"Tell me, what are you thinking right now?" I asked, teasing a little.
He didn't pause or hesitate. Immediately he replied, "Kissing you. I can't stop thinking about kissing you."
I smiled, even though he couldn't see my smile over the phone.
"Hurry, " he said in a hushed tone, like it was a big secret.
"Exactly where are you going to kiss me first?" I asked, still smiling as I pulled into the driveway.
His answer didn't really matter much. I just wanted to listen to his voice.
"First your lips, " he said barely above a whisper. "Always those luscious lips." His voice poured over me like smooth Kentucky whiskey and honey. "I want to spend an hour just kissing you. Feeling your lips pressed against mine. Gently sucking your bottom lip between mine."
He knew that I liked listening to him talk. That he could turn me on with just his voice. He probably didn't know why though. There is something about southern men, at least older men, especially educated ones. Not the country redneck accent that I grew up around with the men who own four-wheel-drive pickup trucks with rebel flags and nascar stickers on the back window. No, something still decidedly southern but more refined. The way he dropped the r's and dragged out words in a slow and deliberate manner put images of an old south plantation owner sitting on the front porch watching the sun rise over the cotton field in a seersucker suit and a straw hat. Mint juleps and the Kentucky Derby and big pitchers of lemonade on way too hot afternoons. But when he whispered in my ear, there was a slightly rough quality. Slightly gravely, maybe from years of smoking, a habit long since dropped, or maybe it was just the rough edge from all those years of being a type-A, in control, listen to nobody kind of control freak. Another habit he had broken out of necessity, not choice, when his own mortality not only came knocking on his front door but sneaked into his front parlor and stuck around long enough for a cup of tea. That is always enough to make a wise man slow down and re-evaluate priorities.
And the re-evaluation had been good for his soul. Or maybe not his soul as much as his body. Because, in the end, he realized that the important thing he was missing in his life was touch. Or more specifically, touching someone that you really care about. Not just sex, hot steamy sex where you bend your secretary across your desk then slap her on the ass and send her back to work. But sex where you connect on some deeper level, where you want nothing more than to crawl into bed beside her and press your naked body to hers and spend the rest of the afternoon trying to kiss every inch of her bare skin.
I leaned across the seat and grabbed my bag off the back seat. The bag I bought for the first time I met him for an afternoon of those kisses. Just like a woman, I had to have a bag of essentials before I could meet a man at a hotel. Lingerie so I could be sexy for him, make up and a hairbrush so I could put myself back together afterwards, a toothbrush, lotion, maybe a sex toy or two. On a good day I would toss in the leather hand and ankle cuffs. Occasionally there was a bottle of wine or a container of strawberries. Just the essentials. But no way could I walk in the door wearing heels and a short skirt carrying a gym bag, and a suitcase, even a carry-on bag, just seemed to carry too many expectations. So I bought a bag, a pretty fabric bag in a French toile print, and left it packed in the trunk of my car waiting for his call. Luckily he called often.
"Then, gently, brushing my lips down your neck," he continued, as I stepped out of the car and locked the door behind me. "Tracing your collar bone with my tongue, " he whispered. I almost giggled, wondering if every business associate who had felt screwed over in a deal and called him an asshole as soon as the door closed behind him, every secretary who had been yelled at for the slightest infraction, every wife, girlfriend, or lover who had been dismissed as soon as he had been satisfied leaving them to fend for themselves, wondering if all of those people could see him now if they would even recognize him as this man who was describing every slow deliberate move that he was going to make as he showered my body with kisses.
I walked to the door and paused, pushing my rhinestone studded sunglasses down on my nose slightly so I could peer over them at him. I unbuttoned the top button on my silk blouse and placed on hand on the door facing, leaning in slightly. "Open the door already, " I demanded, still trying to sound sexy.
The door swung open, and there he was. I felt my heart flutter a little as his eyes met mine. All that effort to look sexy just went out the window as he reached for me and my knees went weak. His hands went to either side of my face, stroking, cradling, then pulling me towards him. He paused slightly, looking into my eyes, then moved towards me till his lips were barely brushing mine. The kiss. The first kiss. The first one always took my breath away, such a combination of tenderness and passion.
He pulled me inside and closed the door, never removing his lips from mine.
He was a man of his word, I thought with a smile, as he laid me back on the bed and slowly, oh so slowly, started unbuttoning the buttons on my shirt. One by one the buttons were released, with his lips gently pressed to every inch of bare skin as he uncovered it. Painstakingly slow, the kisses moved down to my stomach. Barely brushing, skin on skin, pushing the waist band of my skirt lower as his lips searched for a new spot to kiss.
I could feel that he was teasing me. Making me want his mouth lower but not putting it right where I wanted it. Moving down to my thighs, kissing all the way up to the top of my thighs then stopping just short of what I really wanted.
I started to squirm, trying to wiggle my way closer to his warm mouth. But he could tell what I was doing and would pull back without actually touching my panties. I whimpered in protest. An almost silent plea escaped my lips. He pulled back. I could tell he was enjoying making me want it way too much, and I was at his mercy.