We'd put an epic show on for each other that weekend down the shore. But the actual Fourth of July didn't feature any fireworks. I worked at Blockbuster. Krissy watched the local display with some camp friends. We didn't even call each other.
The more time we spent apart, the more I worried that reality was crashing down on Krissy, and she was realizing we'd gone too far. I fretted that she was upset with me or maybe worse. We'd done some things, you know? There was a long list of transgressions she could have pulled from. Making her piss herself in the car. Taking her virginity. Cumming in her, bare. That aggressive fuck in the shower. My almost willful lack of concern for any possible consequences of my actions. She could have picked any one of those things to be angry about.
Some sick part of me, I think, was wishing that she would. I've never been the kind of person who gets a rush from getting away with things. In fact, I mostly just feel fear.
But when Tuesday rolled around, and Krissy finally came out, it was like nothing had happened. Well, that's not exactly true. Clearly, things had changed.
As soon as I opened the front door to my house, Krissy was all over me. That was nothing new. Reassuring, sure. But not different. We kissed our way upstairs and into my bedroom, pulling the door closed behind us. Even after all that time, there was something liberating about hearing the mechanism click shut.
Krissy fell back onto my bed, taking me with her. She ripped my clothes off of me like I was wearing the worst outfit she'd ever seen, and she needed to get rid of it as quickly as possible. I responded in kind, lifting off her shirt and bra to expose those lovely, large tits. Sliding her tight jeans down her skinny legs. Another pleasure that never got old for me. Seeing that denim slip away and reveal her perfect, pink skin.
Both of us were down to our underwear. Kissing like crazy. Rolling around on the bed like fighting for dominance. I know it sounds dumb, but I still wasn't sure how Krissy felt about the previous weekend. If we were about to have actual intercourse, go back to blowjobs, or something else entirely.
Regardless, I knew it was time. I had to show Krissy I was was prepared. Responsible. I reached below the both of us to the built-in drawer at the bottom of my bed. I dug around for a moment, then pulled out a condom. The package was oddly sharp at the corners. I held it up like a prize.
There was something reassuring about holding that object in my hand. Say what you will about my high school sex ed class (and so far, we'd had a stunning indictment of the curriculum), it had instilled in me the belief that sex was an act that required condoms. Hard penis? Check. Wet vagina? Done. Condom? Now we're good to go. It was an association that my college girlfriends had (thankfully) reinforced.
Krissy, though, eyed that little square with something that looked a lot like disgust.
"Jacob we can't," Krissy said.
"Oh," I said.
Silly me, I thought she meant sex. That previous weekend had already felt so unreal, impossible. Of course, Krissy was regretting what had happened. It made a hell of a lot more sense than what she actually said next.
"I mean, I want to," Krissy said, looking down eagerly at our almost-union. "Like, a lot. I've been craving it like crazy. Just not with that thing. It's wrong."
Seriously?
I'm not sure what denomination of Christianity allows unprotected, pre-marital sex with a Jewish man but forbids using contraception. But clearly it was the one Krissy subscribed to. It left me in this weird position of having to explain basic reproduction to my very intelligent girlfriend. Which seemed pretty stupid. But not doing so was definitely dumber.
"Krissy, I want this really bad, too," I said. Her cheeks flushed when I said it. "Last weekend was amazing. But we have to do it this way. It's not safe."
Krissy gave me a look like
I
was the one being ridiculous. "It'll be fine," she said, "It's not my time."
"Your time?"
Boys
. The look on her face said the word for her.
"Women have this thing called a cycle," Krissy said, "It determines when we're fertile and when we're not."
For the first time, I understood when Krissy said she wanted to be a teacher. All she needed was a chalkboard behind her and she'd be good to go. Except for the whole naked thing. Though Krissy getting all lecture-y with her tits out was quite a turn-on.
"There are safe times, when I'm not ovulating, and dangerous times," Krissy said.
"Yes, I know about all this," I said.
"Then why am I wasting my time explaining it?" Krissy asked. Her eyes narrowed. She let out a ragged sigh. "One of us is being silly about this. And I can tell you it's not me."
"So, it's a safe time," I said.
"Duh."
"And you'll tell me when it isn't," I said.
"Double duh," Krissy said. A playful little smile escaped her lips.
Wistfully, I eyed the condom in my hands. As much as I understood what Krissy was saying (and my cock very much wanted to listen), I wasn't naive. This seemed less like a foolproof plan and more like a scheme specifically designed
for
fools. Yet I was also very aware that this wasn't an argument I was going to win. Even if I convinced Krissy it was condom or nothing, she'd choose the latter and I'd lose.
So that was my option: continue having wild, unprotected sex with my girlfriend -- bareback, cumming inside her. Or give it all up completely.
"I can pull out," I said, tossing the condom to the side.
"Don't you dare," Krissy said, giggling as she drew me forward, "That's my favorite part."
Our conversation had caused my cock to soften. But a few strokes from Krissy's hands had me ready to go. She grabbed my hardness, then slotted it in place, urging me forward. I paused for a second, giving myself one last chance to savor the moment before truly tumbling over the edge.
I plunged into her.
Krissy let out a low yowl. A strange, almost mournful noise. Her body, however, responded with nothing but ardent enthusiasm. She gripped my butt, forcing me deeper. Her body strained under me, arching to accommodate this still-unfamiliar invader.
I know it sounds stupid, but I'd forgotten how
good
it felt to be in Krissy. The way her wanting pussy slurped me up and cinched around me. Like a hungry mouth gulping down its favorite meal.
Krissy wrapped her skinny legs around my waist. Urging me forward. She pumped her ass up and down. Anything she could to encourage me. Whatever little caution I had, I tossed it to the side along with the condom.
I humped at Krissy with abandon. Reached down and found her clit, rubbing it hard. The blonde woman gasped beneath me. Groaned and pumped with an almost animal abandon.
"Oh... God..." Krissy stiffened. She slapped her hand on top of mine, stopping my strokes. Her mouth dropped open, eyes rolled back. I felt her legs stiffen around me. That sexy little sneer crossed her face. She fell back gasping.