Isabel and I met for dinner at her brotherâs restaurant in Old City after she returned from visiting Jimmy in Chicago. I waited at the bar, flirting mindlessly with the cute bartender, until Isabel finally arrived. An achingly beautiful redhead from Costa Rica, Isabel and I had met outside a club on Delaware Avenue, both trying desperately to shake a creepy guy who alternated his attention between me and her. We shared a cab only to discover we lived in the same apartment building, although not for much longer, as Isabel was planning to move to Chicago to be with Jimmy; it was true love, after all.
She was wearing a cropped blazer, snug white tee shirt, and dark denim blue jeans, her deep red hair loose around her shoulders. Classy as always, I thought, although I still felt pretty in my ruffled mini skirt and black tee. We turned heads as we were led to our table, the redhead and the blonde, a dirty joke in motion.
Isabelâs brother sent a bottle of wine to the table and we ordered the specials and chatted as we waited. Isabel was glowing like a woman who was either deeply in love or having great sex; of course, she was lucky enough to have both. She was particularly golden as she regaled me with stories of her week with Jimmy.
âHe picked me up from the airport and I wanted him right there, by the baggage carousel.â We laughed. She continued, in her soft accent:
âWe stood there hugging for like, twelve minutes. And he was hard and it turned me on so much. Just the feeling of him near my crotch was enough, gosh, we had to get out of there. And we controlled ourselves pretty well until we made it back to his apartment. As soon as we were inside, it was like, boom. Explosive. Clothes were torn off; we barely made it to the bed.â
I smiled behind my wine glass. Jimmy was a lover with simple tastes, a missionary-in-the-bedroom-only kind of guy. Adorable. Blonde. Canadian. As ordinary as Isabel was exotic. But Jimmy was sweet and kind and gentle and absolutely head-over-heels for her. Even the most vanilla sex was thrilling for them.
Isabel ran her fingers through her hair, clearly enjoying the memory. âHis hands are so amazing, Maidie. He touches me in the most erotic places: my thighs, the small of my back, my stomach. It was just so good to be touched by him and to touch him again. It was the hungriest sex weâve ever had, even though I only just saw him a few weeks before. Feeling his body on top of meâŠwow. I wanted to stay like that forever.â
I crossed my legs and squeezed my thighs together. The vaguest notion of good sex was making me squirm. It had been a while, a month, in fact, and as Isabel began again I made a mental list of possibly booty calls I could make tonight.
âJimmyâs such a cuddler though, Mae. All about touching and holding afterwards; honestly I think he enjoys that more than the actual sex. Itâs just nice. I can feel his love, you know,â and she blushed and we laughed over the sentimentality of the last comment.
âIâm jealous,â I told her, forking a carrot.
âAnd what about Nick?â
Nick. Yes. Iâd nearly forgotten about him. He was the only guy Iâve dated since being out here that I genuinely liked. But we lost contact sometime after Valentineâs Day when we bumped into each other at a bar, he with some friends and me on a date; we hadnât been exclusively but I think he was hurt by it. After that we had barely spoken. But the mention of his name stirred my interest. He was so cute, tall and well-built, dark hair, good looking in a generic kind of way but with something else about him, a ruggedness, a quiet sexiness that turned me on. Like the guys who worked in the lumber yards back home in Oregon. Nick would be a good lay, I decided, if I could only ignore the fact that I cared about him as well.
I shrugged and changed the subject. âWhat else did you and Jimmy get into?â
Isabel gave me a look, knowing I was avoiding the topic, but continued anyway. âI woke him up with a blow job,â she said so nonchalantly that I nearly spit out my water.
âIt was a lot of fun,â she said with a smirk âWhen I woke up he was hard but still asleep, and I was horny enough to do it, so I pulled the sheet down and took him out of his boxers and just sucked him for awhile. He didnât wake up for about 10 minutes, but once he did and realized he wasnât dreaming, he came like crazy.â
âHot.â I shifted my tongue around in my mouth; I knew I needed it bad when going down on a guy sounded that appealing. Eventually our conversation drifted away from sex, but I was only half listening. I really wanted to get laid and the thought of Nick aroused old feelings. I drove back to my apartment and sat in my parked car for a few minutes, staring at his phone number on the screen of my cell phone. But I wussed out and scrolled down, finding Paulâs number, the fuck buddy I fooled around with last summer.
Paul loved pussy, with a mouth made for oral sex, and never demanded reciprocation. We chatted for a few moments but when the moment came for me to invite him over, I realized that I didnât want him in my bed. Didnât want his mouth on my pussy. Didnât want him inside me, although I was craving the deepest depth. I said goodbye to a clearly disappointed Paul and went into the apartment.
If you want something done right, you have to do it yourself. Or so the adage goes. I resigned myself to the fact that tonight, since I hadnât the balls to call the guy I really wanted to see, Iâd have to take care of myself. I ran a bath, lit some candles, and put Al Green on the stereo. I felt awkward and terribly unsexy crammed into my too small bathtub, but slowly began to relax as the warmth of the water caressed my skin. I began to admire my body, firm and toned from twelve plus years of ballet but also soft, feminine, and a little fuller since Iâd stopped training almost four years ago. My breasts were perky and small, not too small though, a good generous handful, and I liked the way they sat above my flat stomach. I had very little pubic hair, but what little I had I kept trim; being hairless made me feel like a little girl while keeping a little reminded me that I was, after all, a full grown woman. I was fairly average height, just above 5â5â, but my legs were long and I smiled at my tight thighs. Maidie Greer, I said to myself, you are a nice piece of ass.