Growing up as a single child in a middle-income conservative family had its advantages. I was spoiled from birth. My room was full of toys I hardly ever used. I had my TV, Game Box with many games, and the most sophisticated laptop computer on the planet. I am not sure how they could afford it all unless they cut on their own needs.
In Elementary school, I did OK averaging B in most subjects. When I advanced to high school, my father hinted that I'd better try harder, otherwise I won't be able to get accepted to a good college.
That was the time I hit puberty and my body started changing. I was not much into team sports, so my muscles never grew to the size of many of my classmates, who played football. I liked swimming, though not as much as training consistently and participating in competitions. By the time I was a high school senior I was 6'1" and lean, weighing 172lbs. While I wasn't aware of it at the time, my face changed a lot too. A scant beard began growing on my face and my hair became straighter. And then my prick started elongating as well. It was embarrassing and I avoided going to the stalls when other guys were inside.
One day I was talking to a friend of mine and he mentioned that he noticed other people staring at me. I didn't understand what he was trying to say and looked at him questionably.
"Martin, don't play dumb. Look at my face. I have an average man's face that nobody will ever pay attention to. Your face is pretty!"
"Did you mean handsome?"
"No dummy. You are pretty!"
I looked at him, not certain if this was a compliment or an offensive remark. He smiled at me and moved to talk about homework. Soon enough I forgot all about it.
...
In my first year in college, I was 6'2", 175lbs, and... an 8" cock when fully erect! But my face looked much younger. It didn't appear manly as most people would describe it. It was too fine and delicate. If one would consider George Clooney's or Harrison Ford's a manly face, mine was more Harry Styles's type - thick lips, narrow nose, blue eyes, and long straight hair.
When I started at Duke University I didn't know anybody, but within 2 months it seemed like many people looked to befriend me. I noticed girls ogle me and try to catch my eyes. In the beginning, I was too shy to smile back or try to talk to them. Not long after that I also noticed several guys glancing at me more frequently than expected.
In class, I sat by a quiet Indian guy named Arun. Over the next month, we became buddies. We exchanged work assignments, played chess together, and occasionally met at the local swimming pool. Both Arun and I were doing well in school. One day his face turned ashen. I saw that on his last exam, he got a D.
"Arun, what happened? You are a much better student than me and you knew the material like the back of your hand..."
"I just found out that my girlfriend left me for another guy. I became too distracted to concentrate on the questions."
"I've never heard about your girlfriend or seen you with a girl before."
"I came here to graduate from a good university in America, but my original plan was to return to my hometown of Chennai once I was done. Jaya was my hometown girlfriend and she promised to wait for me in our village until I graduated."
"Look I am sorry to hear that. But I am sure that you'll find a nice girl around here."
"Martin, it's easy for you to say. You are very attractive. If you look more closely, you'll observe that both women and men are giving you the eye... You just have to choose! Unlike you, I am much shorter, with a small belly, and not particularly handsome. My chances are slim."
For a short time I felt bad for my friend, but later on, his words echoed in my mind, 'You are very attractive...', '...both men and women...'
Until that day I didn't have sex. Actually, except for kissing 2 girls and once touching a girl's chest over her blouse, I had no relationship experience. I decided to change it, but I didn't know how. Smiling back at a girl who gazed at me sounded like an embarrassing way to an introduction.
I began paying more attention to the people around me. I could identify several girls who were glancing at me at one time or another, but I didn't see anyone with whom I felt compelled to start a conversation. Several days passed.
One evening I was in a Walgreen store. As I was rushing toward the register I bumped into a young woman. She fell on the floor and had a small bruise that began bleeding.
I apologized profusely and she cut me off, "Young man, you talk too much. Help me stand up and everything will be OK."
I let her lean on me until she was stable enough, "That will be all. Next time, if you are more careful, you can meet girls the proper way..."
I stared at her face. She had a pretty face and was smirking at me. Her funny (cynical?) remark sounded like a challenge..."
"Ma'am, can I offer you a Band-Aid? carry your stuff to your car? invite you for a coffee?..." In retrospect, I had no idea what made me say these stupid things.
She looked back at me and her eyes examined me from head to toe, "Young man, I can take care of the tiny bruise. I planned to go to the Starbucks nearby anyway, so if you want to join me and explain why you were in such a hurry, I'll accept."
Soon enough we were sitting with our coffees, gazing at each other silently. I couldn't guess her age.
Out of the blue, the woman said, "My name is Miranda and I am 30 years old. I live alone with a cat named Sassy. What can you tell me about yourself?"
"I am Martin, almost 20 years old but going to be 40 soon. I am a student at Duke."
"I guessed that you were a very young student. Why did you mention going to 40?"
"I wanted to be older than you."
"Why?"
"I have no clue. Actually, I do. I wanted to impress you that I was more mature..."
"I would do such a thing only if I wanted to have a relationship with that person!"
"Miranda, do I have a chance?"
She glanced at me for a long moment and then laughed loudly, "Young man, at my age I have had multiple men trying to get my attention with all sorts of opening lines, but yours may be the most original. Tell me, why would you bother when you know nothing about me?"
"Miranda, the truth is that I have no idea. I have never done something like that and I am puzzled that I dared to do it. For some reason, your directness freed me to speak my mind."
"Martin, you are just a boy. I could almost be your mother. I suggest that you go back to school and find a nice 18-year-old girl who is going to be up your alley."
"Miranda, I don't want a teenager. I want to know YOU better! I promise that if you find me not to your liking, I'll leave without saying a word."
"Listen, I appreciate your persistence, but why me?"
"I believe in fate. I think that fate made us meet. So let's give it a chance."
"Young man, if you call pushing a woman to the ground a good beginning, I beg to differ..."
"Please Miranda, would you come with me to a brunch on Sunday?"
"Geez! You are so stubborn. I give up. OK, I'll meet you for a brunch. On one condition. If after the meal I am not interested, you do not bother me again. Deal?"
"Yes, lady. I promise. The best brunch around here is served at Press Coffee. May I pick you up from your home?"
"I'd rather drive myself. Here is my phone number. Reserve a table for a time between 10:30 and 12:00 and then call me."
...
Sunday morning I was debating what would be the appropriate clothes to wear. In the end, I decided on a pair of jeans and a light blue shirt.
I arrived slightly before the planned 11 am and the waiter led me to a corner table for 2. Miranda arrived at 11:15 dressed in a simple skirt and a short sleeve blouse with the upper button undone. Her cleavage looked nice. She apologized that it took her too much time to find a parking spot.
I faked being upset, "Lady, your excuse is unacceptable. You are responsible for me losing 15 minutes of my life. You continue wasting time and pretty soon I'll be as ancient as you, needing a cane to walk around..."
She grinned, "I like you. You are funny."
I smiled back, "Can I take this opportunity to invite you to go to the movies with me?"
"Martin, you are pushing your luck. We didn't start eating yet and you are already planning our future together!"
"Can you blame me? How do I know if later on you won't change your mind about me? At least now I still have some chance..."
"Please be serious for a moment. Let's choose what we eat before you start organizing our wedding..."
"I like their Salmon crepe and black coffee. What would you like?"
She concentrated on the menu and decided on the Mediterranean breakfast and Chai tea.
"Good choice. I had the Mediterranean once and it was delicious."
"So Martin, tell me more about yourself. You are a very attractive young man. Are you trying to add me to your Harem?"
"Ma'am, I wish. I do not have a girlfriend. Until now I busied myself with my studies, trying my best to pass the necessary tests. In the little free time I had, I was watching TV and occasionally go swimming with a friend."
"Is she pretty?"