"What's there to be ready for? You are a handsome, available bachelor who needs to get out and meet some members of the opposite sex."

"But I'm really a widower whose heart is still mending. That's a lot of socializing. I'm just happy being here with you."

She kissed the tip of my nose. "You are sweet, but I worry about you. Please come with me to the party. I promise you we'll have a nice time and I'll have you home before you turn into a pumpkin." She placed both hands on either side of my face. "For me?"

I said, "Not fair. Christina, you know I would do anything for you."

"Then that settles it." She gave me a final little kiss.

"OK, I'll go, but can we just sit here a while? It's nice just being with you. Just you."

Chris turned, climbed the stairs, and we returned to the rockers. She took my hand again, looking over the yard. I could feel her relaxing, the anger subsiding. I looked at Chris and her eyes were closed. She looked peaceful, which made me feel better. I stole a glance at her breasts hidden under the sundress, was that a nipple? I returned to her lovely face. I couldn't take my eyes off her, she simply enchanted me.

She brought the back of my hand to her lips and kissed it, "Thank you my friend." She opened her eyes. "You have no idea what it means to have someone like you, someone who listens."

Chris looked out across the lawn. She rocked back and forth just a little in the rocker. After a couple of moments she said, "This is such a nice place. I know why you love it here. Quiet. Private. Gorgeous view."

I was still looking at her and said, "I love the view."

She looked at me, realized my meaning, smiled, and slapped my hand, "You need to get ready."

"Aye aye ma'am," I said invoking my naval training.

"Need me to help?"

"What are you going to do, scrub my back?" I asked sarcastically.

Her face lit up and with a broad smile, "Sure. I'll scrub your back." In hindsight, I think that little exchange opened a door.

I looked at her questioningly. Perhaps I was a little dense. "That might be hard. I have a claw foot tub with a shower."

"Well let me see."

I led the way as we climbed the stairs and I showed her the bathroom. "Claw foot tub. Not much room."

"Oh. I didn't expect that. Well, I don't want to get this wet."

She kicked off her yellow flats. Then with one quick motion, she reached down, grabbed the hem of her dress, and pulled it over her head. Christina stood before me completely naked. Looking back, I would have never thought she went commando. She was breathtakingly beautiful. I'm sure my jaw dropped. Her breasts were quite pert, with perfectly proportioned areolas surrounding semi-erect nipples. She had trimmed her pubes into the classic delta; I could see her labia through the short, brown hair. I just stared.

"Quinn McMullen, you act as if you've never seen a naked woman before."

"I have never seen you naked before. You are more beautiful than I ever imagined."

"Well, thank you, but I'm only scrubbing your back remember." There was a bit of a tease in her voice. She reached out and lifted my chin so she could look me in the eyes again. "My eyes are up here. You always look me in the eyes."

"I do. I love your eyes, but you have always been fully clothed."

"You're sweet, but we need to get you cleaned."

"Right." I struggled to regain control. First, I pulled back the shower curtain and started the hot water. Then I went to the towel drawer, "One towel or two?"

"One. I won't get my hair wet."

I took out a towel for each of us and placed them on the towel rack. I reached in and tested the water, bringing up the cold water a bit to adjust the temperature. I put my watch on the vanity, kicked off my shoes, and began taking off my shirt.

"Here let me help you," Chris said as she grabbed for my belt. I slowed the unbuttoning and looked down into her eyes. She had my belt undone, pants unbuttoned, and zipper down in no time. She hooked her fingers inside my waistband and dropped my trousers and skivvies in one quick move. My semi-erect penis popped up.

"Oh, nice," she said smiling. "I guess it has been a while since you've seen a naked woman. She stepped back and admired me, "That's a very nice package you have there, Dr. McMullen. I especially love your ginger pubes."

"You present an equally pleasing view, Dr. Ashby."

She stepped closer, put her arms around my neck, and looked up into my eyes, "Perhaps it would be a good idea if you kissed me. Really kissed me."

I put my hands around her and on to her naked bottom, then lowered my mouth to hers. I closed my eyes and gently touched her lips with mine. Electricity ran down my spine. She pulled my face downward. Her body pressed against mine and my now rigid cock pressed into her stomach. I felt her lips part and I extended my tongue to hers. I moved my hands to her back and pulled her tight. I have no idea how long we kissed for, but it was heavenly.

She broke the kiss, looked into my eyes, petted the side of my face, and whispered, "The water's running. We're supposed to be washing your back."

"Right." I didn't move, looking into her eyes. "Can we just stay like this for a moment?"

"We have a party to go to."

"Right," I said again, sounding like a broken record. I stepped out of my jeans and pulled off my socks. I turned on the overhead shower and stepped over the lip of the tub and in.

"You'll probably want to be on this side, so you don't get your hair wet." I extended my hand, helped her over the side, and then closed the shower curtain. "Here's the soap."

I grabbed the bottle of shampoo and put my head under the showerhead. My mind was in a whirl as Chris started soaping up my back.

"Am I getting you wet with this spray?" I asked.

"A little, but it's OK." She began washing my back. She started with my shoulders, kneading the muscles. It was more massage than scrub and it felt wonderful. I stopped for a moment, leaned my head back, and just stood under the shower, luxuriating while Chris' hands worked on my back.

She gently slapped my butt, "Back to work."

I rinsed my hair, as her hands moved to my butt cheeks.

"You have a very fine ass; do you know that?"

"I didn't, but thanks for the compliment. I think yours is quite shapely as well."

"Thanks, but it's flat and boney. It is firm though."

"Speaking of firm bottoms," I started to turn around with the intention of reaching for that flat, but firm ass.

She softly slapped my butt again, "Stay put. I'm not done." She was grabbing both cheeks and massaging them. She took the soap and slid it up and down my butt crack, then pushed it against my anus. Her finger traced down my soapy crack and stopped at my asshole, then started rubbing with a finger.

"That's not my back." Then I heard an involuntary sound come from my mouth as she slid her finger in up to the first digit. I had never had anyone's finger in my ass that wasn't a medical doctor. I bent forward and her finger went in further. She must have reached my prostate because I suddenly had the urge to pee. Another groan came forth. I have no idea what she was doing, but it was driving shivers up my spine.

"Very nice. We'll have to remember that." Chris said with a giggle as she slid her finger out of my ass, reaching around to lather my erection.

"Can I turn around now?"

"Yes, you may."

I obeyed.

"You have a wonderfully hairy chest."

Her hands started at my shoulders and lathered my chest, then one hand grabbed my cock. I started to reach up for her breasts. She blocked me with her hand, and she said, "I just showered. Remember, I'm here to help you get clean." Her smile was very mischievous.

"As one of my salty chiefs in the navy said, 'it's yours and you can wash it as fast as you want.'"

With that same smile she said, "This isn't sexual; I just want to help you get nice and clean. For the party."

"For the party. Says the beautiful, naked woman who just probed my ass and is now stoking my rock-hard penis. Of course, it isn't."

Chris smiled that naughty smile.

A note to the reader, in the manhood department I am only average. Average length, average thickness, and at the ripe old age of 60, I'm not a sexual dynamo. As a man gets older, the pelvic muscles aren't what they used to be. The result is that when I cum, it sort of dribbles out. Nevertheless, Chris had me as hard as a rock and was "cleaning" my cock with a nice stroking motion. This was probably the longest erection I had had in the past decade.

Looking into her eyes I asked, "Would you mind if I kissed you again?"

She raised her face, closed her eyes, and puckered slightly. I grabbed the shower curtain for balance, bent down, and kissed those soft lips again. Her free hand came up to the side of my face, her lips parted, and our tongues probed the warmth of each other's mouths. She stopped stroking me and just held my erection. Then she removed her hand from my face, grabbed my free hand, and placed it on her breast. Her nipples were stiff, and I moved my hand over her firm, wet mounds. I gently rolled her nipple between my fingers. Her body twitched involuntarily.

Chris broke the kiss enough to mumble into my mouth, "Are you clean enough?"

I shook my head. Her free hand returned to my face and continued kissing me, our hands fondling one another. Again, I have no idea how long we stood there in the shower enjoying one another. I was afraid to break the spell she had cast.