I follow you to our seats toward the back of the plane and hand you my carry on luggage to stow in the overhead bin. We settle into our cramped quarters and get comfortable, well, as comfortable as you can get in an airplane seat. There's a bit of bumping and shoulder knocking as we straighten seatbelts and get out our in-flight entertainment. For you, a book and for me, an ipod complete with a pair of gigantic headphones. Yes, I'm that person on the plane with the full size headphones. Then I focus on the air conditioning. I waste too much time and energy making sure the air is blowing on me at just the right angle and just the right intensity. Bemused, you watch me sit down and lean back, put my hand up to test the air and then reach up to adjust the settings at least five times.
"Comfortable?" you ask with a wry smile.
"Almost," I grin, "Give me a sec and it will be perfect."
Shaking your head, you pull out a book and start to read and I put on my headphones, turn on my music and watch the hustle bustle of travelers going about their preflight routines. Leaning over, I nip your neck and suck gently. Flicking my tongue in the indentation behind your ear I lick slowly, suck, nibble and then blow warm, wet breath while my tongue taps against your skin. I can feel goosebumps rising on your arm below my fingers. Air hisses between your teeth as you inhale and your fingers intertwine tightly with mine. "More," you exhale slowly.
"More what, lover?" I tease while tracing your ear with my tongue. A low growl escapes from your throat. "Hmmm, baby? What was that you said?" I murmur.
"Tease." you whisper behind clenched teeth.
Even though I know you can't see, I bat my eyes demurely and gasp in mock indignation (in a very passable Southern accent, by the way) "Why, what ever you mean, lover?" Reaching over with my other hand, I stroke my fingers rhythmically against the back of your hand in time with the tap, tap, tapping of my tongue on your skin.
You turn your head to look into my eyes, "I mean you're a tease...a good one, but still a tease. We both know this isn't going anywhere today." You turn back and lean your head against the headrest.
"What does that mean?" I sputter, pulling back to glare at your profile.
Without opening your eyes, you say, "You and I both know you'll be asleep, pressed against that window in about five minutes flat. But go ahead do your teasing...thing." Opening one eye you glance down at your watch, "You have about four and a half minutes." Then you close your eye again.
I'm almost stunned to silence. Almost. "What makes you so sure I'm not going to follow through?" I whisper tartly.
You smile, eyes still closed, "Dear, how many flights have we taken together?"
"I don't know. A lot?"
"And what usually happens as soon as you get settled into your seat, play with the air conditioner and put on those massively embarrassing headphones?"
"I fall asleep" I admit.
"How quickly would you say?" I can hear you smiling.
Begrudgingly I whisper, "In about five minutes."
"I'm sorry, I didn't hear that. What did you say?" you needle.
"In about FIVE minutes." I reply tersely.
You smile, "That's what makes me so sure." Then you lean over kiss my cheek and turn back to your book.
I try again, "But what if today was going to be different?"
"Sweetheart, it's ok. Even if you weren't going to fall asleep two seconds after your seatbelt fastens, you wouldn't get much farther. You have great ideas, really you do. You just don't always..." you hesitate, "follow through."
"But, I was going to...." Just then the flight attendants came by to check seat belts and do the safety protocol. I listened because ok, you were right...normally I'd be sleeping by now. It was fascinating to learn that my seat cushion could be used as a floatation device in case of a water landing. If A. I survived a water crash landing and B. sharks didn't eat me first, yes, it was reassuring to know that I could float in the ocean on my seat cushion.
After the flight attendants finished, I started thinking about what you said. And I realized you were right, again. We had been discussing the idea of taking risks in public for months. We even managed to get pretty hot and heavy in the movie theater a few weeks ago. Until someone sat down a few rows behind us and totally freaked me out. You kept reassuring me there was no way that guy would know that your hand was under my skirt, buried in my panties, rubbing my clit and finger fucking me. But I was convinced he could see me shaking and breathing heavily and somehow knew that I wasthisclose to coming right there in front of him and I made you stop.
Or the time we were in my car, at the park just after dusk. I was kneeling between your legs giving you one hell of a blow job until I saw other headlights reflecting on our windshield as they left the park. Realistically, there was no way they could see the nitty gritty details, especially since we were in the back seat and my windows were tinted, but I just couldn't finish there.
And the day we were swimming in the lake, hidden in a coved area. We were in chest deep water, you were behind me with your hands in my suit, pinching my nipples. Sure I wanted you badly. I wanted you to fuck me from behind while we were hanging onto our floaty noodles, but there were too many people on the beach who would know exactly what we were doing.
I rested my head back against the seat and realized with horror and a little bit of shame that I was a Class A Tease. Granted, I wasn't teasing you for fun, this certainly hasn't been a power play, and I know you understood that but I suddenly felt awful about the interruptions you've been experiencing lately.
I've definitely come to terms with the fact that I'm not a risk taker at heart. I mean, my idea of taking risks is buying a bag of cherries having only tasted one. (Ok, or two. Three at the most.) Which made me pretty damn proud of my steps into exhibitionism but I'm ashamed to say that I never really thought about the impact my chickening out had on you.
While I was mid-thought, our plane started to taxi to the runway. I'm not afraid to fly, I love it actually, but during take offs and landings I always reach for your hand. I like to squeeze it as the plane leaves the ground. It makes me feel safe and secure. We hold hands for a few minutes after take off and then I fidget in my seat trying to get as comfortable as possible. Turning around, I rest my head on your shoulder and wrap my arms around your right arm. You kiss my forehead as I whisper, "I love you."
We settle in like this for a bit while I look around. Our plane is divided into two columns with 3 seats in each row. This flight was about three quarters full. An older woman was in the seat next to you, and there was one open seat across the aisle. The seats in front and behind us were mostly filled with an empty seat here and there. The bathrooms were about eleven rows behind us and the emergency exit rows were three in front of us.
I snuggle closer to you and kiss your cheek. "Honey?" I say quietly.
"Hmm? Yes, baby?"
"I've been thinking about what you said earlier and you're right. I'm sorry I've been teasing you in a bad way all this time."
You turn to look at me and I see love, respect and understanding emanating from your eyes.
"Sweetheart, it's really ok. I know you're trying to stretch your boundaries and I'd never push you beyond your comfort level. I didn't mean to make you feel badly."
"I know you didn't, but it still stung a little," I reply.
"The truth often does, lover. Would you want me to lie to you?" you ask.
Shaking my head vehemently I say, "Never. I always want you to be honest." Biting my lower lip, I continue, "So tell me honestly, do you think I'll always be bad with the follow through?"
You kiss me, "I don't. I just think you're fighting this too hard," you say as you tap my forehead gently. "You have the desire, the thoughts, the want, the need, you just let your brain have too much to say about it."
One of my hands slides from your arm to your thigh and I rest it there, caressing your leg almost unconsciously. A thought forms in my mind. A plan to push some boundaries and maybe, just maybe put a crack in my Class A Tease reputation.
I don't want to spend too much time plotting details because then it would seem too rehearsed or planned. I just needed some time to visualize in my head what I wanted to happen. Whether or not it actually progresses that way doesn't matter, but I like to have a plan in mind. I mentally thanked myself for packing a shawl. I get cold easily and like to have something to snuggle under. Another plus was that you and I both prefer comfort over fashion any day. Our travel clothes were lightweight, comfortable and most importantly, loose.
I nuzzle into your shoulder and burrow closer to you. I spread my shawl out covering both of us from mid torso to just above our knees. Kissing your neck again I work up to your ear. "Lover, how long is this flight?"
"Just under 2 more hours," you say, as you turn to kiss me. Your tongue licks the edges of my lips. I sigh because you know how much I love that.
"So maybe about an hour and a half until we have to prepare for landing?" I ask between kisses. I pull your tongue into my mouth and suck it gently. Your hand slips beneath my shirt and rests just under my breasts. I feel your fingertips tracing the bottom edge of my bra.