While not necessary to understand the story, it wouldn't hurt to read the first part of this story, Let it Snow. Part II takes place approximately two years later...
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My truck started easily in the morning. I looked in the rearview mirror, noticing the bags under my eyes. Yet again, a full night's sleep had been denied. Too many dreams wandered through my head at night.
I pulled out of the parking lot, and headed to school. It was only a couple minutes away, but I was running a little late. The drizzling rain was going to be an issue, but I had heard it was supposed to taper off soon.
My tendency to show up late had not gone unnoticed by some of the other teachers. A few snide comments had been made, but I had let them go.
I didn't care, to be honest.
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I pulled into the school, and cursed at the lack of plowing. No decent place to park. Yes, now I was officially screwed. I parked in the far lot, and jogged over the rain-drenched pavement to the main doors.
As I pulled the doors open, I pondered whether to stop in the office and check my mail, or just head directly to my classroom. I decided to sneak in and out of the office, in the hope that no one would say anything.
It was a valiant effort, foiled only by a student running headfirst into me. He hit the ground with a thud and a sheepish "sorry, Mr. O'Shea".
Wonderful. I made an attempt to laugh it off, but the look on the secretary's face was enough to let me know that my late entrance had gone unnoticed. She tapped her watch at me in that annoying kind-of way.
Yes, wonderful.
I grabbed the papers out of my mailbox, and headed off to homeroom. I took the long way around, making sure not to run into her.
That was the last thing I needed.
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By the time lunch rolled around, I had pondered the question "Why did I get out of bed today?" about 20 times. I had left the tests to my upper division Comp Sci's class at the apartment; I had planned on spending the period going over their miserable grades with them, but instead had to come up with something on the spot.
The moment I had that realization, the department head showed up for an unscheduled observation.
I knew that there were stories going around, about me. I was making a conscious effort not to be present for any... awkward questions or conversations. Although I had been on-campus for two years, I was still an outsider to most of the faculty. The conditions under which I'd been hired hadn't exactly endeared me to my "colleagues".
I leaned back in my chair, irritatingly tapping a pencil against my chair. I decided to go through the memos in my mailbox.
The top sheet was a small note, written in crisp penmanship. My heart skipped a beat.
Mr. O'Shea – The deadline for new teachers, regarding employment next year, is Friday, December 13th. Please let me know what you're going to do. Best, Mr. Williams
I sighed, and rubbed my temple. Great.
"Mr. Williams" and "Mr. O'Shea".
Not "Chuck" or "Scott". All of a sudden, he doesn't know me, let alone remember all the times I had eaten dinner with his wife and... her sister.
Which means she hadn't told him.
Yes, this day was complete and utter shit. I crumpled the note and tossed it away.
God, I needed a drink.
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I flew out of school, blowing off the faculty meeting. I never did more than nod my head and smile, anyways. Besides, I had somewhere I needed to be.
I had made the odd choice, several years ago, to take a second job at the local mall. It was where my current employer had... ah... "found" me. I hadn't worked there the following winter, but this year, with everything going on, I decided I needed all the "Christmas Cheer" I could get.
So, I returned to the greatest job of all:
Santa Claus.
The irony wasn't lost, during self-reflection. I was bitter, unhappy and miserable. But I was attempting – with some measure of success, I must proudly admit – to bring happiness to others, while trying to cheer myself up.
Yes, there's some fucked-up circular reasoning there. But, I do what I have to do to get by.
Teaching was supposed to be my escape. Now it's become my prison.
I sat in the locker room, changing quietly into my garb. The cute little elf made a comment to me, but I wasn't in the mood. I had way too much fun with an "elf" in here, once. No, I wasn't going to make that mistake again.
I walked out with the elf, all dressed up as Saint Nick. I sat down in the chair, adjusted myself and took a deep breath.
"Ho, Ho, Ho!" I called out. "Who wants to see Santa?"
Blessedly, there was already a line of children to take my mind off matters.
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6 hours, and one sore ass later, I wearily stepped into the shower, scrubbing my body down. The mall had added the showers to the locker room, a gesture of which I was readily grateful.
I had remembered to bring some clean clothes (but not those damn tests, my conscience reminded me), and I was still running late.
I was finally going to get that damned drink I'd been craving all day.
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The scotch ran down my throat, smooth as ever. And it tasted fantastic.
"You look like shit." Mike said.
My shoulders slumped. "Please let me enjoy my drink."
"Well, you do look like shit."
"I really am trying to enjoy this drink. Do you even know how they make scotch?"
"I don't really care."
"I'm sure there's a good reason you're my friend. But right now, I'm having a difficult time remembering why." I commented wryly.
"Because when you're being an ass, I tell you?"
"Oh, this is fantastic. And how is it you don't let me do the same for you?" I snarled, not pleased at getting a lecture.
"Because I have Carly to keep me in line."
"Really, 'Mr. Morals'? And you cheated on her with Elaine, because...?" As soon as the words were out of my mouth, I knew I had crossed the line. Mike stared at me, obviously pissed off.
"There's a reason you always end up alone. Even in college, you were like this. You always push people away." He stood up, and grabbed his jacket, tossing a five-dollar bill onto the bar.
"Look, I'm sorry, I just had a bad da-"
"You always have a bad day, you realize that? You want to be a miserable, selfish prick, fine. Be a dick. Just don't start your shit with me." He slipped his jacket on.
"Mike, really, I didn't me-"
"There's a reason no one else will come out with us. Everyone's sick of your crap." He stood right in my face. "It's not your fault, or mine, that she screwed you over. We all have problems with our girlfriends and wives, but we all face them. You just try to run away."
He gestured to my glass.
"Or try to drink it away."
He walked out the door, without another word.
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I sat there, nursing my drink. Lost in my thoughts, I found myself both angry with Mike, and angry with myself.
I knew he was right. That wasn't an easy pill to swallow, but he was right. I really did have my head up my own ass. Again. I knew that it wasn't as bad as he intimated, but I knew we'd patch this up. It would just take some time.
I still felt like an ass, though. I walked over to the pool table, and mindlessly put 4 quarters in. Mike and I were supposed to play a couple games, but that was obviously not going to happen.
I needed some practice anyways. I racked the balls, walked to the other end of the table, and shot the cue ball towards the other end of the table.
"Nice shot."
I blinked. Apparently, I had an audience. Standing off to my right was a girl, holding one of the pool cues.
"Hey, thanks." I replied awkwardly, trying to decide if I wanted to practice, or let her cut in and play.
"You playing with anyone?" She asked, gesturing to the table.
"No, not really." I said, taking another shot, and missing. I cursed out loud.
"Umm. Okay." She paused, chalking the cue.
"Wait. Sorry." I said. I stopped for a second, and took a deep breath. "You wanna play?" I managed a weak smile.
She chuckled, the light flashing off the hoop pierced through her lip. "Yeah, but I'm not really good."
"Well, it beats playing with myself." I said, trying to make a weak joke. Unfortunately, it came out the wrong way.
She smiled broadly. "How's that again?"
I winced, and smiled sincerely in spite of myself. "Okay. That wasn't what I meant. See, I meant-"
"It's okay. I get it."
"No, really, see, I was intentionally trying to make a bad joke..."
She waited, a sly grin on her face. "And...?" she gestured.
"Okay. Forget it. Let's just say foot in mouth, and move on?"
She laughed. "Deal, I'll rack."
She tossed off her leather jacket, and my eyes almost popped out of my sockets.
"There is no way you walk around wearing that all day." I pronounced.
A tight silver tank top and shiny silver shorts matched her silver high-heels. She smiled.
"Yeah, I just got off from work. Pool relaxes me." She said, shaking her jet-black hair.
"Dancer?" I asked.