Well, it's been more than two weeks. And I have not physically laid eyes on him - I have been just aching to see him and tried anything I could to entice him. Texting about anything at all, just to get some kind of response... I got a few replies, usually one or two quick comments, nearly always spelt wrong any which way, a mix of Spanish and English words, in response to my rambling paragraphs of babble.
Yes, I did call and he usually picked up... but he couldn't talk much, just saying something that, to me, felt dismissive, to placate me: 'I love you, baby, te amo, bonita, te quiero..." but no coming to my house. He said again and again that he was so busy working. So I suffered, imagining various drastic scenarios, such as 'he met some hot young chick and it's over' and whatnot. All sorts of nonsense.
Meanwhile, I had gotten some sex toys in the mail - the results of a good friend telling me I needed to get those for my own survival! Since I was always complaining to her about how I missed him all the time, she said I should get some vibrators. I have never ever used anything like that; just didn't like the idea - I only wanted the 'real thing', but she insisted I needed to do it. So I figured, well ok. I had never tried before, but I finally looked them up on the internet - and busted out laughing! They looked so utterly silly to me! Weird shapes, weird colors, just ridiculous little doo-dads! I couldn't believe they would be of any use to me at all, but they were surprisingly cheap to buy! So I did order a couple. Anyway, they arrived quite quickly and I had them in a black silk drawstring bag - in a drawer. I couldn't get myself to do a darn thing with them, so I sort of just let them lie 'fallow' so to speak. All I could do was pine for Julio all weekend, and now it was another blue Monday.
Well - thank my amazing good luck, blue Monday got rosy hot pink!
I had again tried calling him late last night; he picked up, but he was kind of distant-sounding. So I figured he was not alone. I had to let it be. I was so pissed. But by today, the frantic longing from yesterday had at least calmed down. I did my usual activities, went to the gym, and a lot of shopping errands. When I got home it was nearly 5:30 p.m. At that moment my cell-phone rang.
"Hola, I am here."
My heart bounded! "What - where?" I looked outside and saw no-one. But he was in my carport. When he stepped out of his car, I rushed over to embrace him, but I lowered my eyes when he looked at me. I wasn't sure what he was thinking, since I was feeling pretty foolish from all my shenanigans the last few days, texting and calling and pestering him and whatnot. He immediately kissed me and I knew it was all ok.
"I know, I am being so bad!" I snivelled, wanting to be reassured even more. I felt so bratty, so very adolescent stupid, but repentant, embarrassed by my childishness. Happily for me, he seemed to feel it was just silly 'female' stuff and not worthy of any attention at all. He just continued stroking my hair, embracing and caressing me, smiling indulgently. He totally gets it when I overreact. He did not seem concerned or the slightest bit rattled by it - not in the least. He just gave me his glorious, beautiful loving smile, washing me with that warm, irresistible sweetness. "I love you, mi chica traviesa - te amo, mi amor, esta bien."
Ahh! I was so glad he was not annoyed. Inside, I started looking in the fridge for something to give him. I pan-seared a steak, and buzzed around the kitchen preparing goodies. He stood by the island counter and just watched me.
"You are very 'sexual'." He pronounced it 'sex- oo -al'.
I glanced up at him, lips all pouty: "You mean 'sexy'?"
He nodded slightly, smiled and said, "Yes, 'sexy' is ok - but 'sexy' is different than 'sexual', porque, many of womans can be 'sexy' for the clothes and the body, but you are 'sexual' in you personality inside. My penis is tired all day when I am working, but when I think to you, when I see you, my penis is - whooo!" He made a swinging gesture - sideways, with his hand. That made me laugh! He kept watching me, a little grin playing on his lips.
"Tu' me gustas, I love tu cuerpo - you body is so beautiful. I love you cintura and you caderas. Very hot for me, so much beautiful, bay-bee."
He made a shapely hourglass gesture with both hands. I glowed and smiled with pleasure, it made me feel fabulous! I knew that 'cintura' meant 'waist' and I asked what was 'caderas'- he touched my hips. So I knew.
At the table, he cut chunks of steak and turned towards me with a forkful. I opened, and he fed it to my waiting mouth. He does these sweet funny things, making me share or taste his food. Why it is so very charming to me, I don't know! He even holds his hand under my chin and puts a spoonful or forkful of food into my open mouth. Like feeding a child! Done eating, he was ready for something more.
"Baby, now we make el sexo. Come, we need take a shower."
"Ok - but I don't want to get my hair wet."