Things had changed between me and Anand following our Tokyo trip. He had become more distant after my rejection of his declaration of love.
My family life was falling apart. It had been 10 days since my husband was last at home. After I had returned from Tokyo I had many conflicting thoughts. If I was honest Anand's confession that he loved me had caused turmoil in my heart and mind than I could have ever imagined. Was it what I longed to hear? Why could I not have that affection from my husband?
After I had returned my husband was irate that I had left at such notice for a business trip. I was not in the mood to be some shrinking violet and I put him in his place telling him that it takes two people to run a home and he has spent many nights 'working late'. He knew perfectly well what I was insinuating and he did not bother to deny it.
That fight was the last I saw of him. He had not returned in 10 days and he was ignoring my calls. Was I destined for a life of loneliness in this marriage?
To Anand's credit he remained professional at work and he did not mention the Tokyo trip. I was waiting in his office as he had gone to see the finance department. I noticed some legal documents on his desk. They were divorce papers. Was he really leaving his wife? Was I the cause of this? Did he mean what he said in Tokyo? How could he love me so much when everyone else thought I was fat and ugly?
I sat back down in my seat when he came in. He put the papers in his drawer away from my sight. We discussed the business issues and I was about to leave when he stopped me, "Meera I know I said I would not mention Tokyo again but I just want you to know that I have secured more stable credit from a well-respected company in India. I am now suing Takumo Finance for breach of contract. But it made me think, if we continue with our affair then we must take more precautions and you cannot get pregnant. That will cause a scandal with your husband."
I thought he was going to tell me about his divorce. I really wanted to forget about the whole Takumo Finance incident but at least we would not have to deal with them. We both looked acknowledging at each other as to say that put a line under it.
Would he tell me about his divorce or did it have nothing to do with me? If he was worried about me becoming pregnant, maybe he had no plans for a future with me?
I was working late as I was clearing some reports. I hated going home and facing the husband drama of him not turning up and feeling judged by the maid. The fucking maid of all people was judging me.
I was walking past Anand's office when I saw his light was still on. I knocked on his door and he beckoned me in, "Come in."
He beamed with a smile as he saw me, "Meera, what are you doing here so late?"
I walked towards his desk, "I was just finishing some reports for tomorrow's monthly meeting. Why are you not going home?"
He smiled, "Meera, well the truth is I am living in a hotel at the moment as I have filed for divorce."
I feigned shock, "Sir, I am sorry to hear that. Why did it happen?"
He leaned back in his chair and sighed, "I am going to be candid. I was in love with someone else and I was simply too old to live a lie."
His words cut through me. How could he love me? As people like my husband and Mr Takumo remind me I am just a fat ugly woman. But Anand saw a beauty and sexuality where no one else did.
He looked at me sincerely and said, "Meera I will never ask you to leave your husband but I make a vow to you. I will only ever love you and I will stay faithful to you. I want you to be faithful to me."
I was so confused, "Sir, how can that be? I am married and I have a son."
He held my hand and I felt goose bumps go through my body, "You simply refuse sex with your husband. He can never love you. Not the way that I do."
I felt my eyes well up, "I am in love with you too."
He brought out a gift box, "As a symbol of our love I want you to wear this where no one will be able to see it but we will both know it is there."
The box had two small grooved rings inside and I thought I could never wear them as it would be too obvious on my finger. He began to unbutton my blouse and lifted my breasts out of my bra.
He began to roughly pinch and pull on my nipples making them more engorged and erect. He then placed the rings around my nipples and teased them until they pulled through. They sat perfectly on my nipples and I felt sexier than ever before.
He then put them back in bra and buttoned up my blouse. He said, "This symbolises your commitment to me. You will always wear these for me and no one is allowed to touch you but me."
I thought about my husband and the truth was I could not remember the last time he saw me naked never mind when we had sex, "Sir what about my husband?"
He said, "He is only your husband in name. He will never deserve your love."
This was a new beginning for us, our story was turning from our perversions into a love story. But could we ever be together?
He asked, "Why do your breasts not produce as much milk?"
Just as I was beginning to see Anand in this loving light I realised it was my breasts that initially caught his attention. They had began to sag a little recently, "I have stopped breast feeding and they are not producing the same amount of milk now."
He seemed slightly disappointed and it hurt me to think that I would lose his interest, "My husband is away and my maid is taking care of my son. Maybe I can keep your company tonight. I hate to think of you being alone in a hotel."
He smiled and I accompanied him to the hotel. I called the maid to tell her that I would not be home tonight. I could imagine her rolling her eyes as she heard another excuse.
Anand was staying in a 5 star hotel and I accompanied him to his room. It was late and instead of tearing my clothes as he usually did he said, "I am really tired and I will be going to bed now."
I began to think was I going to lose him? Had he lost interest now that my breasts were beginning to dry up?
He began to undress but I had no sleepwear. Perhaps I needed to be bold tonight. I needed to insure that I kept his sexual interest in me and only me. He was fully naked but his cock was only semi erect which took me by surprise. He always had an erection around me. Perhaps my doubts were real.
He got into bed and there was none of that perverted attention I expected. He was fiddling with the remote for the TV. I was facing him and I wanted to keep his attention on me as I began to slowly remove the blazer, "Sir, I have not brought my breast pump with me. I always pump them before bed. Even now that I have stopped feeding the baby I must still pump them once a day."