March rains fell hard, as I stood in front of my church. Preacher Ned was waiting for me. Out of desperation, I had called him, telling him that I needed to talk. With his smooth cultured voice, he told me to come by his office at church sometime late afternoon.
The cold rain soaked me to the bone. I purposefully stood there, letting it pelt me. I had become a blue flame that sweltered with every breath, leaving ash and cinder in its wake. But the driving rain did naught to quell the heat. I wish that I could have blamed it on my southern fire and brimstone Baptist blood. My flame was fevered, but not in a reverend way.
I hesitated at the church door, wondering if a bolt of lightning would strike me if I entered. I felt a sharp stab of fear shoot throw me. What if I was beyond salvation, cursed by God to live in this eternal private hell? I suddenly remembered Mrs. Brown and Mr. Dickens. Both had been fornicating with each other for over 20 years. The whole community knew about it, yet both of them sat proudly in church despite the fact that a huge red "A" hung around their necks.
Stepping over the threshold, I shivered. Long brown strands of hair clung to my neck like ropes. My red silk dress clung like a second skin to my supple body. My erect nipples pointed the way to the Preacher's office. I knocked timidly on the door. His booming voice bade me to enter. Taking a deep breath I did.
"Heavens to Betsy! Veta, you are soaked." He towered over me, as I stood before him in painted on silk, red as stolen passion. I was shaking from being wet and from the fire that burned coldly inside me.
Preacher Ned disappeared into his private bathroom. I was looking out the window, when he returned. A bolt of lightning struck a tree, when he placed a hot hand on my arm. I felt the electricity clinging in the air.
"Veta, here's a towel. What brings you out in a storm like this, dear child?" My green eyes fumed with a secret. I didn't take the towel he offered. I preferred the cold, because I felt at home with in. Wasn't ice so cold it could burn you? I imagine hell to be like that.