Hi, this is my first time attempt at writing, so please be gentle! This story is an excerpt of a larger story that I haven't written yet. Ideas are still swirling around for what happens before and after this part, but this section came to me so definitely that I had to type it up and get it out of my head. I hope you enjoy! :)
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We settled into a companionable silence and my eyes fell to the barely touched glass of wine in my hand. I swirled it gently and absentmindedly watched the tears slide slowly down the surface of the glass. Could I do this? I repeated the process several times and studied the formation and descent of the fat tears into the burgundy abyss. Liquid courage, I mused. Well, he certainly picked a good strong wine to fit the bill.
"I've heard of playing with your food, but playing with your wine is a new one to me." My eyes traveled up to Connor's face, which was fixed in an inquisitive look.
I smiled nervously at him, the edges of my mouth not quite meeting my eyes.
"I, um... I, uh... yeah..." I stuttered and trailed off. Smooth.
"Cassie, is something wrong?"
Now or never. I took a large swig of wine, and then drained the glass. Unable to look at Connor, my gaze fell to the now empty glass. I held it at an angle and spun it carefully by the stem, observing the dregs as they coated the sides.
"Connor, do you find me attractive?" I let out the breath I hadn't realized I was holding.
My ears began to burn as the silence grew louder. Finally, I watched as he removed the glass from my clutch and engulfed my hands in his. He brought my right hand up to his lips and gently kissed my knuckles. He returned my hand to my lap and tenderly ran his thumb across its back. His ministrations, although intending to be soothing, produced a frisson of excitement and I barely contained my shudder of anticipation. It was such a small touch, but I craved more. My heartbeat rose slightly and I licked my lips.
"Cassie, where is this coming from?" His voice sounded slightly huskier than normal.
I refused to, no, couldn't answer him, and instead continued to focus on the stroking motion of his thumb. What was my problem? I started this, this is what I wanted. Why couldn't I say anything? Coward.
"Look at me," he commanded.
He stopped stroking my hand. When my head remained where it was, he tilted it up by my chin. I reluctantly looked into his eyes and was surprised to see what, anger? Oh God, why did I open my mouth?
"Did Brent say something to you? Is that where this is coming from?" His gaze pierced through me.
"What? No!" I exclaimed. I stood up suddenly and paced in front of him a few times, my eyes wildly searched the room as I tried to gather my thoughts. My heart pounded in my chest. Fuck. Now or never. Get it out there.
"This has nothing to do with Brent. In fact, he's the furthest from my thoughts right now. This is about you and whether or not you find me attractive," I blurted out. Perhaps the wine was starting to kick in.
"Of course I find you attractive!" He rested his elbows on his thighs and ran his hands nervously through his hair. "I've always found you attractive." He took a deep breath and looked up at me. "You're fucking hot, Cass," he said simply.
"But not hot enough to fuck."
"Most definitely hot enough to fuck," he chuckled.
"Well then, I guess I've been too subtle," I muttered to myself.
"Cass, come here," he beckoned. I walked over so I stood in front of him and let him tug me into his lap.
"Cass, baby," he murmured as he tucked a stray hair behind my ear. "Do you want to fuck me?" He grinned mischievously.
"Yes! I mean, no!" I sputtered. I let out a small wail. "Ugh, no, I just want to die." I buried my face in his shoulder.