I was on time for the appointment, but you know how these things go. Thirty-six minutes had passed by the time the clack of high heels on the tile outside the door signaled an approaching nurse.
The exam room door opened. I glanced up from the cheap vinyl chair and blinked.
"...Ashley?"
She blinked back. Squinted, then blinked again. My glasses must have thrown her off for a second.
"Oh my god, Kent?"
Seeing Ashley Windstrom walk in with a stethoscope around her neck had to be one of the biggest surprises of my life. We had gone to high school together, but our shared hometown was a three-hour flight from here. I had no idea she and I lived anywhere near each other.
I laughed. "What are the odds I'd get you as my nurse, huh?"
Her grin could have painted the moon.
"This is literally crazy!" She stretched her arms wide.
I stood and leaned into the hug.
"How have you been?" I asked.
It was the first time we'd touched since we were eighteen.
Ashley pulled back, and I could see she was blushing just a little.
"I've been good," she said.
She brushed a strand of her strawberry blonde hair back from her face and adjusted a pair of wire-rimmed glasses. I hadn't seen her in glasses before; they looked good on her.
She stepped back and looked me over. I looked her over too.
Some things hadn't changed. Slim legs, gentle curves, pure smile. Ashley was the kind of beautiful that men would Google at night after their wives fell asleep.
She wore a white ruffled blouse with a deep V down the front, and a high-waisted black pencil skirt. On her feet was a pair of strappy nude heels.
She gestured at me.
"You look good," she said. "I really didn't recognize you at first."
"The glasses," I said.
"They suit you."
"Thanks," I said. "So do yours. You look... well, you look amazing, Ashley."
This time the blush was unmistakable. She glanced down.
For the first time, I noticed the two stacked diamond rings on her finger.
I guess it wasn't Windstrom anymore, then.
I didn't comment on the rings, and for a long time afterward, I'd be asking myself why.
She was an inch shorter than me in the heels, and she smelled like flowers.
If time was kind to anyone, it seemed to have showered its richest gifts on Ashley. Flawless skin, the same cute nose and rosy cheeks. And that flowing hair.
I'd have sworn she was somehow even prettier than the girl I'd crushed on as a high schooler.
"I haven't seen you since--"
"--The graduation party." She finished the sentence quietly. "Yeah."
"I always wondered where you ended up," I said. "You're a nurse now, huh?"
"NP, yeah." She flicked at the stethoscope idly.
"Nice."
"And you?"
"I'm a writer. Fiction, essays, news journals."
She seemed genuinely happy for me.
"Hey, look at you. I always knew you'd end up a writer."
She turned and pushed the door shut gently behind her.
When she turned back, she seemed nervous. Her eyes fell.
"Listen, Kent, about... how we left things..." She toyed with the rings on her finger.
"Ashley, you don't--"
"--No."
She bit her lip, and she looked up and threw her hands open in frustration. "I just want to say I'm sorry. I know I was a shitty friend."
I looked at her a long time. "I don't remember that night being shitty."
She was quiet for a few seconds.
"No, it..." She trailed off. Then finally she finished. "It wasn't shitty," she said. "It was--... great."
"Yeah?"
I had always wondered what kind of impression that night had left on Ashley.
"Yeah."
She smiled again, but now she had an almost conspiratorial look on her face. She cleared her throat and patted the exam table next to her.
"Well?" she said. "Shall I examine you then, Mr. Roeper?" She giggled.
I could tell she was flustered, anxious not to talk about high school anymore. That was fine with me. But I couldn't help thinking about what a second chance with Ashley might have been like. If, you know, we hadn't both gone off and married other people...
I gave her a smile and a laugh and crossed the room, and hoped that she couldn't read my horny inner monologue. I hoisted myself up onto the table. The paper dropcloth crinkled under me.
Ashley's eyes dropped as she raised the stethoscope. She placed it on my chest and paused. My heart was hammering and I knew she was hearing it all, like she had an ear on my innermost thoughts.
"So, I take it... that night was good for you too?" She whispered the words.
My skin lit up.
Her hand still held the stethoscope to my chest. She nodded and tsked thoughtfully.
"Mmm, yep, seems like it did." She giggled and patted my chest.
"I'm sorry, Ashley," I said, blushing. I ran a hand through my hair. "You're a hard girl to forget."
Her hand dropped from my chest to my knee, her fingers resting there gently. Her jewelry jingled as she leaned in close to my ear.
"It's OK."
Her reply was curt and short, and she immediately straightened back up as though nothing had passed between us.
"All right," she snapped. "Now, lie on your back."
I did, and I immediately felt Ashley's cool hand suddenly up under my shirt. She probed my abdomen for a few long moments. It felt like she was letting her fingers rest against me a bit longer than was strictly necessary.
"Hmm, somebody works out," she said. She pinched my abs playfully. Our eyes met and I gave her a grin.
She pulled her hand back and glanced toward the door.
"Remember when we fell asleep in the recliner at Adam's house?" she asked.
Crossing to the counter on the other side of the room from me, she pulled the stethoscope off and laid it down, hoisting herself up onto the counter backward and dangling her feet while she talked.
I sat up and swung my legs off the table, sitting there and studying her.
I nodded, and our eyes met. Hers were practically dancing.
"I woke up and carried you to that spare bedroom," I said. "Probably 1 or 2 in the morning."
"You were there with me when I woke up," she said, half to herself.
I remembered every detail. I had relived it thousands of times.
"Sometimes I still have dreams about that night, Kent," she said.
I almost gasped. I felt heat spread from my chest up into my face.
Ashley seemed suddenly nervous about having brought the whole thing up. Her eyes dropped.
I watched her legs swinging from the counter, slim and pale; watched her brush the hair back from one side of her face and look up at me finally.
"I dream about it too, Ash," I said.
"Ash." She bit her lip again. "It's been a while since anyone called me that."
The eyes that locked on mine in that moment were not the eyes of my nurse; they were the cute lusty eyes of that same perky high-schooler.
Everything that had happened between that night and this morning seemed to get erased in an instant, and we were suddenly those kids again.
I was the first one to move.