Elle was frustrated with her painting; no matter how hard she tried she couldn't make it look exactly like the still-life set up in the middle of the classroom. Honestly art just wasn't really her thing. But everyone at the college had to take at least one art course no matter what their major and she had chosen painting.
She had stayed late today with a plan to really buckle down and finally get this painting right. So far, not so good. She was tired and tense and frustrated and the painting looked just as stiff and wooden as ever.
She wasn't alone in the art room today. Another student from her class, a boy named Skye, was there as well. Actually he stayed late after every class. Not to fix his awful paintings like Elle, but because he loved painting, it was his thing. He was really good, too. His still-lifes didn't just look like the things they were supposed to, they were graceful and poetic. Elle couldn't figure it out.
She put down her paintbrush and sighed in frustration, pushing her hair off her forehead.
"Having trouble?" Skye asked, looking over at her from behind his easel.
"Can you tell," she replied, sarcastically. "I just can't seem to get it right. No matter how hard I try something is always off. I might just start over again."
She sat down on a chair and stared morosely up at her painting.
Skye came around and stood behind her chair, looking at the painting. "It looks stiff," he said. Elle nodded her agreement. "I think you're trying too hard. You're like, all wound up, trying to control this thing. You have to let go and let the painting work with you."
Elle snorted and shook her head. This was exactly the kind of artsy bullshit she hated.
"Ok here, stand up and lean on me," he said, moving to stand behind her. "No I'm serious, lean on me, relax your shoulders and try to open up. Feel your chest just open up and let out all the emotions that are bottled up in there. "
Elle shook her head, what nonsense. But seriously she needed the help. Elle tried to relax. She closed her eyes and leaned back against his chest. She tried to concentrate on the emotions in her chest but all she could think about was the feel of him, pressed up against her. He was so warm and his strong arms brushed against hers, holding her up. She was trying to figure out what he smelled like, like a warm bed but not so innocent.
"Ok," he murmured, right by her ear. "Now feel your chest just open up and let all the emotions out, concentrate on them."
And for just a moment she could almost feel it. It wasn't a powerful rush of emotions but it was something, something beautiful and delicate, unfurling from her chest where it had been tightly curled up for her whole life. She sighed, relieved and amazed that the exercise had worked.
"Now," he breathed, watching her peaceful face, "What did it look like? Don't tell me! Paint it" and he released her back onto her own feet. Without thinking about it at all Elle picked up a clean brush and mixed a lemon yellow with the tiniest bit of warm red, softening it, and began to paint on a new canvas.
She painted a delicate golden ribbon, curling and wafting over the blank canvas. She tried to think about what she had felt like and translate that into an image. She worked silently for a long time, carefully drawing out her feelings on the page.
When she felt like she was finished with the golden shape she looked at the picture and decided that what it needed was blue. She cleaned her brush and started painting blue. She painted for a long time, quietly concentrating but in a state of calm reverence. She wasn't worried about it tuning out right because there was no right or wrong in this painting. After a while Skye went back to his own easel and Elle gave him a grateful smile.
Eventually Elle realized that it was getting dark outside. She put down her brush and flexed her cramped fingers. They had been working for hours. She took a step back and looked at the painting. It was certainly different from her other work. It was playful and full of color but at the same time very graceful and refined. Skye came over to see and stood looking with her. "Wow," he said. "Who knew all that was locked away in here." And he gently placed one hand on her chest, between her breasts.
Elle's heartbeat quickened at his touch. She placed her hand on top of his and looked into his eyes. "Thank you," she said with complete sincerity. "You have no idea how much you helped me."
He grinned at her. "I knew you had it in you. You just need to loosen up! You know..." he said, taking a step towards Elle, invading her personal space. "Despite our little therapy session you still look a little wound up to me."
"I do?" she asked in mock surprise. Her heart was pounding and she felt her skin flush. Skye must surely be able to feel it with his hand still pressed to her chest.
He took another step and brought his other hand up to cup her face. "You know what I find to be very relaxing?" he asked, stepping still closer.
"Meditation?" she asked, still trying to turn this into a joke even though she knew what was coming, craved what was coming.