It was the beginning of fall when I went to a state college; it was my first real experience being away from home. I was just an average guy from a small southern rural town. I was 18 years old, stood 5' 7", had hazel eyes and short dark brown hair. All through high school nothing special happened to me, I was a relatively shy guy with a small circle of friends. It took me forever to decide to go to a state college that was about 100 miles from my hometown, I wanted to get out of the house and see what life could be like outside of home, to get a full college experience. Little did I know what was in store for me when I got there for the first week of classes.
It was the first days of college for me that really changed my life and opened up my eyes to the world around me. Nothing special had happened to at first, things seemed to go as normal as if I was back in high school. The first real "break" from normal school life happened on the second day of classes when a fraternity on campus (who I shall keep anonymous) spotted me. And later on that night I accepted a bid to become a pledge.
It was my second night of being a pledge, me and the fraternity brothers and my new pledge brothers were at the trailer of one of its members. We all gathered there to smoke cigarettes, get to know on another, but mainly to drink. We drank there to get around the university rule of no alcohol at rush functions, but since we were off campus then we weren't violating any rules. Aside from all the alcohol I noticed all the girls that were hanging around with the fraternity and having a good time with them. Women were a sensitive subject with me; I really didn't have any girlfriends in high school. Sure, I had women that were my friends, but no way in hell would they ever date me or anything else for that matter.
The secret I was hiding was that I was an 18 year old virgin. I was always fascinated with sex, even at an early age. I watched movies, looked at pictures, and read stories, but until that point I'd had no luck. In fact I always hated hearing some of my friends talking about their sexual experiences in high school, I hated being left out of the conversation and only adding in on the adult movies I saw on the weekends on cable TV. I felt like I was the last virgin on the face of the earth and I so desperately wanted to get rid of it. I wanted to be able to say what positions I liked and what I'd said to get the chick in the sack just like all of the other guys.
I was walking out on the small porch at the front of the trailer with a beer in my hand and I heard a voice coming from the left of me saying "hi". I turned to look to see a woman that I had seen the week before at band camp. Her name was Terri; she was a 22-year-old senior that was friends with most of the brothers. She was sitting on the rail of the porch smoking a cigarette; I was surprised that she even said a word to me. During the previous week I'd seen her be a total bitch to some of the people around her at band camp, so I thought that she might want me to get her something out of the refrigerator. "Hi Matt," she said to me, " Are you having a good time tonight?" "Umm I guess so." I replied. " Come on and sit by me, you can't just sit here all by yourself tonight." She told me. So I sat next to her and we began to talk. We talked about our lives and why were at college and what we were hoping to do when got out, and how I liked school so far. As we talked on what seemed to be for hours I felt more and more like I had known her all my life and the conversation got easier and more relaxed.
By now the conversation had moved had moved from the porch to the tailgate of a parked pick up truck in the drive way just a few feet away. I was sitting right next to her and I suddenly found myself drawn to her beautiful smile. As she was continuing to talk to me I let my eyes drift up and down her body, she was slightly taller than I was probably 5' 11". She was bigger than average, not fat or anything just set a little heavier than most of the girls there, but she had some nice breast that must have been a size D that were hung perfectly over her chest. I now noticed that I was closer to her than we had started talking; I looked up at her and her eyes gently stared back into mine as if she was waiting for me to do something in the pause that we were in. I kept looking in to her eyes and put my arm around her, but I could tell by the look in her eyes that she wanted me to do more.