He was waiting for me near the edge of the mall parking lot when I drove up.
I stepped out of my car, and couldn't help but smile as I stood less than a foot from him, sitting in his SUV, and looking fantastic.
The window was down and his arm was resting on the sill. I stroked his arm, admiring the dark blue sweater and whispering "Hi there", feeling shy and excited all at once. I love the butterflies. It never ceases to amaze me.
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I've been secretly seeing this man all summer long. We've met at least once a week at the park, taking advantage of the solitude to kiss, caress, and tease one another, step by step, inching closer to becoming lovers. Every visit, my stomach would be full of butterflies as I was driving to meet him, and I would leave feeling warm all over from our "park" time together. He was very patient with me, given that I was anxious about not letting our spouses find out, and that I just wasn't confident in my own sex appeal. A long and boring marriage rut will do that to you. Bit by bit, he let me know how much he wanted to be my lover. One day, he said to me "I can't think of anything better than to spend an afternoon in a hotel room being very intimate with you." I felt like a supermodel, a celebrity, a sex symbol,... I can't put into words how sexy I felt knowing that he wanted me.
We grew bolder, even sneaking off twice to a different park where we spent glorious hours on a blanket in the sun, making out like teenagers. The second time, we snuck into the woods and had a quickie, but again I was so damn nervous about a couple of things, that it was rushed and I pulled back from him a little bit for a while afterward, telling him I didn't really know when we could be together again.
I made some peace with that over the next few months, and we started to get more intense again, writing dirty little stories and emailing them between our private accounts, fantasies about having sex together.
I started to REALLY want to have sex with him again. There were things we hadn't done the first time, that I really wanted to do THIS time.
One day in the park I told him that I would be able to slip away the following Tuesday, and easily cover my tracks so that we could take a long lunch. I didn't come out and say "I want to have sex with you again" but he offered me a suggestion as to a place that we could go.
I mulled it over all weekend. For the next two days I stroked myself while I was getting dressed, while I was lying in bed, and several other times, just wanting to feel his mouth moving over me. I thought over and over about going down on him in return, feeling his cock in my mouth, and driving him crazy with my lips, tongue and hands.
That Monday he sent me a note about where we'd meet, and mentioned that he'd have blankets and pillows in the back of his SUV. I knew he'd have the back seats down, leaving a big flat area where we could play. I was excited. I thought for sure we'd go back to the other park, and have sex there.
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So there I was, standing next to his SUV. Sheepishly, I grinned. "I'm hungry. Can we just run into the cafe and get something to go? I don't want to stay in there."
He smiled at me, patient as usual, and got out of the car. Once we had purchased a light lunch, we walked back to his car. He looked so good in his jeans and sweater. I wanted him IMMEDIATELY, but the park was a half hour drive away.
He surprised me by driving around to the other side of the mall, and backing into a sort of corner space, between a hill and a dumpster full of cardboard boxes. I was so confused. Were we eating here? He didn't really expect me to have SEX with him here, did he? In the parking lot of a MALL?? Is he damn crazy? I didn't know what to say.
He started eating his sandwich and I nibbled at my bagel, while we chatted and flirted. Then to my surprise, he took of his shoes and jumped into the back. Holy shit. He really did want to do it right there. I almost died.
I wanted to at least kiss him a little bit before making him drive me to a more secluded spot, so I climbed in the back. I asked him about other people seeing us, and he pointed out that the back windows of his SUV were all tinted, so that no one could see in.
He had a beach towel which he spread over the backs of the two front seats, whispered to me "now we have privacy... no one can see us..." and started kissing me.
He was on my right, reclining on his side and leaning over to kiss me. With his right hand he started stroking my face and my hair, and then caressing my breasts.
Already my breathing was heavy. I love the way he kisses me, teasing me with his tongue, moving across my lips, kissing my jaw and my neck. I love to touch his face, to stroke the contours of his face and trace his beard and the tiny spots just below the curves of his lower lip that don't have as much hair.
His hands explored me, and when I couldn't wait anymore I pulled up my shirt and gave him a look at what I was wearing. It was a charcoal grey bra with black pinstripes. The material was very thin and as he sucked on my nipples through the fabric I could feel them stiffen.
I was no longer thinking about where we were, or who might see. My pulse was racing and I needed to feel his mouth directly on my skin - I pulled one part of my bra to the side, and he eagerly moved his lips over to the newly exposed flesh.
He reached under my back to unhook the bra, so that it could be moved up and out of his way. The skin on my chest is extremely sensitive to touch -- to HIS touch -- and I was already feeling warm tingles everywhere that his mouth landed.
I was stroking his hair and watching his face as he blanketed me with kisses, and he told me in a low voice "I love the way you taste, I've missed your taste..." which made me feel SO hot, that I stopped him to take the sweater completely off.
He took his shirt off, taking my breath away even more. I ran my fingers through the dark hair on his chest and pulled him on top of me, wanting to feel his warm skin against mine. He was kissing me, moving around my face and throat, and I was enjoying the sculpture of his body, the shape of his chest and particularly his shoulder, so tantalizingly close to my face. I was kissing his collarbone and moving along to his shoulder, unable to resist a few small bites, but being careful not to leave an obvious mark on him. The pleasure of the weight and warmth of his body on top of mine had wrapped around me, and all I could think about was to have him keep going.
********** I can't, worry my heart with what if Oh maybe I should just give in And wrap myself around you and Let you take me down Take me down **********
He began his way downward, moving through the valley between my full breasts, leaving a warm trail of kisses down my rib cage and my stomach. I didn't even have to tell him "Don't stop" ... it was very clear from my sighs of pleasure that I was enjoying every touch.
I unbuttoned my jeans and raised my hips so that he could pull them down and move them out of the way. Only my black silky bikini bottoms were between us.
He admired them out loud, and began stroking me through the fabric, his hands moving gently, teasing, stroking my legs and then back to the fabric, moving all over the surface as I gasped and squirmed underneath him. This was driving me ABSOLUTELY wild.
When he couldn't resist any longer he pushed them to the side, and tried to kiss me that way, but I wanted NOTHING between us at that point, so I quickly slipped out of the panties.
And then, sweet madness, as he eagerly licked me, finally burying his face between my thighs, gently kissing me, probing with his tongue. It was everything I'd fantasized about and more.