Oh.
My.
God.
Those were, and frankly still are, the three words running through my mind after he grabbed me and pushed me up against the wall. I've had my fair share of shameful drives back home, just like any young woman in her twenties, though they always took place the morning after some regretful decision, but this by far wasn't one of them.
I began going to the local gym somewhere between my last semester of college and graduation. It wasn't so much for appearances, but rather just to make myself feel good. I was graduating, I was about to be free from school, I had an internship lined up, my life was just getting started and I deserved to feel good about myself! I knew I could shave off what had gathered around my midriff by the time graduation rolled around, but my thighs were inherited from my mother and if history repeated itself, they'd stick around. My sister and I used to always joke that I got my hips from our mom and my chest from our dad, the latter who was skinny as a rail. I was proud of my small bust throughout school and thankful I didn't wind up like some of the other girls who got stared down and cat-called for what was bouncing around up top. Still, that never did stop a stray hand from getting a good grab at a party though, so I guess it's one evil traded for another.
The town I commuted from and lived in then was rather small and only had one place to its name. You probably know the type; strip mall special, tucked between a Pizza Hut and some bargain outlet with only a handful of machines to use and a small weight selection. The price was right though, and what little bit they had would serve my purposes, so I signed up and didn't look back.
This is where the kicker comes in though; I didn't meet Mark until near the end of things. I spent the first two months doing things on my own, and having limited success with it. It seemed like no matter what I tried, no matter how many Pinterest boards I went through, I'd be down a pound one week and then up two the next. Truth be told, if it hadn't been for the special he was running, I wouldn't have even thought about getting a personal trainer to help. I was more than content in my frustration to just give up, call it a day, and just try and cut out booze and any over indulgences.
Mark was determined to help me though.
He said he wasn't some famous Kardashian wrangler, a line that still cracks me up to this day, but shaving off ten pounds in a little over two months was, while a bit aggressive, still doable and cheap. It didn't hurt matters either that he was rather handsome. He wasn't a bodybuilder, just a guy that had run track for most of his high school career and kept up his fitness regimen out of habit and decided to share his knowledge to make a few bucks on the side. Toned would be the best description for him, though it was his legs out of all else that really shared the deep lines of accented muscle. Truth be told, he looked rather goofy in that 'he could be my brother' sort of way; tall with a crooked grin and bright hazel eyes. Maybe it was that goofiness that really helped us hit it off instantly.
We saw each other every Tuesday and Thursday for two months, each session ticking me closer and closer to my goal. I guess most of what eventually happened was sort of my fault looking back on it. I didn't necessarily try to keep my distance anytime he got close, and after the first time I felt his erection through his cut off sweatpants, I got a bit more playful. We had already enjoyed one another's company, going as far as chatting after our sessions out in the parking lot, and being around Mark made me feel even better about myself. So, I ditched the yoga pants in favor of an old pair of volleyball shorts from high school, and gave him a bit of a show at times.
It wasn't anything blatant. Just subtle little things like taking my time tying up my sneakers, or sticking my backside out a tad farther than necessary during our 'downward dog' poses. More and more I began to notice that stiffened cock of his when he helped me during my squats, and I will admit I brushed up against him a time or two. Maybe that was what truly broke him, because the next thing I can remember, I was up against the wall in the little locker room that was more of a closet than its namesake.