I've been living with Momma for a while now. It's the faded blue single-wide out along Cookinham Road. You may have been past it a time or two. There's nothing but corn all around us. Miles of it, it seems. It grew real nice this year, but that big monstrous machine come and cut it all down. Now it's just stubbly stumps as far as the eye can see. The leaves from our old cottonwood tree blow around dead and get caught in the stubble. Sometimes I just sit there out on the front steps, looking out over the vastness of it all, thinking it must be how it looks in wartime, after the bombs.
The front steps is my favorite place in the whole trailer. Out in the fresh air. Inside smells like Momma's medicine, last night's frozen dinners, and who knows what else perfuming the air. Momma's not shy about breaking wind.
I suppose she's always been that way, not caring much. Back when Daddy was still here she was better I guess, but I have trouble remembering that far behind. Daddy's long gone now anyway, so Momma's free to be her own self. Breaking wind is just part of her, I guess.
Daddy being gone is sort of why I'm writing down these thoughts. Momma's horny, see, and she sort of twisted things around and now she's got me supplying her with men. It seemed wrong and I didn't really know what to think about it when it started, but now it just seems kinda normal. The men don't know what to think at first, but then they realize they get two pussies to fuck instead of just mine alone and I think some of them kinda like it. Momma sure does like it. It's a real good thing we live way out here in the corn because she kicks up such a racket with some of the men; I'll tell ya, a big ol' cock can just make that woman
howl
. At first I hadn't heard anything like it, but I got so used to it I guess I'm doing it myself now. What's that old saying, a chip off the old block? There was a man named Herbert here a few days ago and he said he ain't never heard nothing like Momma and me. He was smiling and seemed happy about it.
Me supplying her with men sorta got started through blackmail, Momma telling me, after listening to me with a man one night, that she's gonna kick me out if I don't share.
I said, "That's crazy, Momma! I ain't sharing with you!"
She said, "You'll share or you'll be out for the winter! You remember how cold it gets around here. You sure as shit don't wanna be sleepin' out with them hobo bums."
Well, she was right, I sure as shit don't. I do remember winter around here. I've been gone for years, traveling with a man I don't travel with no more, but those cold winters when I was growing up aren't something I'll forget, chopping wood with Daddy until my fingers was so numb I didn't know if I'd ever feel them again. It don't snow so much, but it sure does get cold.
These days we got oil heat, with a tank leaned up against the trailer and a heater right next to Momma's chair. Blackie likes to lay on it but Momma shoos him off, says a cat with thick hair like his don't need no extra heat.
None of us need no heat right now. The corn's all cut and gone, but a hot spell's been hanging over us. I've been down to a bra and some thong underwear for days now, sitting out on the front steps, listening to men honking their horns. I always wave and try to be friendly, but sometimes it just gets tiresome. I don't know what they think they're doing with those horns they're blowing, they'd have a whole lot better chance at things if they'd just stop and say hello and show me what they got to offer.
It feels odd having it be ninety degrees when the leaves are all dead and down. Seems like something just ain't right with the world. There just aren't no more clothes I can take off without getting myself in trouble with the Sheriff. But I guess there wouldn't be much trouble. Deputy Nichols would just scold me and bring me in the trailer and make me suck his cock. Momma'd get all jealous when she heard me with him again on account of him not being interested in her. She'd say, "At least bring him in here so I can watch. There's no need for you to do your men all closed up in your room." The other times it happened she asked me all about his cock, whether he cum in my mouth, and how big it is. She likes 'em big and messy, with lotsa cum. I told her Deputy Nichols don't cum that much, but she still wants to see it because he is kinda big.
If I was to take off my undies out on the front steps to cool myself and he was to pull up with his siren going, she'd be happy as shit. Especially since she had a man just two days ago. I went down to the city to play some pool and I come home with one, a tall kinda handsome man. He works out in the fracking fields, looking for that oil that smells so much. A lot of the men I bring home work out there, out of town men who probably send most of their paycheck home to their wives and kids. A lot of the men still smell of the oil when they get here, but Momma don't mind. I guess I don't mind too much either, long as they know how to fuck good. You'd be surprised how many men don't know shit about that simple skill. It's a skill as old as the hills, and you'd think it'd be passed down proudly from daddy to son, but no, none of them seem to do any learning about it at all. I sorta take is as my duty to tell them some things. I figure their wives might appreciate it, or the next girl down the road. Some of the men sorta like me telling them things, but some don't take kindly to it at all. A few get all slap happy and leave me close to black and blue. That don't bother me too much because I like it both ways.
Momma told me she don't like it much when she hears a man get rough with me. I guess I'd be the same way if I had a daughter. The thing I haven't told her is those rough men often times throw money at me when they leave, thinking I'm some kind of a whore I guess, or feeling guilty for what they done. Maybe that's why I don't mind the rough stuff so much, or maybe I'm just kinda perverted and like getting slapped around. Either way, it's nice to have a sort of a balance and have a nice gentle man once in a while. Or more than once in a while.
That tall handsome man two days ago, he was a nice gentle one. There was no moon in the sky that night and it was pitch black dark when we got to the trailer. Blackie ran and hid underneath, and cottonwood leaves were blowing all around, sounding dry and rustley. John was the man's name, at least that's what he said.
I said, "Hi, Momma," when we walked in. I don't think John was expecting to see a mother of mine sitting there in her chair wearing just a bra and panties.
She said, "I heard you pull up, but it's just so hot I didn't think you'd mind."
"Momma, this is John," I said.
"I smell your work on you, John," Momma said. "You put in a long day today?"
"Yes ma'am," John said.
I saw him looking at Momma's big tits so I told him the way things were — he needed to fuck Momma first or else she'd kick us out and we'd have to do it out on the front steps or in the car.
"Not on my front steps," Momma said. "If I can hear ya I want my share."
John looked like a man who wasn't used to our kind of crazy, so I told him it was all good. I said, "Momma won't bite, and if you treat her nice you get me." I took off my t-shirt and let my tits wobble out in front of him. Men seem to like my tits a whole lot, and bare ones out in front of them always seem to seal the deal.
Pretty soon Momma was on her hands and knees on the couch, her old dingy panties hanging on around one knee. John was fucking her and she was starting to get loud. I'd settled into her reclining chair, just watching. John looked at me a lot while he was doing her.
"Open up that bra if you wanna see her big ol' tits," I said to him.
Momma was huffing out lots of oh yeah's and other happy sounds. She went all extra happy when her tits come out and she felt John's hands on them. He had those oil worker's hands, all rough, and black around the fingernails.
I said, "You smell that oil on him, Momma? That's why he's slippin' in and outta you so nice."
Momma must have agreed, because soon her voice rose up to a howl and she started cumming and cumming. She gets there with just about every man, but John seemed to make her eyes sparkle extra. Maybe it was because he was tall and handsome and one of the nice ones.
I was glad he didn't cum when she did, but he looked right close, right there on the edge of it. I took his hand and pulled him right outta Momma while she was still trying to figure out which way was up. I pulled him to my room and I didn't even suck him, I just gave him the younger version of what he'd just had, me on my hands and knees on my bed, him fucking me real fast and hard like he was all greased up with oil. Pretty soon I was making just as much racket as Momma'd done, maybe more.
We did it lotsa ways, John and me. He got to looking real happy when I was bouncing on him with my tits moving the way they like to do. He's one of the men who told me he liked them a whole lot, telling me how nice and pointy they are compared to other girls, and how they move different, too.
Momma's tits are even bigger than mine, but they used to be a similar shape, I think. There aren't too many older pictures of her around, but there's one I seen that Daddy musta took, Momma in a white undershirt that looks like one of his, sorta dirty from doing some kind of work. She's not wearing a bra and it's real noticeable, her pointy tips all big and swelled looking, like mine. They still look like that now when she's with a man, but the whole of her tits is softer and kinda mushier now, hanging and swinging under her different than mine do, when she's taking a man doggy style. I guess mine'll look like that someday.