She hesitated before knocking on the door. "What am I doing here?" she thought. "I must be crazy." But she knocked once, twice, the door opened and he was standing there, smiling.
"I was hoping you'd come." He opened the door wider, let her in. She could think of nothing to say, they both knew why she was there. A sudden flush of embarrassment brought hot blood to her cheeks as she remembered their conversation the night before.
It was at work, late, nearly time to knock off for the day, when he had plopped himself down in the chair next to her. He sat there a moment just looking at her, before he spoke. "So, did you think about what I asked you earlier?" She had, in fact, had been thinking of nothing else all afternoon.
Danny was remarkably easy to talk to about anything, anything at all. So it was perhaps inevitable that the conversation would turn to matters of a sexual nature. But it had still thrown her a bit when he asked her how often she and her boyfriend made love. She had managed to stammer an answer that she hoped sounded as casual as his question. "Uh, I don't know, maybe once, twice a week."
But then he asked her often she and her boyfriend fucked, and that threw her. "Well, it's the same thing, isn't it?" But the way he laughed softly told her that it probably wasn't, in his mind anyway. "No," he said "Not the same thing. But maybe that's the trouble?"
Actually, the trouble was that things were not going well in that department, not at all. She had lied when she said once a week, it was more like once a month, at best, and sex had become routine. And boring. Mark wasn't into trying anything new or different, and the few times she had tried to bring up the idea of experimenting, he had looked at her as if she had lost her mind. "What's wrong with the way we make love?" he had asked, his expression told her that he was hurt by the idea that she found anything lacking.
"There's nothing wrong with it, honey," she had told him. "It's just that I thought maybe we could, I don't know, spice things up a bit. We're getting like an old married couple."
"Well, I was kinda hoping that maybe we would be someday, but if you're not happy..." and with that she had decided to drop the subject. Then they made love in his preferred way, with him on top, her below with her legs wrapped around him, while he pounded away until he came with a shudder and a sigh. He always lay that way for a few minutes, on top of her, his weight pushing her down into the mattress, while she lay, his breath in her ear, feeling that she had missed something. Sometimes afterwards she would take a shower, and with soapy hands, bring herself to a hard bitter little orgasm. Other times she just waited until he rolled off of her, then turned to her side and fell asleep.
It was certainly not a "Cosmo girl" experience, but Mark was a great guy in all other respects, she really felt that she had no cause for complaint. Her friends told her he was a great catch, her mother loved him, and everyone they knew thought of them as a perfect couple. The fact that the sex was mundane and routine was not something she felt comfortable telling anyone. Until she met Danny.
Danny was widely thought of as gay, but he was actually bi, or so he said. He was not the least bit shy about it, and often joked that being bisexual doubled his chances of getting laid, which she thought was pretty funny. Some of the other men at work were a little uncomfortable around him, but those were generally the kind of guys that she thought of as jerks anyway. But mostly everyone liked Danny, it was hard not to, he was so easy-going and friendly. So when he started to seek her out during breaks to talk, she found herself opening up to him.
What she quickly learned was that Danny absolutely loved to talk about sex. At first it was in a friendly, joking sort of way, but as she warmed to the topic she found herself revealing a bit more than she intended. She told him that she loved Mark, but that something was missing sexually. He listened to her, let her talk without interrupting. It was like having a therapist, she could vent her feelings freely without hearing about how lucky she was to have a man like Mark. After a while, she began to look forward to break time, to their little talks. The days he wasn't there dragged by, and she missed him. He gave her his cell phone number and told her to feel free to call him anytime, about anything.
The night he asked her the "fucking vs. making love" question she had been in a horrid mood. She was starting to wonder exactly how lucky she really was. Sure, Mark was a great guy, but she was growing ever more frustrated by their tepid sessions, tired of having to depend on her own fingers to do what she felt Mark ought to be doing, and wondering whether she could actually spend the rest of her life with him. She found herself fantasizing dreamily about something more wild, even drifting into rather kinky territory. With Mark, she dared not broach those topics, but with Danny she found a willing, even eager listener. They would sit together, and talk about how this one or that one would be in bed. Sometimes they would laugh so hard imagining scenarios her stomach would hurt, and she would have a hard time keeping a straight face when she spoke with the 'stars' of the little dramas they concocted.
"So, am I right? Is that the trouble with you two?" He looked at her directly, waiting for her answer. "You know, making love is fine, but sometimes what a person needs is a good, nasty fuck." He brushed the hair away from her face. "When is the last time you were fucked? I mean really, truly, down and dirty fucked?" She laughed, a quick, bitter sound, then told him "Danny, I don't think I have ever been fucked that way." Then she added, "Maybe I should be bi too, it would double my chances, huh?"
He placed his hand on her thigh, squeezed, then said "I have an idea." She was listening. "Why don't you ditch Marky-Mark for the night, and come over to my place? There are some things I'd love to show you." He added, "You trust me, right? You know I'd never do anything to hurt you."
"Oh, I know. But what kind of things do you want to show me?" He just smiled and said, "Why don't you let me surprise you?" Then he winked. And that is what did it, what made her decision, that wink. It was a playful wink, a conspiratorial wink. Just a small gesture, but one that set her mind racing with thoughts. She agreed.