'I like cum.'
Ben snorted wine from his nose and stared at me wide-eyed.
'I like cum,' I repeated. 'I just wanted to lay that on the table.'
'Along with the ice cream.'
'Yes, exactly.' We shared a grin. 'I have a very dirty mind, and an unhealthy curiosity about sex,' I continued. 'I honestly believe I'll try anything once. I'm not very experienced, it's true, but I want that to change. Soon. I need a boyfriend who can keep up with me.'
'This is starting to feel more like a job interview than a date.'
'In a way it is. I like you, Ben, a lot, but that's not enough. I need a man who can satisfy me.'
'I'm not sure any man could satisfy you.' His cheeky smile made me want to kiss him.
'You may be right,' I said. 'I have a little exercise for the second part of this interview - if you're still interested?'
'Oh, I'm interested. Go ahead.'
'Okay.' I took some cards and a pen from the pocket of my jacket. Ten I had already written on, ten were blank and I passed these and the pen over to Ben. 'I want you to think about what you want from a relationship in terms of sex. Maybe something you want to do regularly, maybe something you may only want to try once. And not including vanilla sex. I'm going to assume that whatever else we want, we both want lots of vanilla.'
'I prefer the chocolate.'
I rolled my eyes. 'Sex. Not ice cream. Unless you're thinking of eating ice cream off my breasts, or somewhere else even.'
He chuckled. 'That would be an interesting way to define vanilla sex.'
Ben started writing on his cards while I sat back and watched him over my wine glass. Of course, it was easy to predict most of his fantasies. Men are men, and he was probably too shy to ask for anything really kinky. 'Don't be afraid,' I said, smiling. 'I promise not to be disgusted by your depraved imagination.'
This was the new me. I'd always been adventurous, but not really in a sexual way. Last summer was the start of my sexual awakening. Of course I had had sex before, but only with steady boyfriends and I can't say the sex was very adventurous. Fumbling around in cars, groping, fingering and once a bit of oral in clubs and bars, a hasty fuck at a party or at someone's house while the parents or room mate were away.
Suddenly I wanted more. Lots of sex. Lots of different types of sex. My inner slut was hungry. But she was still trapped in the lifestyle of a vanilla girl. I didn't dare let her out in public, although I indulged her in ways. I hadn't yet revealed this side of me to Ben. I had high hopes for him, but wanted to be sure.
'Done,' he said, putting the pen down at last.
'Okay,' I said. 'We lay the cards down in pairs, taking turns to go first. I'll start.' I took my top card and placed it in the middle of the table. 'Oral sex. This is non-negotiable. I want lots of it. I love receiving it, I love giving it.'
Ben laughed, and put a card next to it. 'That was one of mine too. Can you deep throat?'
'Sort of. I hope to get lots of practice. Your turn to go first.'
He studied his cards for a minute. It felt almost like we were playing poker. 'Anal sex,' he said, sounding nervous.
'What is it with men and anal sex?' I asked.
He looked crestfallen. 'Oh, well, if you don't want to, er.' He trailed off, embarrassed.
I laughed. 'I would have been disappointed if you hadn't suggested it.' I put one of my cards next to it. 'However, I'd really love to wear a strap-on and return the favour.'
Ben's face flushed as his embarrassment deepened. 'I don't know. Er, maybe.'
That was a better answer than I'd expected. I selected another card. 'I want to play the dominatrix, have you as my slave for a whole day.'
He laughed with relief, and immediately placed a card next to it. 'Wear a PVC catsuit and I'll gladly be your slave, Mistress.' He placed another card. 'But I'd also like to be your Master sometimes.'