Megan and I had been blogging buddies for a number of years. We covered similar issues and became friendly through e-mail exchanges. Though we lived in different cities, we had a few opportunities to meet.
But today was different.
We sat across from each other at a diner. She was in town for some business meetings. But something was different. Megan seemed a bit uneasy. She repeatedly brushed her black hair away from her face. Usually, the times I had met her, she seemed self-assured, but not today.
She seemed to have dressed nicer than I remembered in our previous meeting, but then she was in town for business.
I also was surprised to see that she had that despite her professional attire, an extra button on her blouse was undone, teasing me with a glimpse of her cleavage.
Megan's nervousness was apparent throughout lunch. Our conversation petered out. Then Megan fidgeted a bit and finally explained what was going on, "Dan, my life has been topsy-turvy lately. I don't even know which end is up. But what I do know, is that over the years that we've known each other, you calm me down. You know the right things to say to me. I need reassurance.
"You know I'm here for you, Megan," I said reaching across the table briefly touching her hand.
"No, Dan, you don't know what I mean. I want more than words from you. I want to be in your arms. I want to feel you inside me. I want to feel that I'm yours." Megan looked down and paused for a moment gathering up her courage, "I want you to love me." She was silent for a moment as her words began to sink in. "Look, Dan, I know I'm not being fair. You're married. But I don't want anything permanent, I just want ... need reassurance today."
This was flattering. Women didn't usually hit on me. I wasn't sure what to say, "But Megan I know you've written that you hate it when married men hit on you ..."
She stopped me, "You didn't hit on me."
I can't deny that I found Megan attractive. She had a pretty face and a nice busty figure. We had a pretty good rapport by e-mail (mostly) and the few times we talked. I'm sure that many men would say yes to a proposition like that from a women as desirable as Megan. But I was married, would a few hours of pleasure in the arms of a friend irretrievably damage my marriage?
Megan's voice interrupted my thoughts as she finished paying the bill "... I have meetings until 5. Here's the key card to my room. If you're not by 7, I'll assume that you're not coming over." She was serious. I watched her get up. Before she turned to leave she caught my eyes with hers. There was a hint of wanting in that brief stare. She walked out briskly, I watch as her skirt swished with her steps. Did she swivel her hips ever so slightly as she walked away to tease me?
I had about four hours to decide what I would do. Would I surrender to temptation and risk my marriage or would I behave and resist Megan's request? Who was I kidding? I was overwhelmed by Megan's advance. I was not saying "no" to her.
I had trouble working the rest of the day. I made an excuse to my wife that I had an after-hours business meeting.(It wasn't an uncommon occurrence.) How would my tryst affect my relationship with Megan? Would it be a one-time affair, or would this be the start of something bigger? And how would it affect my marriage? Would I be able to hide my indiscretion?
The conflicting emotions didn't go away until I reached Megan's door. Even though she gave me the card key, I didn't want to barge in, so I knocked. "Who's there?" came Megan's voice from inside.
I got silly and answered "I'm the big bad wolf and I'm here to eat you."
Megan opened the door and said with a huge smile, "Promises, promises, but I'll be satisfied with a really good loving." I looked at her for a moment and then we both started cracking up.
We were still laughing as Megan grabbed my hand to pull me inside and I used the other to close the door behind me. When we finished laughing, she put one hand on each side of my face, drew me near and started kissing me passionately. I was overwhelmed by her greeting and wrapped my arms around her, pulling her to me and kissed back with equal fervor.
I could feel my penis hardening. As we were kissing I felt my pants being unbuckled and unbuttoned and her soft hands sneaking into my underwear to stroke my penis, adding to my arousal. I broke the kiss and looked at her quizzically. She place a hand on my lips and said, "In a few minutes part of you is going to be inside me giving me the most wonderful pleasure one person can give another, I want to feel it with my fingers first." I don't know why, but that statement had a an effect on me. It made me want to have her immediately.
I started pushing her backwards towards the bed. It wasn't easy as we were holding each other, trying get under each others tops to feel the others skin, kissing and my pants were undone. Somehow we stumbled to our goal, and I let go for a moment to give Megan a gentle push backwards onto the bed. I looked at her lying prone, her hair spread out behind her head, a faint smile on her face, her clothes disheveled and her legs hanging over the edge of the bed. Wow. I couldn't believe I was here.